Great. I screwed up my interview for SMU accountancy. Firstly, I was 15 min late for the interview, but to be more exact, I think I reach on the dot. They wanted me to reach 15 min earlier, which is 1030am, but I reached at exactly 1045am. Nvm, so when I was there, while trying to catch my breathe, the person told me to go for the interview IMMEDIATELY w/o even letting me rest 1st. Wth. Anyway, I realised that there were close to 10 ppl sitting down at the sofa waiting for the interview I guess, I seriously don't know why can't they allow these ppl to go 1st. Whateverz. So I went inside the room to see 2 men whom seem quite unfriendly. Anywayz, I was mentally prepared for the sarcastic remarks and questions to be thrown at me.

I just realised that SMU has quite tight security. Students need to tap their cards b4 they r allowed through the gates. Wow.... So high-tech. I think in NUS/NTU, u just walk in and out nobody will care 1 arz. NUS/NTU is so big, it's like even 20 ppl juz walk in from outside into the LT also can. SMU still must use security pass. Hmm....

And SMU is so demn small. If u look at the SMU map, u realised that the school of accountancy is the SMALLEST among all the buildings, excluding the library. Anywayz, it has only 5 stories for the acct building, but I think the business and econs/social sci buildings are much bigger and taller. Imagine this, I think the area of the acct building is around that of 2 times the size of a typical JC canteen. U can imagine how blardy small it is. And the fact that it's only 5 stories high really makes the whole building looks small overall.

Owellz, hope they won't deny me a place there. Those so-called "prospective students" over there all look so smart and confident. I think I was the only panicky person. Haiz, whatever arz, I expected myself to screw up the interview. Lolx... What's over is over.

11 more days to enlistment. Argz! I'm bored! I just realised that PS2 FF12 is out. I want to play, but I scared I will suffer from "sudden PS2 withdrawal symtoms", meaning if I were to play halfway and if I can't finish the game b4 I enlist, I'm gonna get restless in tekong. Bleahz. I don't wish for tt to happen to me.

Just a random thought. Sometimes I really wonder one thing. Why on earth is my eyesight so bad when so many others with perfect eyesights are using comp (or watch TV) as often as me. Damn. I want to go for the eye laser operation when I turn 21, which is roughly after my ORD. I want to go back to the time when I wake up and open my eyes everyday, I can see eveything clearly. (I started wearing specs in pri.2) Haiz. It's really horror to live w/o specs now. I'm as good as half a blind man when I don't wear anything. That reminds me of a scenario. If I am in the middle of a jungle fighting a war, and for some reason I lose my spectacles. Piangz. How on earth can am I goin to survive!? I can't possibly stick my head to about 10cm in front of him and then distinguish if he is a friend or foe. I will be dead by then. Haiz. I envy ppl with perfect eyesight.

Went for a swim at Bedok. It's been like 4 or 5 yrs since I last swam. And I had leg cramp after swimming for barely half an hour. But since it wasn't that serious, I continued swimming for another 1 hr. Bleahz, I think I swam a total of 7 or 8 laps (Assuming that one lap refers to swimming from start point to opp. and back to the start point... I've no idea wat one lap means) in 1.5 hrs. And most likely I swam the slowest since those ppl around me can swim faster. Even those old uncles can swim faster. Argz... I'm demn weak now. Must start traning everyday le!! I believe swimming does help in training one's stamina (other than juz plain running). So hopefully my 2.4km run timing won't be tt bad when I'm in. Haiz...

17 days to enlistment!!

I received a call today from SMU that I'm shortlisted for admission into Accountancy, and need to go for some dumbass interview next wed(29th March) and to bring a few documents. So troublesome, and I don really like this interview thingyi. It's as if SMU is some bigshot uni. Bleahz, nvm, as long can get in can liaoz, and hopefully they won't really mind my broken english when I speak to them. And as usual, they will start asking stupid ques like "what outstanding abilities do u possess" or maybe things like "y do u wan to come SMU" blah blah blah. Argz... Nvm, I think I shld be able to smoke thru this interview... I hope. Lolx...

Wasted tripS. So at abt 9am, I set off for Bedok Swimming Complex. When I was there, there was this sign there says some maintenance thingyi today, and will be closed, and that includes several other public swimming pools as well. Nvm, so I went to Tampines SAFRA there and reached at around 10am. When I was there. they were also having maintenance as well, and will only be open from 11am. I was so pissed. Nvm, I shall go again tml.

And hence, I decided to go cycling at East Coast (yet again). When I was cycling towards the west, and I believe I was sumwhere at kallang when it started drizzling. Damn. So I quickly cycled back all the way to the connector which link across ECP. Phew, I managed to cycle "faster" than the wind could blow the dark clouds towards me. (Ok, I donno wat english I'm toking) Just that I wasn't really caught in the rain at all, but I believe it was raining behind me. Owellz, when I was approaching Kembangan MRT station, it started to rain quite heavily. But since I was already sumwhere near my house, I'm too lazy to find a shelter and decided to cycled in the rain, for around 5 min b4 I reached back home. And when I was back home, after like 15 min, it stopped raining. @#$%^@#$%^&*

Conclusion: Today is simply not my day.

And again, my MSN list is half empty. Most of the guys r "MIA" either in OCS, SISPEC or some other units. Haiz, and again I'm gonna rot away while "looking forward" to my enlistment. Finally settled with all my 3 uni applications. And I donno wat's wrong with the unis. Last time during my sis's era, they nv have such system of writing essays. Kaoz, waste of ppl's time. Anywayz, I was just fooling around with my NUS application. Bleahz. Shaowei and Jingwen shld know y. But I also can't be bothered what course they give me in NUS, since I think tt $10 application fee is really for donation to NUS. -_-'''

I'M DEAD!

So I finally managed to force myself to cycle to East Coast, locked my bicycle and prepared myself for the "run". I think I ran barely 200m and I gave up. @#$%^&*@#$%^& Wth rite? How to pass IPPT next time? Damn it. So instead I think I forced myself to walk around 2km? I think so... and it was quite "pissifying" with all the small kids dashing out or blocking the road while I cycled my way back. All rite, it's sch holidays. They r there to enjoy themselves b4 boring lessons start again. Must understand. Next week East Coast park shall be dead empty by then, hopefully.... Then I can do some work-outs at those fitness stations while no1 is watching.

24 days to enlistment. Ho......

Wow, it's already sch holidays!? Though it's none of my business, but I hope the kids r in schools so that the shopping centres will be less crowded. Bleahz, unreasonable demand! I realised I'm starting to like DOTA a little bit. Though I'm a super newbie in it, but heyz, who knows if DOTA is going to revolve around my life for the next 2 yrs!? I'm still trying to learn to get a hang of it but I think I'm really CMI as compared to so many others. Shucks.

Ok. I found one post which I felt it's super horrible. Deleted it. Bleahz. I was writing nonsense. -_-''' Yucks. Disgusting piece of sh*t.

WOLF CREEK>>>>> BORING SHOW!!! I nearly fell asleep while watching. I think the main reason is becuz there's NO chi subtitles. Sucks. In case some who don't know, I have really really bad hearing problems when the "angmohs" speak. I think maybe becuz I nv hear enough of eng ever since young. They seem to speak alien language to me. Hence, I always stick to reading the subtitles whenever I watch eng movies. This means that half the show I don understand what on earth they r toking abt. Perhaps that explains why I really HATE listening to eng songs. Argz.... I rather listen to Jap/Kor songs which I don't understand totally, rather than eng songs which I half understand and half don understand.

CAMPUS SUPERSTAR!!! Lolx, so I was watching the recorded one as I reached home late, and soon after, it's the release of result. KHIM GOT OUT!? Wtf, she's been like consistently good for every single performance ever since the start of the competition and yet she got out!? But it was real lucky for dean to get in as she scored the lowest due to her forgetting the lyrics halfway thru. No comments for the guys. It's gonna get more exciting next week!

O.............. I juz remembered smth. Underworld Evolution is a dumbass show. Pls do not watch it. Waste my $$ watching tt stupid show. I can't figure out whose lycans and whose vampires. Maybe juz tt I'm lagged. But overall, that show is WEIRD as it has sex scenes in like the middle of all the fightings? And the werewolves look more like gorillas. Or maybe I'm the only one who can't appreciate that movie.

So I've been to nus, ntu, smu open house. Met quite a few ppl in the 3 unis. I think more or less I've settled on wat course I wanna take. No regrets.... I hope. But juz tt where shld I pursue my studies in. Ok, and after "much consideration", I believe that I would wan to go ntu. But nevertheless, I shld juz apply for all 3 in case I can't get into wat I want in ntu. Bleahz, and so I was told tt they will be admitting 600~700 students into ntu accountancy, and it happened so that the lecturers/students in ntu were saying tt acct is the no.1 hardest course to get into in ntu. That sucks. Hope they have one pathetic vacancy for me.

And so I was so bored that I started surfing the CCAs that are offered in NTU. Wow, unbelievable, there's like so many CCAs to choose from. And yaz, Shaowei was HAPPY when I show him the ntu floorball webpage. But some of the clubs/societies offered in NTU, 80% I feel that is so super boring. Sounds dull and dead. [As expected, they r not sports CCAs] Yaz, so toking abt sports CCAs, wow, they seem much better than what's offered in sec sch/jc. Okay, I still have 2 yrs of NS to go, maybe shld wait for another 2 yrs then tok abt it. Who knows where will I be then.

I realised many symptoms of STM in me. [STM = Short Term Memory] A sign that my brain is degenerating. I seem to be asking questions repeatedly though I really have no idea what I've mentioned it b4. But I hope I won't get any "stupider" when I get into NS. Owellz, 3 weeks and 5 days to enlistment.

So I've been listening to Jolin's "ni kuai le ma" more than any other songs I've heard in my whole life, I think. Anywayz, I don't know why I like tt song so much, lolx... Maybe cuz shermaine sang tt song? And talking abt CSS, haiz, the results are quite disappointing. Okay, in case I'm accused of anything, I hope dean, teresa, khim will get in for the gals. And for the guys, hopefully it's zhiyang, adriano and yuyang. Lolx... Ok, so I didn't mention who shall be out, but who shall be in instead.

Life is SO SO SO BORING>>>>>>> TO THE MAX!! How on earth am I going to adapt from a life of a pig to that of a soldier? I have 4 + weeks to enlistment. Ok, so I think I'm going to countdown to my enlistement date for my subsequent posts. 4 weeks seem long but I think I'm goin into tekong in no time. And the 1st batch r having their POP these few days!? Piangz, it's like so fast!? It seems that they enlist only a couple of weeks ago. But I believe tt 9 weeks in tekong will seem like 9 months to some ppl, like me? I've read and hear enough of horrible stories of tekong, like how tekong is "cursed" as so many ppl fall sick etc. Right now I can imagine that I will be longing for my comfortable bed in my air-con room while I sleep in the grave that I dig for myself in tekong? How I wish to have a comfortable warm bath while I'm wearing the uniform which I've not washed for 5 days? Ok, but the thought tt everyone will be going through this shit together with u makes me feel a little more relieved as u r not alone. If u feel bad, I believe there r always someone out there who feel worse than u. If u think u r weak, there r always someone out there who is weaker than u. Okay, this is pure "self-consolation" to make me feel better. Bleahz, anywayz, I was reading my resolutions for 2006 in one of the old posts. The first was fulfiiled, now I'm left with one and only one resolution, which is to slack throughout in NS! I felt slightly better cuz I'm in sch1, as I compare my friends who are in sch1 and sch2, sch1 seems alot more "slack" than sch2. Sch2 seems like hell. Hopefully I'm right. BUT I HOPE they won't swap the the officers in sch2 originally to sch1. If not tt's gonna be hell, and yaz, hope I will be posted to some "taures"-alike COY. Most ppl reading my blog shld know what I mean. Anywayz, hope it's going to be plain-sailing for me in time to come.

A few things I "foresee" I'm gonna die in.

IPPT - I think I will do 0 pull-ups. I'm fat n weak like a pig now.
Shooting - I'm PA JIAO arz, what do u expect!? I'm gonna shoot the mozzies and ants (hmm...tt sounds like mengyang's wife)
SOC - I'm gonna get stuck at low wall. Or maybe the "pyramid" thingyi where u need to step on logs. I think I'm gonna step onto empty air.

Ok, other than that, I hope I can survive the rest. Even if I don survive, I hope that many ppl will screw it up totally with me so that I'm not alone (tt sounds evil). The ONLY good thing abt beling enlisted in April is that u will already roughly know WHAT to expect in BMT and how to smoke ur way thru, as the Jan batch will share their experiences with u. Okay, now that the Jan batch r having their 12 days break, it's time to jot down every single tips that u ever need to survive. Then I shall compile it up to form a book: "101 ways to survive in tekong BMT". Lame.

Some bi*ch simply turns me off.

CCD D7 go NTU engineering lar. If not go private-u. Worse come to worse go poly lar. Wtf.

As I was telling MengYang today abt a bad dream that I had last night. When I woke up, I was in tears, and I think my pillow was partially wet.

I dreamt that MOE has arranged for some "guinea pigs" to do the trial run for the H1/H2 subjects system. I was in my 4e1 class. Yes, it's sumthing abt bringing the H1/H2 system to O-levels (Don't ask me why my imagination is so fertile) Anywayz, it's O-LEVEL for goodness sake. Only those who were in JC taking Chemistry were selected. That includes quite a few like MY, SW, GX, Loo, Denzil, Johanna, Melina, Xueli and a few more. It's suppose to be a trial run for Chemistry, and so the person holding the "lecture" is none other than my chem teacher Mrs Sharon Kang. (My Gosh) The topic was on organic chem. Oyaz, btw, we were all in our JC uniform. (Don't ask me why wear JC uniform in sec sch class) Mrs Kang was frantically flashing the transparency at a super fast rate, and everyone was busy copying down the notes. I think I was too lazy to do anything then. Anywayz, soon after the lesson, we have a so-called "surprised test". So we cannot refer to anything and I remember clearly that the 1st question was "Draw the structure of propanoic acid" Everyone was busy writing the answer, but for some reason I didn't know what is that n so I leave it blank. And true enough, EVERYONE knows the answer except me. Mrs Kang walked towards me n kind of asked me why I left it blank. I was like telling her I don't know the answer. N soon after, she started scolding me like nobody's business as if I've juz committed some terrible sin. And I think the whole class was like looking at me. She scolded me till I broke down into tears and poof! I woke up with tears in my eyes. I think maybe this is an indication that I've flunked A-level Chem.

O yeah, K-boxing was fun! Wahahaz, we tried singing all the "high-level" songs. Piangz, and I think most guys seriously can't sing high pitch songs. But wellz, who cares, as long we enjoy ourselves then I think it's enough. So 3 of us spent 4.5 hours singing. Owellz, n I think I repeated quite a few songs as I know very few chi songs, not like MY and Joel. Too bad I can't find BoA's songs if not............ Lolx... nvm.

Pardon my grammatical errors.

For once I didn't have to do call backs the whole day. Guess I'm really sick of using the phone, or shld I say sick of talking to ppl. N so for today, I did 3 hrs of call-backs and another 3 hrs doing data-entry. My gosh, the comp is so freaking LAG and is so demn boring. Argz.. But one good thing is that no1 was there supervising and I get to really type at my own sweet time. Since it's fixed pay per hour, wellz, might as well type slowly. Hmm... And I think I'm sick of looking at survey forms. Kaoz.. The sight of having to type like tens or even hundreds of survery form answers into the comp is really demn sianz.

So I had one super weird dream ystd. Ok, it's not tt scary, but it's just weird. I was looking at the A-level result slip that my civics tutor passed to me. Ok, then I look at it, there were 4 subjects. I got some alphabets grade for maths, chem and phy, but tt's not the main point. I was looking at "Biology" and next to it, there was a number that says "19". That's the weird part, as I donno wat "19" means, so I asked my tutor wad on earth is tt, y isn't it some alphabet grade instead. Then she told me "19" is the "score" tt I'm supposed to get. And so I got abit pissed off and started arguing with my civics tutor wat crap is this. Then after that she told me that I took "H1 Biology" and that I am not allowed to use Bio as the best 3 A-levels subject, and so it doesn't matter whether is it "19" or whatever shit. I was like freaking puzzled and abit pissed off. And nvm, then I realised that I couldn't find "general paper", and so I asked my tutor that why on earth is my GP grade not on tt stupid result slip. And I think she kind of replied smth such as cuz I didn't do well for GP, so it's doesn't really matter if I have my GP grade on it, since it won't make a difference. I think at that moment I was so fuming mad as I don't even have the right to know how badly I did for my GP. Ok, then I think I started hitting everyone around me like some mad guy and soon after, I woke up. Owellz, it's quite a weird dream ar? Still donno how on earth I can actually dream abt doing "H1 Biology". And up to now I've been trying hard to think wat "19" stands for. Wah kaoz, but 19 sounds like a "fail" grade lehz. Haiz... nvm.

Chinese New Year is finally over! Lolx.. counting down..around 7 weeks + a few days to enlistment. So I've been working as a telephone surveyor for 2 days, on fri and sat. What can I say, it's quite ok as u get to work in a comfortable environment. All the conversations were recorded down and u actually get to hear ur own voice. I was listening to the very first conversation I had. Kaoz, I was like thinking y my voice sounds so horrible and like coarse. I can't even really understand what I'm talking, let alone other ppl. Anyway, after making calls to near to like 60 ppl, I think I've improved, but it's still so demn horrible. It's like imagine u hear this kind of voice in radio FM, u will surely feel turned off and feel like slamming ur radio tt kind. Some of the things to take note of.

1) Cut down on SINGLISH. I think my supervisor wanna give up already when I keep saying all the "lar", "loh" and whatever u can think of. Ok, must speak in standard English so as to make yourself sound professional.

2) It really tests you LISTENING COMPRE skills. Yes. Imagine if u ask one question and the customer started talking a mixture of relevant and irrelevant stuff, I'll need to filter away the rubbish and write down only the relevant ones. When ppl said "self-employed", I can actually hear "sales-employed". I have quite abit of hearing problem.

3) Even though the survey is in English, you must KNOW how to translate into Chinese if it happens that ur customer is chi-speaking. Okay, that sucks becuz I don really know how to translate some technical terms like "nanotechnology" and some other terms I seldom heard of.

4) Learn to be polite. Even if the person scolds vulgarities or scold u and start slamming the phone, you will still need to smile and say "Have a nice day. Thank you. Bye." Wtf, that's so sucks.

Nvm, tml is the last day of the project. I think it's gonna be the last day I'm working. I can't speak proper English. Forget it, find a new job on Tues.

A low self-esteem person who likes to have all the pessimistic thoughts. That's me. For some "weird" reason, I don't know why recently I keep thinking of some horrible stuff like death or whatsoever. Sometimes I feel like as if I'm some 80 yrs old "ah pek" ar. No life, no energy. Worse still, no dreams, no aims or whatsoever. In the middle of no where, n I don't know what I really wan. Other than the fact that the coming 2 yrs I'm gonna stuck in NS, I feel so worthless. Like the junk of the society. Argz... Hell with all the negative thoughts.

Recently someone asked me what is life? I said donno lar. N he told me life is abt TRYING to make a living. Kinda stunned at the reply. But thinking for awhile, that's quite true ar. Life is so dull and boring for me, at least for the time being. Haiz, wasting earth's oxygen supply or whatever there is.

2 months have passed and left another 2 months to NS. Owellz, 50% of my so-called holidays is over. That's pretty fast, but yet pretty slow. I will need to spice up my life or I think I will gonna go insane. Seeing everyone busy with studying or with NS or with work, that just makes me jealous. Sounds contridicting but I realised what I really want is something to keep me occupied to the max. so that I won't let my thoughts run wild. It's only then I realised blogging is one thing which keeps me occupied. Lolx..so juz allow me to continue with my rubbish.

I think I complained to a few ppl b4, but can't remember who. Anywayz, it's abt the fact tt I'm enlisted in April. I was like over the moon when I received the letter that I'm enlisted in April... But now? Kaoz, I swear I wish I'm now in some stupid field camp in some ulu jungle of tekong now. All the shit abt what enjoying civillian life b4 NS. Piangz, craps! If what I predict is gonna be true, then I believe that 2 yrs later when the 2006 Jan batch of NS guys ORD liao, I bet they r going to waste their time away doin nth as well, n will be like me now, wasting life away. Sighz.

Life is so boring. Anyone cares to give me counselling on 10 reasons why life rocks?

Fell sick today. And vomited once. Piangz, but then I was telling my mother maybe it ain't a bad thing after all. On average, I realised that I will fall sick once a year. Not more or not less. Exactly once a year. So since I've fallen sick for the year 2006, hopefully I'm not going to get SICK again in NS, after seeing so many of my friends who are in so bad conditions after juz 3 weeks of BMT. There was once I actually asked my friend if he's actually "poisoned" or wat. Now that I have almost the whole time to myself, not having to worry abt missing lessons or wat, it's just the "right" time to fall sick. Nvm, I making myself sound as if I'm "happy" to fall sick. -_-'''

I'm starting to get paranoid after toking to the teachers who have taught me b4 in sec sch, when visiting them today. Piangz, roughly 2 weeks or so to "heart attack". Haiz... 2 weeks will pass very fast 1. Can't be bothered. But now I'm more interested in using the bicycle which I think I've not used for 6 years to cycle. Hope nth goes wrong with tt bicycle, as I think maybe I will want to use it to cycle to East Coast. Lolx..It's been like such a looooong loooooooong time since I last cycled, but it's time lose some FATS. Piangz, I'm so heavy and weak now. Gosh... I doubt I have the determination to "condition" myself to a "desired state" b4 NS.