Some bi*ch simply turns me off.

CCD D7 go NTU engineering lar. If not go private-u. Worse come to worse go poly lar. Wtf.

As I was telling MengYang today abt a bad dream that I had last night. When I woke up, I was in tears, and I think my pillow was partially wet.

I dreamt that MOE has arranged for some "guinea pigs" to do the trial run for the H1/H2 subjects system. I was in my 4e1 class. Yes, it's sumthing abt bringing the H1/H2 system to O-levels (Don't ask me why my imagination is so fertile) Anywayz, it's O-LEVEL for goodness sake. Only those who were in JC taking Chemistry were selected. That includes quite a few like MY, SW, GX, Loo, Denzil, Johanna, Melina, Xueli and a few more. It's suppose to be a trial run for Chemistry, and so the person holding the "lecture" is none other than my chem teacher Mrs Sharon Kang. (My Gosh) The topic was on organic chem. Oyaz, btw, we were all in our JC uniform. (Don't ask me why wear JC uniform in sec sch class) Mrs Kang was frantically flashing the transparency at a super fast rate, and everyone was busy copying down the notes. I think I was too lazy to do anything then. Anywayz, soon after the lesson, we have a so-called "surprised test". So we cannot refer to anything and I remember clearly that the 1st question was "Draw the structure of propanoic acid" Everyone was busy writing the answer, but for some reason I didn't know what is that n so I leave it blank. And true enough, EVERYONE knows the answer except me. Mrs Kang walked towards me n kind of asked me why I left it blank. I was like telling her I don't know the answer. N soon after, she started scolding me like nobody's business as if I've juz committed some terrible sin. And I think the whole class was like looking at me. She scolded me till I broke down into tears and poof! I woke up with tears in my eyes. I think maybe this is an indication that I've flunked A-level Chem.

O yeah, K-boxing was fun! Wahahaz, we tried singing all the "high-level" songs. Piangz, and I think most guys seriously can't sing high pitch songs. But wellz, who cares, as long we enjoy ourselves then I think it's enough. So 3 of us spent 4.5 hours singing. Owellz, n I think I repeated quite a few songs as I know very few chi songs, not like MY and Joel. Too bad I can't find BoA's songs if not............ Lolx... nvm.

Pardon my grammatical errors.

For once I didn't have to do call backs the whole day. Guess I'm really sick of using the phone, or shld I say sick of talking to ppl. N so for today, I did 3 hrs of call-backs and another 3 hrs doing data-entry. My gosh, the comp is so freaking LAG and is so demn boring. Argz.. But one good thing is that no1 was there supervising and I get to really type at my own sweet time. Since it's fixed pay per hour, wellz, might as well type slowly. Hmm... And I think I'm sick of looking at survey forms. Kaoz.. The sight of having to type like tens or even hundreds of survery form answers into the comp is really demn sianz.

So I had one super weird dream ystd. Ok, it's not tt scary, but it's just weird. I was looking at the A-level result slip that my civics tutor passed to me. Ok, then I look at it, there were 4 subjects. I got some alphabets grade for maths, chem and phy, but tt's not the main point. I was looking at "Biology" and next to it, there was a number that says "19". That's the weird part, as I donno wat "19" means, so I asked my tutor wad on earth is tt, y isn't it some alphabet grade instead. Then she told me "19" is the "score" tt I'm supposed to get. And so I got abit pissed off and started arguing with my civics tutor wat crap is this. Then after that she told me that I took "H1 Biology" and that I am not allowed to use Bio as the best 3 A-levels subject, and so it doesn't matter whether is it "19" or whatever shit. I was like freaking puzzled and abit pissed off. And nvm, then I realised that I couldn't find "general paper", and so I asked my tutor that why on earth is my GP grade not on tt stupid result slip. And I think she kind of replied smth such as cuz I didn't do well for GP, so it's doesn't really matter if I have my GP grade on it, since it won't make a difference. I think at that moment I was so fuming mad as I don't even have the right to know how badly I did for my GP. Ok, then I think I started hitting everyone around me like some mad guy and soon after, I woke up. Owellz, it's quite a weird dream ar? Still donno how on earth I can actually dream abt doing "H1 Biology". And up to now I've been trying hard to think wat "19" stands for. Wah kaoz, but 19 sounds like a "fail" grade lehz. Haiz... nvm.

Chinese New Year is finally over! Lolx.. counting down..around 7 weeks + a few days to enlistment. So I've been working as a telephone surveyor for 2 days, on fri and sat. What can I say, it's quite ok as u get to work in a comfortable environment. All the conversations were recorded down and u actually get to hear ur own voice. I was listening to the very first conversation I had. Kaoz, I was like thinking y my voice sounds so horrible and like coarse. I can't even really understand what I'm talking, let alone other ppl. Anyway, after making calls to near to like 60 ppl, I think I've improved, but it's still so demn horrible. It's like imagine u hear this kind of voice in radio FM, u will surely feel turned off and feel like slamming ur radio tt kind. Some of the things to take note of.

1) Cut down on SINGLISH. I think my supervisor wanna give up already when I keep saying all the "lar", "loh" and whatever u can think of. Ok, must speak in standard English so as to make yourself sound professional.

2) It really tests you LISTENING COMPRE skills. Yes. Imagine if u ask one question and the customer started talking a mixture of relevant and irrelevant stuff, I'll need to filter away the rubbish and write down only the relevant ones. When ppl said "self-employed", I can actually hear "sales-employed". I have quite abit of hearing problem.

3) Even though the survey is in English, you must KNOW how to translate into Chinese if it happens that ur customer is chi-speaking. Okay, that sucks becuz I don really know how to translate some technical terms like "nanotechnology" and some other terms I seldom heard of.

4) Learn to be polite. Even if the person scolds vulgarities or scold u and start slamming the phone, you will still need to smile and say "Have a nice day. Thank you. Bye." Wtf, that's so sucks.

Nvm, tml is the last day of the project. I think it's gonna be the last day I'm working. I can't speak proper English. Forget it, find a new job on Tues.

A low self-esteem person who likes to have all the pessimistic thoughts. That's me. For some "weird" reason, I don't know why recently I keep thinking of some horrible stuff like death or whatsoever. Sometimes I feel like as if I'm some 80 yrs old "ah pek" ar. No life, no energy. Worse still, no dreams, no aims or whatsoever. In the middle of no where, n I don't know what I really wan. Other than the fact that the coming 2 yrs I'm gonna stuck in NS, I feel so worthless. Like the junk of the society. Argz... Hell with all the negative thoughts.

Recently someone asked me what is life? I said donno lar. N he told me life is abt TRYING to make a living. Kinda stunned at the reply. But thinking for awhile, that's quite true ar. Life is so dull and boring for me, at least for the time being. Haiz, wasting earth's oxygen supply or whatever there is.

2 months have passed and left another 2 months to NS. Owellz, 50% of my so-called holidays is over. That's pretty fast, but yet pretty slow. I will need to spice up my life or I think I will gonna go insane. Seeing everyone busy with studying or with NS or with work, that just makes me jealous. Sounds contridicting but I realised what I really want is something to keep me occupied to the max. so that I won't let my thoughts run wild. It's only then I realised blogging is one thing which keeps me occupied. Lolx..so juz allow me to continue with my rubbish.

I think I complained to a few ppl b4, but can't remember who. Anywayz, it's abt the fact tt I'm enlisted in April. I was like over the moon when I received the letter that I'm enlisted in April... But now? Kaoz, I swear I wish I'm now in some stupid field camp in some ulu jungle of tekong now. All the shit abt what enjoying civillian life b4 NS. Piangz, craps! If what I predict is gonna be true, then I believe that 2 yrs later when the 2006 Jan batch of NS guys ORD liao, I bet they r going to waste their time away doin nth as well, n will be like me now, wasting life away. Sighz.

Life is so boring. Anyone cares to give me counselling on 10 reasons why life rocks?

Fell sick today. And vomited once. Piangz, but then I was telling my mother maybe it ain't a bad thing after all. On average, I realised that I will fall sick once a year. Not more or not less. Exactly once a year. So since I've fallen sick for the year 2006, hopefully I'm not going to get SICK again in NS, after seeing so many of my friends who are in so bad conditions after juz 3 weeks of BMT. There was once I actually asked my friend if he's actually "poisoned" or wat. Now that I have almost the whole time to myself, not having to worry abt missing lessons or wat, it's just the "right" time to fall sick. Nvm, I making myself sound as if I'm "happy" to fall sick. -_-'''

I'm starting to get paranoid after toking to the teachers who have taught me b4 in sec sch, when visiting them today. Piangz, roughly 2 weeks or so to "heart attack". Haiz... 2 weeks will pass very fast 1. Can't be bothered. But now I'm more interested in using the bicycle which I think I've not used for 6 years to cycle. Hope nth goes wrong with tt bicycle, as I think maybe I will want to use it to cycle to East Coast. Lolx..It's been like such a looooong loooooooong time since I last cycled, but it's time lose some FATS. Piangz, I'm so heavy and weak now. Gosh... I doubt I have the determination to "condition" myself to a "desired state" b4 NS.