ORD!!

FINALLY GOT BACK MY PINK IC!!!!

Okay lar, was so busy the past 2 days tt I slept only like 5 hrs per night. Monday was basically an "excursion" to my reservice unit - 769 SIR which is the new Infantry Training Institue(ITI) at Jurong camp there. I looked at the map... Wah laoz, I think only like 2km walk away from NTU lorz. It's very very sianz lar. 4SIR is already located so near to NTU, then next time Jurong camp is even nearer to NTU. I donno y NTU is surrounded by so many camps lar. Anyway, the facilities at ITI are SO DEMN NEW as compared to 4SIR and I also saw my reservice battalion RSM. Wah laoz, the way he talked arz, nobody likes him already, and he can still say what "I look forward to working with u all during reservice". Yucks lar, he's like so @#$%^&. Owellz, watever, wait till reservice is here then I care.

And yesterday was the combat shoot. OKAY LAR, it was demn easy as compared to ATP. Wahahaz, and SURPRISINGLY, I got 15/15 for day shoot. But then wah laoz, at the end of it, like 6 details out of 7 details got marksman, so tt explains how "idiot-proof" and easy the shoot was. But night shoot sucks lar, CUZ MY STUPID LAD light SPOILT, whereby everyone else who has common sense will obviously use the LAD light instead of throught the scope. It's like u look at the scope at night u cannot see properly lar, as compared to using LAD. N suck thumb lorz, I have no choice but to juz use the scope to shoot. But luckily didn't bo-bo, missed only 3 shoots for night shoot out of the 15. So I guess this combat shoot is really 100000000 times EASIER than ATP lar. But most impt I can pass and no need re-shoot, then tt's good enough.

And today's the grand finale, where there's CNY celebration + giving out of pink IC to those Feb ORD ppl. Okay lar, alot of ppl were busy finding the relevant ppl to sign clearance form so tt we can get back our IC. Only 90+ ppl ORD in Feb, whereas the remaining 300+ ppl will ORD in march. Luckily mine wasn't much of a problem, managed to get all the signatures and hence got back my IC together with my Certificate of Service from CO during the ceremony. But there's still an ORD dinner in march, and so will still see the ppl soon..

And life still goes on, not like it's very "big deal" to get back ur pink IC. Owellz, true, it only means that one stage of ur life has been completed, and now is the start of another, which I guess shld be working part-time to earn money lorz. Actually while writing this, I could still remember very clearly during those weeks of A-levels, when I curse n swear everyday that studying is so demn @#$%^&*@#$%^&*. Where I really really really juz felt like ponning one subject, scolding myself y I find trouble by taking one extra subject. Everyday drank so many cups of coffee juz to stay awake to mug. Memorise Bio till @#$%^&*(. The thoughts of those days simply turn me off, and I donno if I can make it next time anotz. Owellz, nvm, just wait till 6 more months bahz. For now is juz happily studying Japanese to prepare JLPT3 end of the yr.

And last of all, Happy Chinese New Yr to everybody!

気持ちが悪い!!!!

Demn sianz. Tml morning need to book in back and then wait till Wed then book out. Haiz, wat a blardy waste of time.

初めて..

じゃ...　僕の初めて日本語が使いですね。
今日の日本語授業は簡単ですね。でも、僕の聴解はあまりわからないですね。いくら勉強したら、私は日本語が下手です。

来週の日本語授業がないから、午後は暇ですね。いいね！では、僕は幸せな人に　なります。

Finally I'm able to input some Japanese characters. But I'm just writing rubbish above lar, next time I think must study more so that I will know what I wan to write, and try to be as grammatically correct as possible.

頑張ってください!!!

Haiz, I also don't know what's the problem with me lar. Sumtimes I think my driving still okay.. Then there will be times when my driving is so @#$%^&*. It's very demoralising lar, n summore my test is in 3 weeks time. HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ. Actually I also donno leh, cuz I realised one thing. I CANNOT DRIVE PROPERLY DURING RAINY DAYS LAR. Not tt I cannot see properly, is the problem with the carpet and my shoes. Cuz u know typical sneakers or sport shoes, their soles are made of rubber rite. Then the carpet is also made of rubber rite? So when both r wet n they r rubbing against each other, then will produce a screeching sound tt simply piss me off lar. Then not only tt lar, I find it more difficult to control the clutch pedal, like when I wan to slowly release to biting point (based on gut feel and past experiences), then gently release rite.. But when it's wet, and I release abit, like the car NEVER move.. FINE, so I release "abit" more then engine either stall or take ages to move off. Wah laoz, demn pek cek lar!!!!!!!!

Okay lar, I know I sound as if I'm making excuses.. But the thing is I really HATE HATE to hear tt screeching sound whenever I release the clutch pedal. And it juz ruined my mood and my drivng becomes demn terrible. U know, when u pek cek, u juz like "ARZ>> FARK LAR, DON'T CHECK BLIND SPOT, DON'T TURN ON SIGNAL LIGHT..." blah blah.. I think I sure kana car accident if I drive while I'm in bad mood.

Listening...

And just now I went back to camp JUST TO do a stupid ABSD survey (aka commitment survey), which I have done so many times b4. Owellz, nvm, at least this is the LAST time I'm doing it..

And after MUCH much thinking on HOW to improve my Japanese Listening, I bought the "Tanoshiku Kikou 1 + 2" which comprises of 2 books and 4 CDs. Okay lar, cuz I was surfing the MOELC then realise they use this to teach O-level Japanese Listening component.. And summore got the CDs and answer, so can easily replay n replay n replay a few hundred times until I can UNDERSTAND what the hell they r toking abt. And I think these 2 books shld be MORE THAN enough for me to practise my listening till JLPT3 level, although it's definitely way below sufficient for JLPT2, but hecks, I shld just concentrate on clearing my JLPT3 this yr 1st..

And so juz now I was looking at chapter1 (Numerals) for the listening book. So expected lar, confirm is test on all the ichi, ni, san, yon, go roku, nana..bla blah blah.. And so I played the CD, okay, starting still okay, but when they tok big big numbers like a hundred thousands tt kind then I think I'm listening to Greek liao arz. Wah laoz, this shows how terrible my listening is.. And summore listening constitues 25% leh in JLPT, so CANNOT afford to just waste tt 25%. Maybe JLPT4 can afford to screw up listening, but then from JLPT3 onwards, whereby the grammar n vocab also getting harder, then must try to score in all components arz. I think maybe I shld just keep replaying, n replaying n REPLAY non-stop until I can make sense of the "spoken japanese" in the CD....

Yakuza Moon

So I finally read finish "Yakuza Moon" which JingWen lent me yesterday. I think most ppl shld know that book, cuz it's like placed over the counter at most book stores, meaning how popular this book is which can be compared to books such as Harry Potter. Btw, Yakuza (Gokudo - 極道) means gangster in Japanese society arz.

Let me copy from the website an overview of the book:

A shocking yet intensely moving first-person account of one woman's experience of growing up in Japan's yakuza society.Born into the family of a wealthy yakuza boss, Shoko Tendo lives her early years in luxury. But labeled "the yakuza kid," she is the victim of bullying and discrimination from teachers and classmates at school, and of her father's violent rages at home. The family falls into debt, and Tendo falls in with the wrong crowd. By the age of fifteen she is a gang member, by the age of eighteen a drug addict, and her young adulthood is marked by a series of abusive and violent relationships with men.After the death of her parents and her own attempt at suicide, Tendo turns her life around. A pivotal moment is the decision to get tattooed: an act of empowerment that helps her take control of her life.This is the universally appealing story of a young woman's successful struggle to escape from a life of ostracism and abuse, and a rare glimpse into Japan's closed yakuza worldfrom an insider's viewpoint.

Somehow I think this book makes me kinda emotional as I was reading it. It's like at such a very young age (pri sch age), she already faced difficulties/challenges which most of us can't imagine. She was hooked on drugs, hang out with the wrong crowd, had sex with countless men, be it "willingly" or "forced". Then being abused physically by men, meaning kana beaten up umpteen times, until gonna die tt kind. But of cuz, the part which I was most touched, was when she felt very sorry towards her parents, for all her wrong doings and rebellious acts. However, before she could have a chance to repent to repay back her parents, her parents didn't live long and passed away. Haiz, I really felt sorry for Shoko San. In short, I think her life was one which normal ppl like me and you cannot imagine, and you will go "wow" or "omg!" as u read the book. Really, it's totally amazing that being traumatised so much throughout her growing stage life, she was able to repent in the end and forget her unhappy past. I guess not many ppl will be able to take it arz.

And from the book, I also learnt one thing. Okay, not that I learn from the book, cuz I also got thought of it b4. Just tt Yakuza Moon so-called "reassures" my thinking. When you are young, you are so naive and gullible, thinking how "perfect" this world is, living in a carefree life. But as u grow up, enter the society, interact with all sorts of weird ppl u can ever imagine, then u will start to realise what a broken down world we r in. Everything around us is just illusions and pack of lies most of the time. Those so-called "moral values" that we learn in pri sch/sec sch CME lessons are just bull-shit. Integrity? Dignity? They are just bull-shit lar. Just how many ppl around us can give u tt image "Wow..this person got integrity sia" or smth like tt. It's like very RARE lorz. Instead I think u bump into scums or jerks more often than not. However, Yakuza Moon proves that family kinship is really impt. Right at the end of the day, although after going thru so much quarrels/fights, the ones that r gonna stay by u is not ur "Hi-bye friend" but ur very own family members. No matter how screwed or farked-up r u, ur family will still be the one that stays by ur side.

Bleahz, I talk majiam I like giving some CME lesson. Owellz, I also don't know why I'm saying all these. Maybe cuz I find that book so fantastic that it's really really worth the money to buy and read it.

And I think I find it very very hard trying to memorise the possible pairs of transitive verbs and intransitive verbs. Piangz. Just hope that I won't take AGES to memorise arz...

ORD.. NOT in peace

Although it's ONE WEEK left to ORD.... Seems like I have so many things to do. Next week Tues there's combat shoot lar. Wtf!? Just a few days b4 ORD then also wan to have combat shoot. Sucks lar. Meaning I must book in on Mon night then have the shoot on Tues, then stay overnight until Wed(CNY eve). And just now my friend sms me say "Ehz.. u know next Wed CO wans to hold a parade to give out the IC to those ORD-ing next week.." I was like "OMGGGGGGGGGGG!! This is so LAME lar, wah laoz, take back IC also wan to hold some parade!?" It's really demn amusing to hear that lar, cuz if it's like typical ORD parade then still okay lorz, like invite parents, wear no.1 tt kind or watz. BUT IT'S LIKE JUST TO GIVE OUT OUR PINK IC!!!!???? Demn boliao lar. Haiz, so basically next week my Tues is burnt due to the shoot, then Wed morning during the parade take back IC must faster get the hell outta camp lar. Really lorz, I can't stand my unit. Even the last 2 days of ORD also must come out with stunts. Haiz. Nvm, for the sake of the pink IC, seems like I also got NO CHOICE but to go back to do the shoot + attend the parade. Sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks.

Haiz. I'm really worried whether I will be able to get my driving license b4 sch starts in Aug. A few days ago, my father said he wans to sell away my sis's stupid Hyundai Matrix (farked up car) and most probably will buy Nissan Latio (which I think in any way is BETTER than Matrix). As ULTIMATELY I'm gonna drive to NTU for the next 3 yrs everyday, so of cuz it's impt that I like the car lar. Anyway, my parents wanted both of us to have equal usage next time, but NO WAY lar. Fuck. My sis stays in that stupid hostel for 4 yrs, and as a result for the past 4 yrs she doesn't even care a single shit that happens in the house. Everytime juz come back on Sat then Sun go back, n of cuz never help out at all. And of cuz for the past 4 yrs I'm NOT happy. Not that I miss her presence, cuz I will definitely quarrel with her most of the time. Is just that she managed to "smoke" her way out of many things during this 4 yrs. U know, like saikang or watever shit. And even though she lives in hostel, MY FATHER ALLOWS HER TO DRIVE THAT FARKING MATRIX TO HER HOSTEL LAR.

WTF!!?? U stay hostel, then still can drive to sch? why? Why? WHY!!!!???? JUST BECAUSE YOURS TRULY DOESN'T HAVE A FARKING DRIVING LICENSE. Of cuz I'm not happy. U know, I don't like it why she so SHIOK. First, she can siam so many things. Secondly, stay in hostel still can DRIVE to sch. My goodness, I'm demn demn DEMN buey song.

And so during family dinner just now, I DEMANDED that if I can get my license, then I shall have priority in using that NEW NORMAL PLATE NISSAN LATIO. Of cuz lar, since I don't stay in hostel, then I shall drive lar. Then my sis said wat during weekdays, when I come back from sch, then at night she use the car. Then weekends must let her use the car also. NO WAY LAR. If I can, I will like 7am leave house then I return at 10pm tt kind. EVen I have NOTHING on, I will purposely stay in sch to "STUDY" until late late then go home. And I declared loudly I shall VOLUNTEER to go back sch on Saturday to do projects or study. Obviously in a demn sacarstic tone that my family didn't like. But I also don't care. Then if I really drive to sch, especially between 7am to 9am on weekdays, must pay $2 per day for the ERP. Then must consider carpark, ERP usage, then petrol. So maybe one month will need around $500 to $700?? Fark lar, not that I'm paying. And I think I like so choosy. I say I want normal plate(obviously), then the meter must not be in the middle 1, such as Hyundai Matrix or Toyota Vios. Fark man, don't u all find it demn inconvenient that it's in the middle? Wah laoz, like so retarded lar. And of course must be AUTO car. For hell's sake, I can't DRIVE a manual car!

And guess what? My sis said "O..nvm lorz, don't buy new car. Just change the matrix red plate to normal plate" O fark man, I knew she will say that.

And hence, I said perhaps after CNY, then I shld learn class2A license also. And since I'm gonna work for the next 6 months, then if WORSE COME TO WORSE, if there is no DECENT car for me to drive, then maybe I spend like 5K to buy a motorbike then ride to NTU everyday lar. Of cuz they worried, but I replied in a sacarstic manner "Aiyaz, NO MONEY DRIVE CAR THEN RIDE BIKE LORZ. If die then die lorz. Not that my life is worth $1000000000 or smth like that".

Bottom line is: I shall not take MRT/bus to NTU. NO NO NO NO WAY MAN!!!!!! The options are either I drive or I ride bike.

But why am I so stubborn?> I also donno leh. I think I'm demn pissed that I didn't go to Japan. Maybe I still have grudges over them, Everything I also think of myself. I then don't care abt how it will affect others. So next time even if I can just spend $110 on the MRT + Bus concession and take public transport to sch like most students did, I also don wan, I rather be spendthrift and like use up $500 a month so that "I can travel to sch."

And hence, I really hope I can pass my driving test! Hope I can get my driving license ASAP. And most impt get it b4 Aug. If I can't get either my driving/bike license, then fark it, I'm such a balrdy loser man.

I'm pissed lar. I'm angry. I don't care. I want things my way.

Work @ Kinokuniya??

And after much thought, I have decided to apply to be a part-time cashier at Kinokuniya(Orchard). Okay arz, it's weekdays from 6pm to 10pm... So if I really can get the job, then maybe I will need to find some other job so tt I can do during day time. I went for the walk-in interview and there were quite a number of ppl who wanna apply to work in Kino too. Argz.. Just hope I can get mine. And the interview was basically talking cock, first look at my o-level n a-level cert. So the interviewer asked where I'm going n I say NTU Acct and she was like "Hmm.. Okay..." Don't know what tt means. Anyway, then she asked me describe my personality. As expected, I just say I LOVE Japanese and I bought alot of Japanese books which I think cost abt $500++ in total so far? Say I'm currently attending JLPT3 level Japanese course. It's really tok cock lar. So towards the end, she just say that if I'm short-listed, then I will be notified within the next 2 weeks, b4 CNY, as I agreed with her that I shall start work on 11/02/08, which is the week after CNY/ORD. So okay lar, if by CNY/ORD I nv receive any news then I shall go recruit express to find work lorz. So now also no harm trying. If I can get the job, then it's a bonus. If cannot, then nvm lorz, find some other full-time job to work until Aug.

Karma???

So I went for my dental FFI with some of my camp friends. It's like wait 45 minutes and then u go in less than one minute come out liaoz. -_-''' Owellz, nvm, not that I'm gonna have another dental FFI again.

And so I was chatting with a friend of mine how's things in camp ever since I was on "off+leave" from last last fri till now.. And he told me so many things happened! Okay, to make things easier, let's name these 3 person, Mr. A, Mr. B and Mr. C. So in terms of rank/appt, A is the biggest, followed by B then C.

In terms of my relationship with them, Mr. A is okay to me, Mr. B is okay too but can be a fucker at times, then Mr.C is a demn blardy farker at all times. oO.. Btw, Mr.C always suck up to Mr.B and Mr.A, then Mr.B will always suck up to Mr.A.

And so within this one week or so, bad things happened to A and B. For Mr. A, it seems that his car was badly vandalised and damaged by someone. Tyres kana punctured, kana splashed acid till the metal corroded away, all the windows kana smashed, kana scratched, lots of paints, blah blah. It seems the person who did it was able to "switch off' the alarm or smth like tt, and so it didn't ring till the next day when Mr. A went down to his house carpark to see his car in such pathetic state. And it seems that the repair cost abt 10K lorz.. that's alot man... Of cuz he was demn angry and knew sum1 in camp did it, but then I also donno who did it. Okay, fine, but then Mr.A offended too many ppl in camp (excluding me) that he also didn't know which guy did such a thing to his car.

For Mr. B.. Wellz, in the past, there was a case when one of his men's wife was abt to give birth, but he refused to let him book out to accompany his wife during the labour. But overall in daily life, he's a SUPER wayang person, and just like Mr. A, many ppl curse n swear at them. N according to my friend, this Mr. B's wife has a miscarriage last week and he was very upset over it. But to the rest out there, they don't sympathize with him n in fact, felt he deserved it.

And so now is Mr. C. When he heard n knew abt wat happened to the 2 of them, he cried with them. Some ppl guess that perhaps he just wanna WAYANG to suck up to them, must like "act abit" to show he share with them their sorrows blah blah. But some ppl who r of the "same level" as Mr.C felt that he cried becuz he felt that smth might happen to him, after seeing such things happened to Mr.A and Mr.B. Of cuz, like I mentioned earlier, this Mr.C is the most blardy farker.

Personally, I'm someone who believes in karma. If you always like to do all sorts of funny things to saboh ppl, ill-treat them, blah blah, then u shld know sooner or later, u will get punished. I believe regardless of what religion u r in, we believe the "good gets good and bad gets the bad". It's just a matter of time. I don't have to curse this Mr.C now, although he really did alot of shit to me in the past, that up to now I still cannot 4get how a fucker he is.

So Mr. C, you better be careful. I won't say anything, I won't do anything. I will leave it to supernatural to judge u.

So morale of the story, pls stop thinking that u can get away with things if u know u always do evil things to ppl. Okay lar, I admit I do get back at certain ppl as usually they stepped on my tail first. But watever it is, Karma applies to everyone. Applies to me and you, so don't be naive n indulge in some kind of "self'-denial" that "oO.. Nth shall happen to me. I shall smoke thru everything". To such a person, I can only say one thing: "GO TO HELL!!!"

Driving Sucks.

I think my driving really sucks. Not just sucks, but sucks to the max! Sumtimes I just get so disappointed with myself wat an idiot I can be when comes to driving, making tons of errors with lousy techniqes and such low regard for safety. Haiz. And it's 1 more month to my driving test. To be frank, I won't be surprised if I get 30+ or 40+ demerit points for my first driving lesson. Really, my psycho-motor skills really DEMN TERRIBLE lar.

Haiz. Sad lar. Sumhow I regretted never learn Auto. But then again, it's not as if Auto is as easy as most ppl think. Afterall, if ur driving skills suck, don't care auto or manual also CMI. So I shld stop blaming on y I nv learn auto, but instead blame on y my driving so terrible.

So I continued lesson 41 of Minna No Nihongo at the Japanese Language School which I attended last year. Hmm... Luckily this time round I did abit of self-study b4 lesson, so today's 3 hrs of Japanese lesson wasn't that "alien" to me. Compared to last year when I was so busy and with so little free time, to choke out time for studying Japanese was so difficult and ended up I always get lost in wonderland. And this time round I think both my lecture and tutorial sensei are good. Lecture is taught by Naomi sensei and tutorial by Reiko sensei. Actually some of the students who were taught by them previously also have very good comments abt them, so okay arz, at least not like previously my tutorial sensei. OMG lorz, so terrible, her lesson was so boring that during lect there were 10 students, but after the 15 minute break when tutorial comes then left 4 students only, cuz the rest all find it too sucky to stay for tutorial. But this time round the tutorial was good as the sensei got engage the class in discussions, so no one finds it bored n stuff like tt.

Then Reiko sensei actually reminded me of my RSM.

-_-'''

Because throughout the tutorial lesson, she will ask for ボランティア Borantia (aka Volunteer) to answer some questions or to construct examples. Then of cuz everyone just act blur lorz and then pretend to look at the book but was praying hard won't so suay kana picked. But okay arz, in the end everyone got the fair share of being called out to become " ボランティア " of her ques. And apparantly Reiko Sensei is from Hiroshima, although I had this stereotype that Japanese sensei are usually from Tokyo. But okay arz, doesn't matter, not as if my Japanese level is high enough to differentiate between Tokyo dialect/Osaka dialect/Hiroshima dialect/Hokkaido dialect etc etc. They all sound almost the same to me lorz. -_-'''

As this term of lesson41 to lesson50 is the last portion of Minna No Nihongo which basically marks the end of the whole JLPT3 syllabus, both sensei urged us to revise and recap our lesson1 to 40 frequently, and to ask them ANY questions asap if we have any. This is because 10 weeks later when we finish lesson50, it will be a brand new JLPT2 syllabus and they say the teaching system will be slightly different, and of course the sensei will ASSUME that everyone has strong basic foundation of Lesson1 to lesson50. Haiz, so now I still got 10 weeks or so to fully revise and practise. Hope by then I can complete ALL my assessment books/kanzen master/tys. Nvm, I got plenty of time till CNY. Shall mug harder.

Was surfing the Channel Newsasia Website when I came across this:

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/323232/1/.html

Korean content available on MediaCorp's radio station in Feb

SINGAPORE: Korean content will be available from the beginning of next month on MediaCorp's radio station, FM96.3 The International Channel. The programme was officially launched at a signing ceremony between Briyo Media and MediaCorp Radio. The Korean segment will air between 9pm and 11pm on weekdays. It will include contemporary K-pop music, useful information on living in Singapore as well as the latest updates from Korea. This segment caters to the Korean community here and Singapore listeners who are interested in learning more about the Korean culture.

So that means next time morning 7am to 9am can listen to Japanese content while at night 9pm to 11pm can listen to Korean content. Hmm... ... I wonder how it will be like.

日本語...

So this week I have been waking up punctually at abt 7am everyday to tune in FM 96.3 and study my Japanese while listening to the Japanese FM. Initially I got very excited cuz it's like I can listen to spoken Japanese!! But then after awhile, I realised certain advertisement keep repeating in Japanese, and it's GETTING VERY IRRTATING lorz. Cuz can repeat n repeant n REPEAT God knows how many times. And better still, got one session I think last for 10 minutes, then is about LEARNING CHINESE. That one is also demn #$%^&*. Cuz is abt 2 Japanese, then one teaching the other Chinese, so obviously the "student" was speaking very terrible Chinese... Which I hear liao also find very weird lar. However, there's also certain programmes which I enjoy. Example is TRAFFIC REPORTING. Just like all radio FM, they will tend to report like which roads got accidents, got traffic jams etc etc. So the same lorz, juz that in Japanese. Then arz, amazingly, I can only understand words like "PIE, CTE, ECP etc etc".

-_-'''

OF COURSE LAR. These are the only audible English words which the DJ say.. Other than that all the words are in Japanese, including places in Singapore, such as クレメンティ (Kurementi) and チャンギ (Changi) then I can understand lorz. If not basically is toking alien lang with a few familiar words here n there... N of cuz is toking at 新幹線 speed.

I think soon I'm gonna spend a bomb to buy some Japanese Language software so that next time I can type Japanese in my comp, such as MSN n blogging. And I think blogging will really help alot. Okay lar, I know I have ALOT of grammatical errors, such that when I read some of my old posts, I will be like "WTF, how come my Eng like so kns, like so hard to digest also" Whatever lar, I believe that blogging is abt blogging in a style that u r comfortable with. Not that I'm writing some educational blogsite for ppl to learn. And with that, I guess soon I will try to blog in Japanese sometimes. Okay lar, although it's gonna be terrible grammar. But at least it can let me practise my Japanese vocab and some grammar structures often so it will make learning Japanese more naturally. (Although I know my tense will be wrong, and I will NEVER understand how Japanese particles work)

And I'm glad I spent this week quite meaningfully. Believe it anot, I actually mug an average of 6 to 7 hrs of Japanese everyday this week. Lolx.

So I bought 3 assessment books, 1 sec1 maths and 2 sec2 maths books at the Bras Basah Popular Bookstore. Not for me, but for my 2 new students. Actually arz, wah laoz, I don't even know what's their syllabus like now lorz. Then I also donno whether got choose correctly anotz.. In the end I juz go browse some maths TB then from there I juz see the assessment books got same chapters as the TB I just buy lorz. And to my greatest horror, they are learning SETS in sec2 maths. Wah laoz, I thought tt 1 is sec3 A-maths learn 1? I was browsing a O-level Biology TB, and then they are teaching stuff like donno wat cell division, got the prophase or telophase or donno wat phase. OMG lorz, cuz I know tt one A-level then I learn 1... Piangz, I think nowadays the standards are getting higher and higher. Sumtimes I'm just glad that I wasn't born like 10 yrs later... If not I think I sure die 1... I think maybe a few yrs later I won't be surprise if they teach differentiation/integration in lower sec maths? Lolx.. N so I wasted almost one hour popular.

After that I went to PIERCE 2 earholes on my left ear at Bugis Street. YES, 2 earholes at one go. Initially I was tempted to pierce maybe 3.. But I think don wan lar, just pierce 2 testing first. Yalorz, now pierced liao.. But okay lar, I don really feel it's PAINFUL or wat. Then now every few hrs or so must keep twisting the ear studs to make sure the pus or watever thingyi don get sticked to the ear studs, if not will become jialat. And these 2 earholes cost me $8, cuz is $4/hole.

Anyway, after that I went to buy 4 ear studs of different design, so that next time can put on. And most importantly I bought one packet of those transparent ear sticks, so when I go back camp I will have to switch to that. So mafan. Nvm, just hope for the next one month nth happens to my 2 earholes. No infection or stuff...

As for my 神風 (Kamikze) tattoo, I also donno leh.. Maybe I shall wait till after CNY when my 2 earholes more stable liao then I see how bahz...

CLEAR OFF AND LEAVE

Yesterday I gave my CSM my "Off + Leave clearance calendar" which I created. Cuz I also scared I put too much "OFF" on the dates then kana farked, so I just put like one week come back once lorz.. So actually I had like 5 or 6 days which I didn't cover up.. And with that piece of calendar, I showed my CSM, and was half thinking perhaps he will say 'WAH LAOZ, SINCE WHEN U GOT SO MANY OFFs ONE!?" or smth like tt.

So when I showed my CSM my calendar, he looked at it and say "Wow.. Why got blanks on some date 1?" Then I juz told him say I will come back on some days to help out abit in Audit lorz (Although it was demn bullshit).. And amazingly, he just said "Nvm lar, I just give u 3 more days OFFs, u go add inside then show me"

I was like -_-'''

So since he give I take lar, I went to edit and then my FINAL piece only means I need to come back for 2 more days, 30th Jan and 5th Feb (To do clearance n medical FFI n collect IC). And my CSM just say "Okay, can, u put one copy on OC table let him see in case he needs to know"
Lolx.. I didn't expect things to be so easy arz.

So now from now till 30th Jan I shall just ENJOY as much as I can. If not when ORD liao find work then cnt rest le. Owellz, so I got plenty of time to study my Japanese.. And to book many more driving lessons cuz I skip too many liaoz.

I think this week I have been mugging Japanese so intensively as if JLPT3 exam is coming in a few weeks time. -_-''' Okay lar, cuz my motive is to complete JLPT3 syllabus (And when I say complete means that I have memorised the 300 kanji, 1500 vocab words and 120 grammar structures, finish up all the assessment books and tys which I think I bought quite alot.)

But I think no matter how I study, my listening and speaking will still be very CMI. Haiz. Hopefully can complete by CNY/ORD.

Tutoring

So just now a tuition agency called me to ask whether I am interested in an assignment. Okay lar, $50 for 2 hrs... teaching LOWER SEC MATHS only... BUT then is teach 2 boys. A sec2 express and a sec1 normal academic (both of them r brothers). And luckily they stay super near me. Of course I took up this assignment w/o even thinking arz. Cuz lower sec maths I think should be OKAY lar. At least is not as bad as last year when I taught the sec5 Maths and Chem... WAH LAOZ.. Must go revise the WHOLE O-level syllabus again.. Kns lar. So now I learn my lesson lar, I'm not gonna take any sec5 or sec4 students taking O-levels soon.. Really can die lar.. Imagine u have to go thru the whole syllabus with the student.. Then must do alot of self read-up to refresh. Piangz, for me I admit I CMI lar.. So the best is I stick with sec1 to sec3 level lorz.. Summore now is start of yr shld be so slack, not like tt time the sec5.. In Aug I started teaching then left 3 months to O-levels, piangz, tt 1 really can die. Also donno how the students/parents will find me.. Hopefully don't kana sack after first lesson lorz. -_-'''

Also don't know how my student will fare for his O-level. I think within one month or so shld be releasing O-level result arz.. Just hope he can get at least B3 or what for Maths arz.. Then his Science.. Hope he can get B4 arz..

I love Kinokuniya

Wah Piangz, I spent $150 today in Kinokuniya. And finally I applied for the membership card. $20 for a year, okay lar, I think next time once awhile I'll go Kino to buy books, so with the card can save quite abit of money arz.

Then just now at Kino, there was this farking idiotic man at the service counter. As I couldn't find the book that I wanted, so I went to the Japanese books info counter to ask the assistant to help me find arz.. As you all know, Kino at Orchard is so demn big, I gave up searching after looking for 1 hr. So there was this man I think he's in his 20+, CONFIRM is Singaporean, NOT Japanese lar, from the way he talk. Anyway, he was holding onto this **dirty** "Japanese yellow Magazine".. Then the magazine was wrapped up already lar, so obviously u cannot browse, and CLEARLY there was a label at the front of the magazine that states "CONTENT NOT SUITABLE FOR CHILDREN" or smth like tt. So that man was asking the counter lady, "Can you help me tear open? I want to browse" So the counter lady like explained to him politely due to the content of the magazine, she cannot just tear open and then after that just put back at the shelve arz.

Then the man was such an ass. He was like demanding "But I am not a CHILD watz. If I never see, how I know whether the magazine is suitable for me?"

-_-'''

WAH PIANGZ!? IF YOU CANNOT BROWSE, THEN DON'T BUY LAR. Gosh, and I really pity the counter lady trying to explain to him until can vomit blood. There's like so many people buying books in Kino, not that got one less customer like him will die lar. And if he wants, GO BUY FHM lar. Or go buy illegal blue tape lar. Kns, for one stupid magazine want to make a big hoo-haa.

All right, so the KANZEN MASTER JLPT3 book that I juz bought, I can study it during all my COS duties next week.

Wah Piangz, I'm doing duties this coming Sunday, next Tues, next Thurs and next Sat. 4 alternate days of duties. Really sianz 1/2. Maybe I shld bring my "Minna No Nihongo" to camp to keep myself occupied.

January Schedule

This week is just so busy, and next week my duties are fantastic: Doing COS on 080108(Tues), 100108(Thurs) and 120108(Sat). Alternate days arz, but then I also didn't really feel anything. It's like aiyaz, LAST MONTH of COS duty liaoz, do alot I also don't care arz.

And the plus point:

In view of the fact that ATEC is next week, and so there will be off-in-lieu from 140108 to 180108 (OMG, one whole bardy week). And to add on, I've yet to include all my OFFs and LEAVEs to cover me from 210108 till perhaps I ORD, other then the fact I still have ONE LASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSST duty on 220108. So okay lar, whole of this month got 4 days of duties, on account of the many days of rest that I'll be getting.

I'm quite a happy man now.

And now is "Happily studying Minna No Nihongo".

Japanese FM 96.3 (7am to 9am - weekdays only)

Just now I wake up early just to try to listen to FM 96.3 from 8am to 9am. OMG lar, when I listen to it, majiam reminds me of the horror of LISTENING COMPRE during JLPT4. Demn terrible, cuz I don't know is they talk too fast or I simply cannot catch. I think is the latter arz.. Although some words here n there sound quite familiar, but still, I couldn't understand much. Owellz, but maybe next time when I'm free I will try to force myslf to switch on the radio n listen, and hopefully over the time can slowly pick up the pace. But of course it will take some time.

End of 2007 marks the start of 2008

45 minutes to 2008! Okay lar, although now Japan already New Year liaoz, cuz they one hour ahead of Singapore time. -_-'''

Very irritating arz? Always talk abt Japan.

So maybe like most ppl, I should just list down a few resolutions that I have for yr 2008. Hmm... Let me think:

1) ORD IN PEACE! (This 1 very impt lorz)
2) Quit smoking before I ORD, aka before CNY (VERY IMPORTANT lar, cuz I estimated I have spent abt 1K just on cigarettes this yr? And I know it's bad Bad BAD for health lar... -_-''')
2) Can proceed on to get ready and do well for JLPT3 in Dec 2008. (Okay lar, I also don't know can pass JLPT4 anotz. I think even if fail, I also can't be bothered n shall just work harder for JLPT3. Lolx.)
3) Pass my driving test on 1st or 2nd attempt. LOLX.
4) Earn abit of money before Uni starts. (This 1 very impt lorz, cuz I simply waste too much money liaoz)
5) Learn to be thrifty (Very impt also, cuz I don't have a habit of saving and tt's BAD lar)
6) Start Uni afresh, get to know more friends. (Fuckers can just get lost.)
7) I shall do well in Accountancy. No matter what, I shall MUG MUG MUG very hard to do well. For my future perhaps to be able to apply scholarship for post-grad studies in Japan.

Okay lar, disgress abit. Although now u all may think like I haven't even start Bachelor's degree, want to think of MBA, like so far-fetched. But wellz, I guess among ALL the possible solutions that I can think of (together with Mengyang, Dennis, JingWen and Xueli, thanks arz guys for giving me valuable opinions), I think the BEST + cost efficient + save time solution is really this:

Study 3 yrs in NTU get an Accountancy degree, at the mean time I will force myself to absorb as much Japanese Language as possible in this period of time. Build up my foundation in Japanese in Singapore first, so go over there won't suffer that much. So firstly, I save time cuz Japan Uni is 4 yrs arz. Then also save money because (i) Study Japanese in Singapore is MUCH cheaper and (ii) At least when I go over to Japan don't have to start from scratch, so can save alot of money in terms of attending shorter duration of Japanese Language lessons in Japan as compared if I were to go now. (With a pathetic JLPT4 standard? -_-''')
Likewise, according to JingWen and Xueli, can apply wat overseas exchange programme go Japan study one sem or watz, like quite fun horz. And also, I think every yr got those career fairs n stuff in NTU then I can try finding potential employers from MNCs such as Big4 abt overseas posting or I think some company can also sponser the employee to study Masters in Japan if ur deg is good or performace is good? Like so good horz? Owellz, so bottomline is:

1) STUDY WELL FOR ACCOUNTANCY!
2) STUDY WELL FOR JAPANESE LANGUAGE!

Although perhaps it will be quite hard to juggle between Uni studies and Japanese (as they r 2 totally diff stuff), but I guess is really all about proper time management and willing to put in the extra effort. When people get to play, I will make use of the time to study Japanese. So saying this, I guess I won't be staying in hall or joining any CCA bahz. Afterall, staying in hall also must take part in hall activities. Join CCA also must give commitment to attend weekly. So mentioning that, I shld perhaps make use of the time for hall/CCA activities to study Japanese instead.

Alamak, I like talk too much liaoz. Owellz, just hope that 2008 is a good year to start with! Although it may not be easy when Uni starts, but with a clear goal, I shall press on no matter what I may face. For my future, I shall work hard! Hope all those around me will have a smoot-sailing year too!

Tomorrow is 正月, shōgatsu! Japanese New yr! But.. Not that I got celebrate like tt. -_-'''

Learning to make choices

No doubt, I'm the most useless person. What can I do other then to piss those ppl who r considered close to me. To break the hearts of those who care for me. When I'm at my lowest point, they are the ones who stood by me. And when things are fine, I seem to have amnesia and become a dog who turns around to bite its own owner. What a beast, isn't it?

I'm such a stubborn person. I don't care how I get the stuff I want, undertable means, overtable means, underhand or overhand methods, I shall get what I want. But what do I achieve at the end of the day? I just become some cold-blooded monster who doesn't know what "gratitude" means. Sometimes as I think ahead, I can't imagine what kind of person I will turn into when I go to work next time. Somebody u wish u will never bump into perhaps? I don't know. And I don't know if some sacrfices are really worth in order to pursue what u want?

To pursue your dream, is it worth sacrificing my family, my relatives, my friends, and whoever that I know>? And at the end of the day, what if I realise that perhaps some things are just NOT worth giving up... But you realised that it's too late. And what happens next is you will be filled with regret and be trapped in that vicious cycle? You are just a farking miserable person who doesn't have anybody to share your joy or sadness with. You regret that WHY did you have to pay such a HUGE price in order to fulfill that FUCKING dream of yours. Everybody has their own dreams. But at the end of the day, why must you create such a big havoc until it seems as if your dream is some "BIG SCALED" dream. If you are farking capable, then you wouldn't need to rely on others to fulfill ur dream. But the fact is, I'M NOT.

So what if I make it big in Japan? So what if I can graduate with a good degree in Japan? So what if I can get a high-paying job in Japan? So what if I can have all the materialistic wants I can ever think of? Will I feel satisfied? I will just feel so miserable. When you see others can share their joy with their family, I can't. When others still can return to a place they called "Home", I can't. When others are able to go through thick and thin with their family, I can't. For all the satisfaction that you get from attaining your dream, you shall pay a price of losing something called "Kinship" which you cannot buy even if you are a farking millionair.

So at the end of the day, everybody has to make choices. Every choice perhaps comes with sacrifices. So the problem is, is the choice you make WORTHS more than the sacrifices you make? If not, did you make the wrong choice?

I think I have made my choice.

Next week 3 working days. Next next week ATEC stage2, waste of time. Then after that.. Donno do wat also. Sianz... Although is 40 days, it still seems VERY LONG away. One more month of duty... And it's sayounara... Haiz. Realised alot of ppl in camp also like bochap attitude. Everyone just thinks of faster ATEC finish then fark off. But I still no ORD mood lar. Piangz. Okay lar, I think when ATEC finishes in 2 weeks time I shld be "bochap" also. Hopes the battalion don't come up with any stunts or wat again. If not really SIANZ 1/2.

I'm tired. Life sucks.

So yesterday's was Emperor Akihito's Birthday. Owellz, "Banzai!"

I really feel I have lived my 20 years in vain, achieving nothing. What a blardy waste of time.

So I went to the Japan Embassy today to find out more about looking for schools offering EJU, aka "Japanese A-levels". Then it's like from what I know, the GCE A-level Cert which I took in Singapore is REDUNDANT lar. Fuck man. Wah laoz, I abit buey song y I wasted 2 yrs studying in JC lar. If only I can be MORE rebellious when I'm 17 after my O-levels, then maybe I can straight away go there to study. Like what the embassy person say, they also don't care whether u get AAA or EEE for ur GCE A-levels. After all, u r gonna take the EJU which matters ultimately. HAIZ. And yaz, I spend another 2 years serving this wonderful country. Thanks arz SAF. And so in total I just feel that I have spend 4 years of my LIFE in VAIN lar.

Because for me, I think age is very important leh. I mean like wah laoz, u wanna graduate at the age of 27, whereby other ppl maybe grad at the age of 22 or 23? Fuck sia, REALLY waste of time. I just feel that I'm no different from some ITE student who go to polytechnic then after that go to uni to realise they r gonna grad at the age of wat 26 or 27? O gosh, what a BLARDY waste of time man. Really lorz. Just now, the more I think of it, the more I felt pissed off lar. I just felt life is not fair lar. I mean true lar, life is NEVER fair.

Haiz. I donno why I just feel ANGRY to be in this small island called S*******. Really lorz. Sumtimes I really wish I can just leave this place and never come back at all. I really don't mind giving up my everything so that I can start from scratch in Japan.

And then my father insist that I shld at least complete my degree in Singapore so if I "CMI" in Japan, then I at least got a degree to fall on. Haiz, but then if my heart is not even here, I also won't do well. Because while I was chatting with consultant from the embassy, she also told me that perhaps I shld study in Singapore first, since studying for degrees like Engineering or Science in Japan and Singapore are abt the same. UNLESS u r gonna study Business or Econs then the content of ur degree will be abit different in the 2 countries. And when I heard that I was like "Hmm..Yaz, actually I'm thinking of doing a Biz/Econs degree." and the consultant was like -_-''' . And so my father just feel that even if I can scrape thru this EJU, he feels that I will drop-out from Uni in yr1 or yr2. It's so depressing to hear such things from my father. Am I really so stupid?

If my Dys1 can get AAAB for A-levels then also can grad from Osaka University with a Electrical Engin degree, I really don't see y I cannot make it there as well lar. Yaz, true, I admit I'm not smart. My Dys1 from RJC, I from lousy JC. He is PSC scholar, I am nothing. Ppl read 2 times can understand, I need to read 10 times. But wellz, does it matter whether u smart anotz>? If that's the case, I will put in EXTRA work lar. Ppl study 5 hrs then I study 10 hrs. I think I will really do that if I cannot catch up with the lessons if I'm in Japan.

There are 120 million ppl in Japan. IF THEY CAN SURVIVE in Japan, why can't NG WEI YANG do it? Don't tell me that Japan cannot even accomodate ONE extra person? Don't tell me that my intelligence or EQ n stuff is LOWER than that 120 million ppl in Japan? I'm confident I can find a way for survival in Japan. Even if let's say **touch wood** like my father say I really Uni halfway drop-out, don't tell me that that's the end for me? I'm sure that is a way to survive, is just how resourceful u r and how determined u r.

I'm really tired of living my life to one's bidding. Serving my 2 youthful years with NO MEANING, NO PURPOSE. And to be frank, I really feel VERY sad that I have to use my parents' money if I wan to go Japan to study. Yes, I know it's exp. The sch fees alone already headache. Then consider accomodation I know is not a small sum. But I REALLY REALLY got no choice but to use my parent's money. I wish my parents will charge me 50% interest rate at least make me feel better. And I also don't know when will I be able to return them this large sum of money. By the time I start work I'm perhaps in my late 20s liaoz. Haiz. I really feel very guilty that my parents have to fork out money. I think I will strive to do well for EJU then hopefully I can try to find potential Japanese companies that can sponser me money, like "financial grant" like tt then I won't mind serving bond for them for a few yrs.

Owellz, nvm. I managed to hold of some brochurs and guide pamphlets regrading studying in Japan. I think it's time I start looking for potential Japanese school offering EJU course. And the next application period is from Feb 2008 to Apr 2008, in order to start sch in Oct 2008. Owellz, got the whole of January to dig out info from the THOUSANDs of Schools offering the Japanese courses in the whole of Japan.

Which city will I end up in, I also don't know.

I need advice

Haiz. I really don't wish to study in NTU or NUS or SMU. What's the point of studying in Singapore when everything that I study will be Singapore-based. What's the use of studying in Singapore if perhaps a S'pore Uni Degree may not be "as good" as compared to a Japanese Uni Degree in Japan(I mean in terms of finding a job). And best is why shld I serve f***ing 2 years when I don't intend to work here.

Nvm, I will find a way out. I don't believe that I CANNOT get into a Uni that I want. Even if let's say I have to work for 2 years full-time to earn money to pay for my Uni fees next time, I think I will. Even if I have to loan money from foreigh bank for my sch fees, I think I will. Even if I have to start school at the age of 23 or 24, I think I will. And even if I have to go for a one year Intensive Language Course prior to studying at Uni, I think I will.

Perhaps I should really consult the Japanese Embassy this coming Friday. And then I have to start going to different Univerisity websites to check for admission. Check the tuition fees will cost how much. Check cost of accomodation. Enquire for whether got loans or stuff anotz. Check for the different kind of Visa application. Luckily they have this "Studying in Japan consulting session" at the Embassy every Friday.

Haiz. Some of my camp friends were shocked that I like make such a "mad" thinking. But then it's like for those who know me since sec sch, should know that I really LOVE Japan alot larz. Even if I can't study in Japan, at the end of it I think I will still go to work in Japan lorz. Either way I also won't stay in Singapore. My parents also abit "pissed" with my decision when I propose to them abt my plan. Not really pissed lar, but they just say that I very "unrealistic" and stuff. Haiz, it's so demn sad to hear these from my parents lar. Haiz, but at the end of it, my father say if I can come out with a "detailed proposal" and show him, then I can carry-on from there and discuss. And now that I'm gonna ORD soon, I think it's really time I start planning and stuff like that.

Actually as I was telling my parents, even if I were to study in SIngapore Uni, I will confirm also enrol into Japanese course, and then I will also CONFIRM put my Japanese Language Course before my Uni work. EVen if I get wat C or D grades for my all my modules, I THINK I WILL still choose to put more time on Japanese Language. And of cuz I think my parents nearly vomitted blood talking to me. Like my parents said, they SERIOUSLY think that I "reincarnated" into the wrong country. I think so too.

But my parents really warn me that if I were to go Japan, then they won't expect me return till I have some accomplishment. Haiz, of cuz arz, I man can't possible that I spent so much of my parents' money and then after 1 or 2 yrs drop-out. Wah laoz, like that I will be no difference from thrash man. So I swear if I really CAN get the oppotunity to study in Japan, I will REALLY cherish 100% of my time to study. Even if I have to study 15 hours a day to understand, I think I will. Even if I have to give up all my entertainment and free time to do well, I will. Even if I have to start learning EVERYTHING from scratch in Japanese, I will. Even if I have to retake perhaps my "A-levels" standard pre-u entrance test in Japanese, ranging from learning knowing to do differentiation & integration to doing calculating mole concept to writing an essay on photosynthesis to calculating voltage and current and ALL in Japanese, I think I will be willing to put in the hard work, IF I am given the chance.

And of course, my parents told me if I were to make this decision, I will have to learn to solve ALL problems myself. No family, no relatives, no friends to seek help. Having to use Japanese in my everyday lifestyle, from going to supermarket to buy stuff to interacting with neighbours to watching TV shows/listening to radio programmes, ALL in Japanese. Of course, it really needs a high level of tolerance in order to maintain the "sainity" when all things fail. What happens if suddenly I face BIG financial problems, then kana chased out by the landlord. Then maybe I to sleep in the streets of Tokyo? And I have to do housework ALL myself. No more "mother-cum-maid" to cook for me, to wash my clothes, to clean the house, as my mother said. Of course, my parents have to LET me know the harsh reality of going Japan to study.

And at the end of the day, I have to admit that my life studying in Japan will not be a bed of rose. But wellz, if I have choose to take this route, then there will be NO turning-back. To be frank, I have been quite stressed just having to find out info and do planning and stuff. And of cuz money is a BIG issue. It's not as if S'pore govt will sponser me to Japan to study. And my GREATESR nightmare is what if I cannot even enter Japan Uni based on my horrendous A-levels result or sekali I study one or 2 yrs then I really cnt understand Japanese then kana kicked out due to my "not-that-bright" brain. Ogosh, that will so terrible lar.

HAIZ. And I also donno whether I can make it to GOOD uni like University of Tokyo or Osaka Univerisity or Kyoto Unversity. Sekali I kana some donno wat "kns" uni then also NO POINT lorz. If not sekali at the end of the day my parents die die don wan let me study in Japan I also die. Haiz. Can anyone advise me? I really need someone to talk to. Haiz.

PSP Games

So my TV has finally arrived. WAHAHAZ. Okay lar, I will use it often to watch DVD movies or to play my PS2. If not I buy the TV majiam to collect dust then it will be such a waste. Now I simply love my room lar. Got my own TV and radio and comp and everything that I need is all there.

And last night I juz d.l finish 2 PSP games: Silent Hill- Origins and FF 7 Crisis Core. Then for those who got PSP know that the HIGHLY ANTICIPATED game now is the Crisis Core Game arz. The graphics are juz so awesome lorz, and summore is juz released I think 1 month ago in Nov 07. But the sad thing is, IT'S ALL IN JAPANESE lar. Then I was thinking... HAIZ, MY JAPANESE so kns, confirm won't understand 1. So don't bother playing. Might as well wait till 2008 then release the English Version then I play. Or maybe I think wait till I'm at JLPT2 level then maybe I can start playing Japanese games.... THEN LIKE THAT I DON'T HAVE TO ALWAYS WAIT LIKE AGES FOR THE ENGLISH VERSION TO COME OUT FOR THOSE SO DEMN COOL JAPANESE-PRODUCED GAMES LIKE CRISIS CORE. Okay, I got one new reason why I should study Japanese.

Then I turned into SIlent Hill. For those who got watch the movie, u know it's like I donno wat kind of movie lar. (Actually I don understand the movie lorz) Abt wat a gal being burnt n stuff like that, then pop out 1 town call "Silent Hill" and then as u walk around this misty town, got monsters suddenly come attack u. Aiyaz, the plot very messy arz. Anyway, in this game u r supposed to walk around "Silent Hill" town and then u take weapon to attack monsters. (But is best that u juz run away because the monsters can respawn 1 lorz, demn it) Then the most retarded part is the whole game setting is obviously in a super dark environment until u can't really see anything. Then if u on ur flashlight, u will attract all the monsters to attack u. SO U R EXPECTED TO OFF YOUR TORCHLIGHT AND TO NAVIGATE AROUND IN ALMOST COMPLETE DARKNESS throughout this whole game. OMG lar. It's quite hard to play arz. Nvm, maybe I will play it when I'm REALLY REALLY free.

Now must d.l a few games in PSP so that when on the plane to Japan can entertain myself, if not I think I'll be bored to death.

So today's a half day off. And tomorrow another half day off. So should be staying at home to rot. Or I think I should be trying to tidy up my Japanese books cuz I didn't bother touching them at all after JLPT.

So a few days ago received the letter from NTU ask want study earlier anotz. Of course NO lar. Wah piangz, not as if I will be able to graduate earlier or what. And most importantly, I think I will still be working part-time to earn money. U know money is so demn important especially for somebody who has JUST FINISHED 2 yrs of NS. So I predict I should be slogging my ass off for the 6 months prior to start of sch in Aug.

And it's 4 days to Japan! Arz! So looking forward to it. And yes, I think I must make use of these 7 days to listen to JAPANESE then can "improve" my Japanese abit. But seriously lar, I think I 99% also catch no ball 1, so also no use. 62 days to ORD. Omg, that's pretty near already.

JLPT....

The whole JLPT process was kinda screwed up.

I arrived like 45 minutes earlier, and to my greatest horror, there were like already a BIG crowd trying to squeeze their way into the school. Arz.. Fine. Then I need to check my classroom and stuff on the notice board, and apparantly like about 1800 ppl registered for the same level of JLPT as me. Owellz, then I decided enough is enough and so I juz decided to be one of those first few ppl to enter the classroom while most others were busy mugging.

OMG lar. I was seated at the FIRST row, in the CENTRE. That means is DIRECTLY in front of the teacher's table with that stupid radio in front of me which is used for listening. Wah kaoz, y so suay sia.. And the best thing is, the tables they used were like SO SMALL lorz, (U know those tt u see in kindergarden 1??) Like those kind lar. Wah laoz, can u imagine all the adult-size ppl trying to cramp into that MINI chair and MINI table? So uncomfortable. Luckily the papers not many hours those kind. Then got one boy seated next to me, I was peeping at his entry proof, and OMG, he's born in 1995, that means like 8 yrs younger than me sia. I feel so old lorz. But then I think maybe abt 30% of the ppl there are roughly same age or younger than me. And majority are like older than me arz.

Anyway, PAPER 1 was like... Hmm.... WAHAHAZ, okay lar, I think is manageable. I juz felt so happy after the paper1. Then after tt a toilet break followed by paper2, LISTENING COMPRE.
Wah laoz, that one arz. Can you imagine like got 17 questions, I think I only got like 2 question that I *THINK* I get correct, the REST of the 15 ques were like !#$%^&*. The fact is, throughout the whole listening compre, I really tried my VERY best to listen to to the conversation n stuff, BUT 95% I SERIOUSLY COULDN'T UNDERSTAND WHAT THEY WERE TALKING ABOUT. And hence, I come into conclusion if I can get like 40% CORRECT for Listening Compre, I think my paper 1 and paper 3 can get FULL MARKS liaoz. -_-''' Anyway, to really pass JLPT is see how u score in paper 1 and 3. Oyaz, then I did the BEST thing I could ever do. I actually shade ALL my remaning 15 questions, the answer is '3'. Cuz is MCQ mahz, got option 1, 2, 3 or 4. Then my OTAS sheet is like ONE straight column of shaded '3'. Aiyaz, I know I really CMI but wellz, nvm lar, sekali all the answers are '3' then I can get some bonus marks. Lolx.

And the end of paper2 makes me plunge into a state of disappointment, But then arz, I THINK 90% OF THE PEOPLE THERE ALSO SCREW UP THEIR PAPER 2 arz. Cuz I overheard like EVERYONE else there discussing, say wat they everything also cannot hear properly, then everything also anyhow tikam and stuff like tt. Lolx, Nvm arz, at least it's normal. Lolx.

And paper 3 was... hmm... I think manangeable as well... But wellz, donno got careless mistakes here and there alotz. Basically the compre passages I juz anyhow whack. I see the options got "repeated" in the passage that means confirm the answer. Don't understand also juz whack. Alamak. Abit jialat arz.. But then don't care lar.

Owellz, I shall wait 3 months later and see how BADLY I fare then. Up to then... Hmm.. Should be carrying on with my Japanese lesson.

FInal Burst for にほんごのうりょくしけん

HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ!!!

I seriously don't know if I can pass my JLPT tomorrow lar. Okay lar, paper 1 is quite easy. Paper 2 and 3 will be @#$%^&*. Wah laoz, like tt how to pass? 60% to pass leh. And summore I got hearing problem, I think paper 2 the listening compre is donate marks to them 1 lar. Then the Grammar for paper 3 is like.. I can NEVER get the particles correct. Gosh, sum1 teach me how to pass leh....

Look like tomorrow I must rely on my all-time powerful "ti-kam ti-kam" technique which seems to be failing most of the time.

As yesterday was an OFF day, I went to the SITEX fair at Expo hall 5 and 6. Wah kaoz, there's so many ppl although I went there at around 1130am on a Friday morning. Anyway, as I mentioned in my previous posts..I wanna buy a TV despite abit of "disapproval" from my parents. Anyway, there's so many cool TVs on display lar. Got Sony bravia, TOSHIBA, Samsung, LG, Pioneer, and many many other brands.

And I was just SO TEMPTED to buy lar.....

And of course....

I COULDN'T RESIST THE TEMPTATION LORZ!

-_-'''

So I ended up buying a 32 inch HD LCD TV...!!! Okay, pls don't ask me which TV or how much it cost. Cause I think I also don wan to say. EVen my parents I never tell them.. I only told them "I bought a TV and it will be coming next Sat..." And THAT's ALL. Cuz I think most probably they will slaughter me (even though I only use my own money) for being such a SPEND THRIFT.

Okay lar, maybe next Sat when my TV arrives and then let my parents nag and slaughter me until nobody's business then I shall let post which TV I buy. My mother was like so DESPERATE to know which TV model I bought, but I just told them wait till next Sat and they shall see for themselves, and I think that really like make them feel so @#$%^&*. Okay arz, I think my parents have more or less COME INTO TERMS I really bought a TV, but then wellz.. I really donno wat's gonna happen when next Sat comes...

And yes, after I made my payment for my 32 inch TV, I was thinking like tt my room for no TV powerpoint then jialat, cnt watch normal TV channels...

And then TA-DA.

I bought a HD DVB-MPEG-4 AVC Set-top box! And that cost me another few hundred bucks. O gosh. And then at abt 130pm I left EXPO and went to the Ikea store at tamp there. Okay, bought a TV Bench for $43. Okay arz, reasonable, and then must take taxi back home. Took me like one hour to screw and set up the TV bench.

And now I'm juz excited abt my TV tt's coming next Sat!

Doing JLPT tys is making me feel stupider and stupider... I get LOWER and LOWER marks as I continue doing the yearly paper. And the grammer SUCKS lar. All the particles are so confusing. Gosh.. Wat the hell is happening? Can miracle happen in this 1 week>? I doubt so lar.. HAIZ.

NSman Unit

Yesterday I just got to know my reservice unit: 769 SIR. Battalion. And it's the SAME unit as my current 4SIR ppl.

Haiz. Sucks. Okay lar, although I donno wat reservice will be like... And afterall.. Like 2 or 3 weeks per ICT? I donno lar.. But okay arz, now that I know I also can't be bothered much. I mean not that I can do anything much except after I graduate? **hint**

And I think reservice during schooling will indeed be VERY sianz. Can you imagine during you Dec holiday or during ur that May-July holday seasons then ask u go back camp for reservice. Arz.. I think that will be so demn @#$%^&* lar.

Aiyaz, I think too much le. Lolx.

1 more week till JLPT. Must STUDY hard. Yes I know. Ppl I know taking JLPT are studying so hard as well. Lolx..

"New furniture" Part 2

Sometimes I do wonder if I'm really a spendthrift... Or am I just some spoilt brat.. Or basically I always don't think rationally.. Or I just lack discipline?

Hmm... Actually I think I am all of the above. What my father said regarding my idea of having a TV is quite true arz. Right now while I'm serving NS, I will seldom get to use the TV as well, except when it's weekends. Then after NS, most probably I will need to work some temp job to earn back that LOTS of $$$$ LOSS I have incurred for the past 2 yrs... And this means I will seldom use the TV as well except during weekends... And then when sch starts next yr in Aug, possibly I will want to stay in the hostel to try out hostel lifestyle, and probably I will only use my TV during weekends....

And the only time I can "utilise fully" my TV is perhaps when I will choose to "stay-out" from sch during yr2 and yr3, then I will be able to go home everyday and can use it for my own entertainment purposes w/o just putting that TV there to collect dust...

And that will mean I will have to wait till mid-2009? Haiz... donno lar. What should I do?

Actually I won't really feel that "heart-pained" if I spend my money on such stuff. I donno leh.. Even though I have "wasted" so much money on so many things in my entire life thus far, but I don't feel the pinch, as personally I feel that it's "worthwhile" to pamper yourself in life. Like you always see on TV, you can't bring your money with you when you die.. So.. What's the point? And also it's like life is so unpredictable, you never know when u can just get into any accident and die.. And then imagine during your last few dying moments you will be thinking "Aiyaz, why didn't I buy XXX that time or I never go country XXX for holiday... Now I live my life in vain arz!!" and then you just die like that. Gosh. Okay lar, I know abit drama but then it's that kind of idea I wanna get into.

And most importantly, I know now maybe I'm just poor fellow....

BUT NVM, I shall study hard and get a good degree and then get a high-paying job that is can easily fetch me 10 times MORE than what I am currently earning as a NSF now. And of course I mean a few yrs after I start working as everybody knows that your pay sucks as a newbie wherever you go unless you are really lucky to be that top 1% in the workforce to get like wat 5K a month for starting pay? Okay lar.. I disgress too much le...

So back to the topic... Should I buy or should I not buy? A table bench propably will cost me around $100.. And a 26 inch LCD TV will probably cost me close to 1K? And maybe a cheapo DVD player will cost $50? Haiz, total up also must cost like 1.2K like tt... Owellz, maybe this coming weekend I should just try going to Best Denki or Audio House or some other electronic retail outlets and check out the prices before I do anything...

A new furniture in my room?

I did something drastic to my room just now. I totally re-arranged the outlay of my room, which includes moving the study desk, computer desk, books cupboard, clothes cabinet and my bed lar. And of course b4 I arrange I became a "temporary" constructor, using that "yellow ruler" that can be pulled out and roll back easily 1 (Ok, I 4get wat is that called.. watever arz..) and then start measuring the dimensions of all the furnitures in my room and also the possible arrangements. And hence, I started to draw and draw lots of "possible" arrangements but mostly are rejected because the dimensions exceeded the reality. Bleahz.

But of course, there must be ONE objective in mind before I do anything. And that is, I wanna "create" a space (despite the very cramped room I am already in) to put a TV Bench! Lolx, actually I've always wish that I can have a TV in my room, although I know it may seem quite unnecessary... but at least I can stay in my room to play my PS2 or watch DVDs or I donno wat (although I know that I don't even bother watching the TV if it has no SCV...) But wellz, like I said, just find it "better" if I can have a TV in my room and I can enjoy my own PS2 games and perhaps watch some nice movies and... blahz blahz..

And so with the help of my mother, after I have carefully measured the dimensions of the draft I've drawn out, making sure there's enough space etc, we juz basically shift everything out to the living room then after that shift back again after clearing off all the dust that had accumulated ever since God knows when. And... within like 2 hours or so. Ta-da, a brand new outlook in my room! And so now I must get adjusted to sleeping at a different position in the room, using the computer and also studying on the desk at different places! Arz.. nvm, it's time to change "feng shui" and stuff like that. It's always good to have a new outlook and occasional changes can be good too.

And most importantly, I have managed to "create" out a space that can put a reasonable size TV bench right in front of my bed. Lolx. And and maybe a 20 inch or 26 inch TV should do just fine. Then I can put my PS2 and my DVD player below the TV, inside the TV bench... **I'm dreaming I know**

Then of course I must ask my "SPONSEROR" lar.. aka my father for his opinion. Initially he also donno y I change the outlook and I juz say "oO.. new outlook then makes one feel better mahz" although I know it's kinda bullshit. Then after that I started **hinting** to him that space in front of me abit "empty" arz..

Then wah kaoz. Kana scolded by him. Say I juz had my LASIK surgery. Then if I go put a TV in my room now I will need to wear spectacles again like wat 6 months later. Then I will waste the money I paid for LASIK and blah blah... And say the living room got TV y still need TV in room... Blah blah blah... HAIZ. Sumhow I expect my father to nag and stuff like that.. owellz, just have to wait and see...

But then horz. seriously, if don wan get short-sighted, I think best thing u don't use ur eyes lorz. You don't read books at all, don't use computer, don't watch TV, don't play console games and blah blah... Then like that 100% guarantee chop will never get short-sighted. Aiyaz, okay lar, I'm juz toking cock here, and my father will probably slaughter me if he reads wat I wrote here, although 99.9999999999999999999999999999% chance that he will never bump into my blog.

I'M SO FARKING SAD LAR....

ALL MY THOUSANDS OF SONGS.... ALL MY HUNDREDS OF PICTURES... ALL MY TENS OF PSP GAMES...

ALL GONE!!!!

Haiz. There's nth much I can do except to blame myself for being SO STUPID to accept the virus file. I have learnt my lesson the hard way. Argz.. Just feel so damn sad lar!

Haiz.

My comp has finally died and needs to be sent for repair. How I wish I can faster get a laptop when sch starts next yr so that I can like just switch between using the laptop and the house comp. And I think use laptop like quite fun also, although like abit hard to control. Arz.. Watever.

I must FORCE myself to go memorise all the stupid vocab. Argz.. But it's really senseless memorising. Sigh.

OMG lar. Just now I tried a 1997 JLPT paper. Wtf. I didn't even get 50% correct lorz. And best thing is the PASSING mark for JLPT is 240 marks out of 400 marks (which is min 60%)...

And it's 2 weeks till JLPT. O man, I have to STUDY harder!

Learn to be a good neighbour

Just as I was having lunch with my Mother and then after eating, when my mum went near to the kitchen window, she was like SCREAMING and quickly open the windows to keep all those "bamboo poles" inside the house. As the weather was quite sunny during that instant, I was quite puzzled so I went forward and asked her "Now raining arz?" Then she replied "No arz, you can just look up" So I looked up a little then realised that the unit above me, they hanged out the very wet clothes outside to dry, and it's DRIPPING so much water majiam it looked like it's raining.

So obviously I was like "WTF !!".

But to be frank, I NEVER bother finding out who are my neighbours living in the same block as me. Anyway, so I just asked my mother who's staying above, and she told me there's a young couple (seems to be in their late 20s) and like newly married, and they just employed a maid to look after as it seems the wife was pregnant. And better still, they just moved in last year, so they r pretty new here.

Okay, I also don't care they stay above my unit for 1 year or 10 years or 100000 years. The point is:

"HOW CAN THEY BE SO INCONSIDERATE?"

And so after digging out more info from my mother, she told me that apparantly before the wife got married, they didn't have a maid and it seems that perhaps they use washing machine to wash the clothes, that's why can squeeze out most of the water and so when you hang out the window to dry, it SHOULDN'T be like dripping ANY water. (Yaz, although I never use a washing machine b4, it seems like the case, since my mother has been doing housework for so many decades, so I think shld be like tt arz)

ANYWAY, then a few months ago when the wife got pregnant, then they employed a maid and the funniest thing is, THEY DON'T ALLOW THE MAID TO USE THE FARKING WASHING MACHINE. And so that explains why on MANY occasions, my family's clothes always kana the water from their SUPER WET CLOTHES.

This is FARKING RETARDED lar. Hello!? You don't allow your maid to use the washing machine, so obviously the the clothes when u hanged out to dry, it will still be farking wet lar. How can human hands be as efficient as the washing machine in terms of squeezing water out.

Okay, obviously after hearing all these, I know the maid wasn't really at fault. If really want to blame, must blame that couple that live above.

So after finding out all these info from my mum while she was trying to keep the clothes ASAP, I just took the house key and decided to storm out to confront the unit above me. Yaz, my mother told me that "Nvm lar, we are neighbours afterall. Just ren lorz" Wah laoz, such things how can ren 1? If it's like one or 2 times still okay. But then it has happened SO MANY times liaoz. This is indeed the last straw. I told my mother to stay in house, DON'T GO OUT, and I locked the house and went up one level.

I was fuming mad at that point. I pressed the doorbell of the neighbour and also immediately, the maid came to open the door. Then with her was 2 dogs (I donno wat species, but seems quite fierce) at the door there.

So of cuz first thing I asked was "WHERE'S YOUR MASTER OF THE HOUSE!?

Maybe I sounded abit fierce, and she told me she alone. So wellz, wat to do, I can't simply blast at the poor maid as afterall, she wasn't really at fault. She was just following her master's instructions. So I told her that I live in the unit below her andI say that HER CLOTHES ARE SO BLARDY WET THAT IT'S DRIPPING SO MUCH WATER ONTO MY CLOTHES. And of cuz I demanded that she quickly keep back the clothes as it's very inconsiderate to other ppl.

Anyway, it seems that the miad could understand my English and she keep apologizing to me. And after that I didn't even say "Bye" and just walked off with that "PISSED OFF" look. Talking about that 2 dogs... They seemed quite fierce as of ready to attack me anytime. I think all the dogs are like that lar, when they see strangers then will like that. Anyway, if the dogs WERE to attack me, I swear I will just whack the dogs until they become @#$%^&*

Whatever. Even if this results in some law case I also don't care.

And when I went back home, and very soon after, the maid really keep all the SUPER WET CLOTHES into her house. Finally. But then my mother also don want to put out again. She said wait sekali after awhile the maid bring out the clothes again. -_- Owellz, as I was in a rush for my driving lesson, I just told my mother to decide for herself then I went out liaoz.

Haiz. It gets very angry to have such neighbours. If today or tomorrow or some other day they do the same thing again, I'm gonna go up and CONFRONT that couple and scold them till they can LEARN to be considerate to the others. I don't care whether u r pregnant or whether you are some HIGH-CLASS person. If I'm really offened, then get ready for very nasty words that will come out from my mouth. And I mean it. So what even if I'm much younger than them. I also don't care.

Fuck sia. I think just now my friend sent me some virus and in turn I sent alot of virus to alot of other ppl in the MSN. The moment I saw alot of MSN window popping, then I was like "WTF" and I juz switched off the main switch immediately (That's the only thing I could think of...) Anyway, just hope that nobody kana the virus. Really fuck sia. HAIZ, To hell with all these virus.

But on a lighter note, I think that these few weeks have been quite slack. Or I mean very slack. If only things can stay like tt till I ORD then tt will be good. It's like 80 days till ORD. Seems quite far. But owellz, nvm. Countdown 3 weeks to Japan. To be frank, in my mind I think I didn't really think much abt this upcoming trip. I'm more concerned abt passing my JLPT though.. Haiz.. Which I think I'm like so CMI. Sucks. I think even if I really manage to get tt cert, it's because I'm "TYCO" enough to "tikam" the correct answers.

Sometimes I think I'm just plain lazy and want to "nua" but yet want to get result. Owellz, to be frank, if I next yr release result never pass my JLPT, I think I also will like "oO..like that lorz". But then I think when 2008 comes I must really force myself to MUG hard for my Japanese liaoz. If not is really very "CUI" lorz.

Haiz, I seriously think I SUCK big time in driving. Really CMI. And it's like I drive without consideration for safety. Gosh, I think even if I get my license next year, I will pose such a big road hazard and may just get into accident anytime lorz. Sighz.

And 91 days till ORD, equivalent to 13 weeks. Still a long way to go. And now is like 4 more weeks to Japan. And yaz, yesterday I FINALLY received the letter from JCS to inform me the details regarding my JLPT this coming 2nd Dec. And these few days I think I more or less get down to forcing myself to study as I don't wish to fail and partly due to me being lazy to do anything. Nvm, I still got 3 weeks or so to the exam. Study hard.

And I know I abit kiasu. On Monday and Tuesday, I actually spent like almost HOURS searching on the net regarding property/real estate/apartment rental in Japan, specifically Tokyo. Haiz, land prices in Japan are like so shocking lar... Gosh, it's like:

Can u imagine leaving in a house like ABOVE, no living room.. Just that the living room + room is combined as one big space. Then the kitchen in Orange and the toilet in blue.. And this cost like 80 000 Yen/Month equivalent to like S$1K per month. OMG lar.

And maybe a "slightly bigger" house for one person to stay. Also the same, one toilet + one room + one kitchen and that's like 85 000 yen/month, equivalent to S$1100 per month leh. Wah laoz, and seriously after like hours and days of searching, I think such prices are considered quite CHEAP already for leaving in Tokyo. There are so many more apartments which are about the same size but can easily costs like maybe 1.3K to 1.5K per month.

But then seriously, i think if one person stay is okay lar, quite big enough. I mean like aside from toilet and kitchen, in that small room.. You can put all ur clothese in the closet (in yellow colour) then maybe you will need:

1)One cupboard- For putting books and maybe some other rubbish.
2) One desk for writing and using computer + one chair

3) One bed (Over my dead body am I going to sleep on futon)
4) One TV lorz.

And I think all these will take up enough space already. But then again, I think maybe I will stay in such small apartment for the first 2 to 3 years when I still got no saving.

Okay lar, I know many of u must be thinking I'm day-dreaming again. But hey! It's still a dream afterall, and I will just work hard towards it. Maybe 4 yrs down the road in Nov 2011, which is like I will have graduated for a few months already, I will be in one area of Tokyo busy working my ass off>?

And hopefully when I look back, I can remember that I have such a dream before, and I shall make this dream come true no matter what.

BLOCK LEAVE

NEXT WEEK IS BLOCK LEAVE!!!!

Hahaz, but then the fact is... I have used up my all my leave for the upcoming Japan trip, so actually by right I'm not supposed to go on leave? But watever, I also don't care. Act blur lives longer.

And better still, I'm having duty next Friday (block leave), and I get to claim my OFF on the next next Friday. Omg, so shiok.

And before I know it, it's like ONE more month to JLPT4, and yet I still pretend as nth is gonna happen. Nvm, I shall make full use of the block leave to MUG intensively for my JLPT4 just in case I flunk it next month (which is most likely the case). And since I'm so free next week, perhaps I should just request for 2 or 3 driving lessons during the block leave week.. If not I think I'm like lagging so far behind...

And after the block leave, I will be left with 4 weeks to my way to Hokkaido. So fast, I realised that time has passed quite fast in these recent months. Nvm, it's like 3 more months. Finally. Lolx, But to be frank I still don't feel any sense of ORD-ing. Haiz. Nvm, just take one step at a time.

Last night was such a havoc at MoS!

The Halloween night party was kinda so-so only arz, seeing ppl dressed up in all sorts of weird weird costumes. Vampires, Devils, Angels, Zombies, Chinese Zombies, Witches, Wizards etc, u name it all. And not only that, ppl dressed up in Sailor-style Japanese costume, Kimono, Korean costumes, Samurais, Egypt, blah blah... Weird!

I know I CANNOT hold my liquor well for goodness, and my face turns red EVEN BEFORE I started drinking. So I juz drank like 3 glasses of vodka and THAT'S it. I know won't make me feel high, but I prefer to feel sober. Lolx. Like that might as well don't go club horz? Stayed till 5am before my friend's friend sent me back home on his Car. Gosh, so tired lorz.

And later I still got tuition. Fucks. I swear next time I'm NOT going to give tuition anymore, no matter how POOR my financial status can be next time as an undergrad. I think I should just work alot b4 Uni starts and during sch hols as well, so that I can have abit of saving to last me during my schooling days and then I don't have to end up in such a desperate state of having to juggle sch work and giving tuition. And actually the MOST important reason, as I mentioned in my previous post, is how LOUSY I am in teaching, and to prevent the KARMA of next time me getting a LOUSY lecturor/professor in Uni next time, I think it's indeed a "wake-up" call I shld stop "harming" ppl lorz. Fine. Treat this as a lesson learnt that teaching is not my forte.

Like maybe within 5 days I can end my misery of giving tuition liaoz. Gosh. Finally...

And talking about driving. Haiz, I feel that I'm such an IDIOT lorz. Don't even know how to drive properly. I think I will be those kind need alot extra lessons then can pass tt kind. Haiz. Sad.