A low self-esteem person who likes to have all the pessimistic thoughts. That's me. For some "weird" reason, I don't know why recently I keep thinking of some horrible stuff like death or whatsoever. Sometimes I feel like as if I'm some 80 yrs old "ah pek" ar. No life, no energy. Worse still, no dreams, no aims or whatsoever. In the middle of no where, n I don't know what I really wan. Other than the fact that the coming 2 yrs I'm gonna stuck in NS, I feel so worthless. Like the junk of the society. Argz... Hell with all the negative thoughts.

Recently someone asked me what is life? I said donno lar. N he told me life is abt TRYING to make a living. Kinda stunned at the reply. But thinking for awhile, that's quite true ar. Life is so dull and boring for me, at least for the time being. Haiz, wasting earth's oxygen supply or whatever there is.

2 months have passed and left another 2 months to NS. Owellz, 50% of my so-called holidays is over. That's pretty fast, but yet pretty slow. I will need to spice up my life or I think I will gonna go insane. Seeing everyone busy with studying or with NS or with work, that just makes me jealous. Sounds contridicting but I realised what I really want is something to keep me occupied to the max. so that I won't let my thoughts run wild. It's only then I realised blogging is one thing which keeps me occupied. Lolx..so juz allow me to continue with my rubbish.

I think I complained to a few ppl b4, but can't remember who. Anywayz, it's abt the fact tt I'm enlisted in April. I was like over the moon when I received the letter that I'm enlisted in April... But now? Kaoz, I swear I wish I'm now in some stupid field camp in some ulu jungle of tekong now. All the shit abt what enjoying civillian life b4 NS. Piangz, craps! If what I predict is gonna be true, then I believe that 2 yrs later when the 2006 Jan batch of NS guys ORD liao, I bet they r going to waste their time away doin nth as well, n will be like me now, wasting life away. Sighz.

Life is so boring. Anyone cares to give me counselling on 10 reasons why life rocks?