Learn to be a good neighbour

Just as I was having lunch with my Mother and then after eating, when my mum went near to the kitchen window, she was like SCREAMING and quickly open the windows to keep all those "bamboo poles" inside the house. As the weather was quite sunny during that instant, I was quite puzzled so I went forward and asked her "Now raining arz?" Then she replied "No arz, you can just look up" So I looked up a little then realised that the unit above me, they hanged out the very wet clothes outside to dry, and it's DRIPPING so much water majiam it looked like it's raining.

So obviously I was like "WTF !!".

But to be frank, I NEVER bother finding out who are my neighbours living in the same block as me. Anyway, so I just asked my mother who's staying above, and she told me there's a young couple (seems to be in their late 20s) and like newly married, and they just employed a maid to look after as it seems the wife was pregnant. And better still, they just moved in last year, so they r pretty new here.

Okay, I also don't care they stay above my unit for 1 year or 10 years or 100000 years. The point is:

"HOW CAN THEY BE SO INCONSIDERATE?"

And so after digging out more info from my mother, she told me that apparantly before the wife got married, they didn't have a maid and it seems that perhaps they use washing machine to wash the clothes, that's why can squeeze out most of the water and so when you hang out the window to dry, it SHOULDN'T be like dripping ANY water. (Yaz, although I never use a washing machine b4, it seems like the case, since my mother has been doing housework for so many decades, so I think shld be like tt arz)

ANYWAY, then a few months ago when the wife got pregnant, then they employed a maid and the funniest thing is, THEY DON'T ALLOW THE MAID TO USE THE FARKING WASHING MACHINE. And so that explains why on MANY occasions, my family's clothes always kana the water from their SUPER WET CLOTHES.

This is FARKING RETARDED lar. Hello!? You don't allow your maid to use the washing machine, so obviously the the clothes when u hanged out to dry, it will still be farking wet lar. How can human hands be as efficient as the washing machine in terms of squeezing water out.

Okay, obviously after hearing all these, I know the maid wasn't really at fault. If really want to blame, must blame that couple that live above.

So after finding out all these info from my mum while she was trying to keep the clothes ASAP, I just took the house key and decided to storm out to confront the unit above me. Yaz, my mother told me that "Nvm lar, we are neighbours afterall. Just ren lorz" Wah laoz, such things how can ren 1? If it's like one or 2 times still okay. But then it has happened SO MANY times liaoz. This is indeed the last straw. I told my mother to stay in house, DON'T GO OUT, and I locked the house and went up one level.

I was fuming mad at that point. I pressed the doorbell of the neighbour and also immediately, the maid came to open the door. Then with her was 2 dogs (I donno wat species, but seems quite fierce) at the door there.

So of cuz first thing I asked was "WHERE'S YOUR MASTER OF THE HOUSE!?

Maybe I sounded abit fierce, and she told me she alone. So wellz, wat to do, I can't simply blast at the poor maid as afterall, she wasn't really at fault. She was just following her master's instructions. So I told her that I live in the unit below her andI say that HER CLOTHES ARE SO BLARDY WET THAT IT'S DRIPPING SO MUCH WATER ONTO MY CLOTHES. And of cuz I demanded that she quickly keep back the clothes as it's very inconsiderate to other ppl.

Anyway, it seems that the miad could understand my English and she keep apologizing to me. And after that I didn't even say "Bye" and just walked off with that "PISSED OFF" look. Talking about that 2 dogs... They seemed quite fierce as of ready to attack me anytime. I think all the dogs are like that lar, when they see strangers then will like that. Anyway, if the dogs WERE to attack me, I swear I will just whack the dogs until they become @#$%^&*

Whatever. Even if this results in some law case I also don't care.

And when I went back home, and very soon after, the maid really keep all the SUPER WET CLOTHES into her house. Finally. But then my mother also don want to put out again. She said wait sekali after awhile the maid bring out the clothes again. -_- Owellz, as I was in a rush for my driving lesson, I just told my mother to decide for herself then I went out liaoz.

Haiz. It gets very angry to have such neighbours. If today or tomorrow or some other day they do the same thing again, I'm gonna go up and CONFRONT that couple and scold them till they can LEARN to be considerate to the others. I don't care whether u r pregnant or whether you are some HIGH-CLASS person. If I'm really offened, then get ready for very nasty words that will come out from my mouth. And I mean it. So what even if I'm much younger than them. I also don't care.

Fuck sia. I think just now my friend sent me some virus and in turn I sent alot of virus to alot of other ppl in the MSN. The moment I saw alot of MSN window popping, then I was like "WTF" and I juz switched off the main switch immediately (That's the only thing I could think of...) Anyway, just hope that nobody kana the virus. Really fuck sia. HAIZ, To hell with all these virus.

But on a lighter note, I think that these few weeks have been quite slack. Or I mean very slack. If only things can stay like tt till I ORD then tt will be good. It's like 80 days till ORD. Seems quite far. But owellz, nvm. Countdown 3 weeks to Japan. To be frank, in my mind I think I didn't really think much abt this upcoming trip. I'm more concerned abt passing my JLPT though.. Haiz.. Which I think I'm like so CMI. Sucks. I think even if I really manage to get tt cert, it's because I'm "TYCO" enough to "tikam" the correct answers.

Sometimes I think I'm just plain lazy and want to "nua" but yet want to get result. Owellz, to be frank, if I next yr release result never pass my JLPT, I think I also will like "oO..like that lorz". But then I think when 2008 comes I must really force myself to MUG hard for my Japanese liaoz. If not is really very "CUI" lorz.

Haiz, I seriously think I SUCK big time in driving. Really CMI. And it's like I drive without consideration for safety. Gosh, I think even if I get my license next year, I will pose such a big road hazard and may just get into accident anytime lorz. Sighz.

And 91 days till ORD, equivalent to 13 weeks. Still a long way to go. And now is like 4 more weeks to Japan. And yaz, yesterday I FINALLY received the letter from JCS to inform me the details regarding my JLPT this coming 2nd Dec. And these few days I think I more or less get down to forcing myself to study as I don't wish to fail and partly due to me being lazy to do anything. Nvm, I still got 3 weeks or so to the exam. Study hard.

And I know I abit kiasu. On Monday and Tuesday, I actually spent like almost HOURS searching on the net regarding property/real estate/apartment rental in Japan, specifically Tokyo. Haiz, land prices in Japan are like so shocking lar... Gosh, it's like:

Can u imagine leaving in a house like ABOVE, no living room.. Just that the living room + room is combined as one big space. Then the kitchen in Orange and the toilet in blue.. And this cost like 80 000 Yen/Month equivalent to like S$1K per month. OMG lar.

And maybe a "slightly bigger" house for one person to stay. Also the same, one toilet + one room + one kitchen and that's like 85 000 yen/month, equivalent to S$1100 per month leh. Wah laoz, and seriously after like hours and days of searching, I think such prices are considered quite CHEAP already for leaving in Tokyo. There are so many more apartments which are about the same size but can easily costs like maybe 1.3K to 1.5K per month.

But then seriously, i think if one person stay is okay lar, quite big enough. I mean like aside from toilet and kitchen, in that small room.. You can put all ur clothese in the closet (in yellow colour) then maybe you will need:

1)One cupboard- For putting books and maybe some other rubbish.
2) One desk for writing and using computer + one chair

3) One bed (Over my dead body am I going to sleep on futon)
4) One TV lorz.

And I think all these will take up enough space already. But then again, I think maybe I will stay in such small apartment for the first 2 to 3 years when I still got no saving.

Okay lar, I know many of u must be thinking I'm day-dreaming again. But hey! It's still a dream afterall, and I will just work hard towards it. Maybe 4 yrs down the road in Nov 2011, which is like I will have graduated for a few months already, I will be in one area of Tokyo busy working my ass off>?

And hopefully when I look back, I can remember that I have such a dream before, and I shall make this dream come true no matter what.

BLOCK LEAVE

NEXT WEEK IS BLOCK LEAVE!!!!

Hahaz, but then the fact is... I have used up my all my leave for the upcoming Japan trip, so actually by right I'm not supposed to go on leave? But watever, I also don't care. Act blur lives longer.

And better still, I'm having duty next Friday (block leave), and I get to claim my OFF on the next next Friday. Omg, so shiok.

And before I know it, it's like ONE more month to JLPT4, and yet I still pretend as nth is gonna happen. Nvm, I shall make full use of the block leave to MUG intensively for my JLPT4 just in case I flunk it next month (which is most likely the case). And since I'm so free next week, perhaps I should just request for 2 or 3 driving lessons during the block leave week.. If not I think I'm like lagging so far behind...

And after the block leave, I will be left with 4 weeks to my way to Hokkaido. So fast, I realised that time has passed quite fast in these recent months. Nvm, it's like 3 more months. Finally. Lolx, But to be frank I still don't feel any sense of ORD-ing. Haiz. Nvm, just take one step at a time.

Last night was such a havoc at MoS!

The Halloween night party was kinda so-so only arz, seeing ppl dressed up in all sorts of weird weird costumes. Vampires, Devils, Angels, Zombies, Chinese Zombies, Witches, Wizards etc, u name it all. And not only that, ppl dressed up in Sailor-style Japanese costume, Kimono, Korean costumes, Samurais, Egypt, blah blah... Weird!

I know I CANNOT hold my liquor well for goodness, and my face turns red EVEN BEFORE I started drinking. So I juz drank like 3 glasses of vodka and THAT'S it. I know won't make me feel high, but I prefer to feel sober. Lolx. Like that might as well don't go club horz? Stayed till 5am before my friend's friend sent me back home on his Car. Gosh, so tired lorz.

And later I still got tuition. Fucks. I swear next time I'm NOT going to give tuition anymore, no matter how POOR my financial status can be next time as an undergrad. I think I should just work alot b4 Uni starts and during sch hols as well, so that I can have abit of saving to last me during my schooling days and then I don't have to end up in such a desperate state of having to juggle sch work and giving tuition. And actually the MOST important reason, as I mentioned in my previous post, is how LOUSY I am in teaching, and to prevent the KARMA of next time me getting a LOUSY lecturor/professor in Uni next time, I think it's indeed a "wake-up" call I shld stop "harming" ppl lorz. Fine. Treat this as a lesson learnt that teaching is not my forte.

Like maybe within 5 days I can end my misery of giving tuition liaoz. Gosh. Finally...

And talking about driving. Haiz, I feel that I'm such an IDIOT lorz. Don't even know how to drive properly. I think I will be those kind need alot extra lessons then can pass tt kind. Haiz. Sad.

Fine, 3 more months of duties. And I changed my Japan trip instead of late Dec to 10th Dec to 16th Dec.

Haiz, how I wish that O-levels can faster end. I think I nearly swear I'm not gonna give tuition forever in my whole life again. I'm not cut-out to be tutor lar. Wah kaoz, is like I teach arz, ppl can from pass become F9 lorz. Wtf. I think only a lousy tutor like me can be so kns. Fine. At least I know I can't teach for goodness sake, and I shall abandon the idea of doing relief teaching. It's a sure disaster for tt sch if I ever become relief teacher.

But I seriously feel like working in some Human Resource job next time when I work leh. Okay, I also donno y I like but I think it's quite fun. Nvm, I still got like 3 mths to PASS before I even consider all these.

I think I'm quite an idiot. Yesterday when I was in MRT, there was like 4 Japanese boys in MRT making a hell LOTS of noise talking in Japanese... I think they were just perhaps upper primary tt kind of age lar, cuz they look quite small size. Anyway, as I was wearing my uniform, then I got kinda IRRITATED that they were talking so loudly that I started staring at them, and I think one of them realised that I was staring at them.. And they started to lower their volume by ABIT lar. Then I donno wat else they were talking abt, then like the rest of them all like "pretend pretend" to look the fuck who the hell I am. Maybe they saying this idiot (me) keep staring at them. But it's the truth lar. Luckily they were only in the train for a few stations then drop off. Piangz, really lorz, I think it's very good if u can communicate a language that MAJORITY doesn't know, so next time u wan say smth ppl also donno wat u r toking abt.

Now talking abt Japanese. My Gosh, I think I'm like on a high risk of failing my JLPT. Nvm, I think my DYS1 also sure fail his JLPT1, not that I wanna suan him, but then he also never study much n summore like JLPT1 is kinda A-level standard lorz. Sure die.

I think I fantasize too much liaoz. I always keep dreaming that I'm in some Tokyo street carrying my suitcase, driving back home after a day of hard work. Then go home decided to watch those Japanese variety shows and then go to sleep. Then during weekend I will like go out with Japanese friends for shopping or a drink or watz. Fuck. I think I really think too far liaoz. Guess Japan may even not want to accept me if I migrate there lorz. Haiz.

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Letters from Iwo Jima

So just now I went to the VCD/DVD rental shop and happened to chance upon this excellent movie that I have been wanting to watch since a long time ago, but I keep procrastinating and so finally now I got to watch it! Hahaz.

For those who want a summary of the movie, can refer to below link:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Letters_from_Iwo_Jima

I don't know why izzit that I just get so emotional while watching this movie.. And I really respect that 20 000 odd Japanese soldiers that defended Iwo Jima even though they knew right from the beginning that they r fighting a "sure lose" battle and WITHOUT the support of the HQ in Tokyo which is so #$%^&*, can u imagine how desperate u will feel? Trapped in an ISOLATED island without much resources left and so much diseases spreading around then still must fight war. OMG lar, so sucks.

But as I watched the movie from sumwhere the middle until the end, whereby the Japanese commanders together with the men chose to COMMIT SUICIDE either by using the hand grenade to blow themselves up OR to use their own rifle to shoot themselves etc, rather then to surrender to enemies. Wah kaoz, really lorz, I think in the World only the Japanese will have such high loyalty and patriotism to their country and their Emperor. And towards the end when the General was badly injured and later he shot himself, the first class private soldier still like defended his corpse trying to KILL those American soldiers with his shovel even though he was like he was surrounded by 10+++ american soldiers pointing their rifles at him.

Okay lar, some may debate that this is juz a movie, so maybe abit "exagerrating", but then arz, the overall battle as well as several of the commanders are based upon actual people and events.
Then as I saw so many of the Japanese National and Military flag (the one at the right side of my blog) being hanged throughout the place, I just feel like GOING to Japan lorz. I think I mad liaoz. Even my family ppl think perhaps my previous life I was a Japanese. -_-'''

Haiz. How I wish indeed I am a Japanese citizen.

My this computer is farked-up lar. Make me like restart the comp like 10 times over and over again before it can function "NORMALLY". Wtf manz, I think must be the comp has too much virus liaoz.

Pissifying.

The POWER of MONEY

Yesterday I was waiting at the bus-stop outside my camp to take a bus to CCK MRT station when suddenly I saw one guy walking towards the bus-stop from the camp too...

Initially I thought I saw the wrong person only after a few seconds it took for me to adjust to the fact that someone has just fallen from grace. This guy used to be driving Merc or BMW Cars to camp very regualarly. But after having revoked his license for 1.5 years due to drunk driving, he has no other choice but to take public transport like many of us do. To him, he always feel that he has done NOTHING wrong even though it's quite clear cut he he has done wrong n needs to be punished. Using the excuse that he needs to FURTHER his studies to get his MASTER degree after NS is like a shield to help him reduced a supposedly "7 days SOL" to just a "7 days EXTRAs".

What does this show? The power of MONEY simply allows u to bend the rules and allow u to play thru the loopholes of all the rules and regulations. It's quite sad when u see that justice is not done against such ppl, but apparantly, there's nothing u can do. All u can do is to heave a sigh that who ask u to be forced to serve in this poor management organization whereby those ppl "up there" are just a bunch of idiots who are just so sick of doing the "right things" even though they know they should do, but in order to "save trouble + cover backside", they rather resort to ignorance and allow bad practices to flourish in the place. For these group of people "up there" are going to work for perhaps 20 years or more, would they risk their career for such trival stuff? But most importantly, I feel that it is because these small group of people have grown sick and tired of their jobscop that they can't be bothered to improve on the system. All they have in their mind is to serve for the sake of MONEY so that they can support their family, their spouse and children and parents etc.

In order to support the above-mentioned statement, I did ask around this "group of ppl" that's gonna work for like till they retire, and I asked them did they choose to work because of the interest or money, and it seems like almost 100% of them say that of cuz it's because of money due to circumstances to support their family/earn a living that's y they choose to pick this "iron rice bowl".

And what happenes as a result? These "large group of ppl" inclusive of me that's like just going to work in this organization for just 2 years suffer under the hands of these "minority group that works permenantly till they retire". What to do? I'm not a rich kid. If I am, I can choose to migrate and stuff like that, but too bad I am not. So what's the morale of the story again?

Money does make the world spins!

I was SOOOOOOOOOO bored that I rented 2 DVDs for watch just now. One was "Letters of death", a thai movie, then the other one was "Sinking of Japan". Hmmm.. Both are quite boring lorz. The horror movie was like not scary at all. Then the Japanese movie was like some documentary lorz, talking abt so much science n maths n technology. Omanz, I nearly fall asleep watching both....

But since I really have NOTHING to do, perhaps I should juz rent even more DVDs to watch.

Finally I have changed my blogskin after procrastinating for like so long. Generally I like this blogskin much bettter because I get to put youtube videos and get to see them clearly w/o compromising the size of it as compared to some blogskins that have like very narrow "space" for ppl to read. So this is definitely better. Although is more plain than before, but I guess it's much more organised and that's all that matters.

And I think it's time I get down to revising for my JLPT4 exam for goodness. I have not touched any Japanese matierials since like 2 months ago and now I'm only left with exactly 7 weeks till JLPT4. Hopefully there is still enough time to "mug" for my exam.

16 weeks or so till ORD. Seems like time is finally passing "abit faster".

Today's driving was like SOOOOOO MUCH better than the previous lessons. I was basically able to blend into the traffic well and I NEVER STALL ENGINE! Lolx. Hopefully can maintain or even become better in subsequent lessons...

So yesterday went to NTU go find Jingwen. Haiz, I'm such a BAD navigator, don't even know where is where, just playing merry-go-round. Basically when I was in the NBS block, there were like so many students occupying all the study benches in the "study rooms" and all busy mugging lorz. Okay arz, I think exams coming liao arz. Then everyone was like walking just so fast, then I think I was like some "lao ah pek" strolling n looking around lorz. Indeed I could feel that the pace of life is very fast in university, compared to the SLACK tpjc. I go there a few hours I could feel the "pressure/stress" just by looking at the other students lorz, let alone of I am really one of them. And I come to one conclusion: "I don't look forward to Uni!" Life's gonna be tough and sianz when back to those MUGGING life.

Then later went to the NTU popular bookstore near the NBS block there. Basically ALL the university textbooks regardless what courses are being sold there. As Jingwen was showing me some of the "potential" TBs that I will be using next time, WAH KAOZ LORZ, it's like so wordy. Cuz I basically just flip the textbooks quickly n see lots n lots of WORDS and ENDLESS graphs + maths equations, with VERY LITTLE pictures lorz. Wah laoz, I was expecting maybe can be like alot of pictures but sadly don't have. And of cuz the ENGLISH that they use in those accouting/finance textbooks were like @#$%^&*(. I think I will need to use Longman dictionary very often next time. And the fact that my English has like worsened tremendously while in Army interacting with all the brainless assholes, considering as well that my English is already like FAILED standard before army. Gosh, I think next time I will have difficulty communicating with most ppl in Uni, and I will need to like read the lect notes 20 times over and over again before I can understand?

Haiz. Can't I just nua forever?

Today's 2nd driving lesson was like hmm...

The instructor said we shall learn at Changi (SAF Terminal) there.. Okay, fine. So I hopped onto his car n he barely drove for like 5 minutes when he reached just outside of TJC. Then he asked me to get out n then take over for the rest. I was like "WAH LAOZ, so many vehicles, sure die"

Anyway, I really DREAD stopping car at the junction because I'm like so "GOOD" at making the engine stall. Gosh. So everytime I just pray for green light. Okay lar, I ended up stalling the engine 2 or 3 times only, NOT as bad as during my first lesson. The route from bedok to EXPO, passing the industrial estates and towards changi was like so @#$%^&*

As you all know, talking abt industrial estate, obviously u will expect those SUPER BIG vehicles carry donno tons of sand to keep driving around tt place. So yaz, it was quite scary to be driving past these vehicles lorz, like anytime if there's really a collision, of course me n my instructor will die first, since my vehicle is like SO SMALL compared to theirs.

And I realised that I take like AGES to start my engine at the junction whe the green light appears, and making ppl behind me HORNING at me if not they simple juz change lane looking at how freaking SLOW I'm driving. QUite pek cek when want to move off at junction lar. If release too fast the engine stall. If I release TOOOOOOOOOO slowly then ppl behind me will be like horning at me. Sucks. I think I really must learn to train myself in this part.

And as my intructor mentioned, he say I got ALOT of energy but pls drive gently. When I change the gear clutch, I was like so violent until majiam the whole gear lever is gonna get pulled out by me. Then when my instrutor suddenly asked me to stop by the side, I will juz turn the signal then I drive to the side road and "ZAM" the whole brake as if I'm gonna knock into smth in front, and obviously that leads to me and my instructor leaning forward by SO MUCH. This is BAD BAD BAD lorz. Maybe starting I was too tensed lar, cuz towards the 2nd half of the lesson, I was able to brake quite smoothly. Lolx. And when I left-turn, I'm able to make the turn by myself but I basically land up in some other lane. Wah kaoz, and of cuz I must LEARN that I must always turn towards the correct lane and not happy happy juz go to any lane although there's no car approaching.

And when I finally drove past SAF terminal, I was like reminded of army. Nvm, then I continued driving to changi village there then sumhow I landed myself at Selarang Camp. -_-''' Donno y I keep passing-by so many camp premises. Then I drive back to somewhere at Expo there again before my driving instrutor say we shall call it a day and we switch back. FInally lorz. I was like so happy when the lesson ends and the instructor took over. But the instructor was telling me I was "better" than some of his female students at my current progress. Wahhaz, donno true anotz. I think is cuz I too violent liaoz, then I juz dare to do anything tt my instructor asked me to do as compared to some gals who r simply juz scared to do anything that he instructs, according to him. Lolx.

And as my friends were telling me a few months ago, when u start learning driving, u will tend to keep going to cars websites and look at all those brand new stylish cars wishing that u own them. N yes, that was what I do basically this WHOLE saturday afternoon, looking at all the Honda, Toyota, Nissan and many other car websites... And looking at the car images juz make me feel so "high" lar. But when I looked at the price, it basically knocked me back to reality; "WEI YANG, STOPE DAY-DREAMING FOR GOODNESS SAKE". Haiz.

As according to the new immigration procedure for entering Japan, all foreigners entering Japan starting next month will need to be fingerprinted and photographed at the immigration control.

http://www.immi-moj.go.jp/english/keiziban/happyou/Outline_070925.pdf

Haiz. What a hassel.

Some officers are just damn mother fucker.

From morning 8am to 5pm, WHOLE day I so free then don wan to give me work. Fine, so basically I was just wasting time away the WHOLE day and waiting for 5pm to come so I can just book out.

Then came 5pm and I was getting ready to BOOK OUT when suddenly one officer saw me and my friend and say "Hey, I need the 2 of u to help me do up SOME charts(it's like 60 of charts). I need u all to go print out from the comp, go blow up to A3 size, go and laminate, then go and cut away the excess blank portion to save space and then to paste on the cardboard and then to punch holes and tie them up."

Basically my jaws dropped.

Can u farking imagine 2 person doing up like 60 charts. Fucks man. And thanks to him, I missed my dinner, working from 5pm straight till 12am until I finally just FINISHED up these whole damn boards. And my friend went back first at 11pm even though it was very late but since he lives nearby so it's okay. And of cuz it's quite reatrded if I were to go back becuz firstly no one would be left to help out and travelling from Lim Chu Kang to Kembangan at such hours is no joke. And best of all, that officer simply just left at like 9+pm to go have his rest leaving the 2 of us to rot. Omanz, fucker. Never even bother to help out and ask how r we doing. Only know how to laugh and smile when u approach ppl for help. Nabei. Go to hell man. Next time I will just siam siam SIAM away from this particular officer. I think ALL the officers can do such work themselves EXCEPT him.

And today I just got 2 more extra duties. O fucks. Why am I so suay nowadays? Haiz, but to be frank, I wasn't really "sad" when I know I sign extras. No, not tt I love getting extras. But then the thought of just 4 blardy more months gives me some kind of "self-consolation". As I was thinking, since it's just 4 more months, I shld just let them whack me with lotsta duties, wan to squeeze me DRY or watz I also don care. Burn my weekends lorz. I shall tahan till Feb and fark off.

Want me to make it compulsory some ORD dinner and pay $120? Fine, I will pay. But over my dead body will I attend such retarded function.

First Driving Lesson

So I had my FIRST driving lesson just now. -_-'''

Okay arz, the place where I had my lesson was pretty good as there's basically NO vehicles around and I got to practise driving w/o fear of ppl horning n cursing at me. So first lesson was basically learning to move off, changing gear from 1 to 3, and learning to stop the vehicle. I think I must learn to be more gentle with my force, as throughout the lesson, the instructor was like telling me I step SO HARD on the brake as if I "buey song" or watz. Piangz. I didn't expect the brake and accelerator to be "so sensitive" lorz.

Just like anyone who started learning, u know, I committed the mistake of "engine stall" while starting off many times until I think the instructor was also quite "pek cek" with me. But towards the end, I was able to fine-tune my legs movement to prevent such thingyi from happening. And ya, I realised that I like got hearing problems when the instructor talk to me. Driving round and round the road that encloses the Singapore Indoor STadium + Big Carpark is so much fun. But when I was like told to drive around there almost like 10 times, I was like so sianz 1/2 cuz is basically playing "merry-go-round" seeing the same old things. And yaz, I ALWAYS forget to put my signal until my instructor must remind me like so many times when making turns.

And the GREATEST error of all that I made today, I can actually remove my hands from the steering wheel while switching my direction signal indicator. Piangz. This is so jialat lar. And ever since then, I forced myself to HOLD the steering wheel so tightly throughout the rest of my driving until the instructor was like telling me to relax arz, the steering wheel is not gonna fly off or anything. But overall, I think I was more or less able to "condition" my legs when moving off or stoping. And yes, I MUST REMEMBER THAT MY LEFT LEG SHOULDN'T BE USE FOR STEPPING ON BRAKE PEDAL, IT IS SOLELY FOR CLUTCH PEDAL!!!

God knows how I pass my Final Theory Test. Next lesson this coming Saturday Morning.

O yeah... Japan has a new prime minister; Yasuo Fukuda after like 10+ days w/o a leader...

Okay lar, I know is NONE of my business.. But then.. I'm just so "Kaypo" when comes to news regarding Japan....

And also the recent protests tt's going on in Myanmar, haiz, being someone who had been there to do CIP programme before, it's quite sad to see such things happening in the country. I mean as all know, when such politics/military issues are concerned, the most innocent are all the ordinary citizens who just wish that they can be treated fairly like most other countries in the world. Kaoz, who on earth will be able to accept like almost 500% increase in fuel price...(According to some sources if I didn't read wrongly) This is so nonsensical lar... But it's just happened the military govt in Myanmar is so @#$%^&*.... Okay, nvm, enough said, but I really hope tt Myanmar will be able to overcome this crisis asap w/o any delap and much casualties...

I realised that as you grow older and start to understand how politics work in many nations, it just makes me feel how chaotic this world is. How useless bums can ruin the management of an organization and then create so much trouble for so many. But afterall, it's not tt some BIG organization is that fantastic. **cough**

So after passing my final theory test at comfort just npw, I quickly went to apply my PDL which cost me $25.. And then to book my practical test which cost me another $20.

I will be taking my practical test on 22/02/08 @ 11am... And that's like about 5 more months down the road... Haiz, still a long way to go. But good thing is I will have ORD-ed for 2 weeks by tt time, so no need to bother abt taking wat leave or off... So now it's time to start learning practical lessons and hope to get my license ASAP, although I feel I may be quite retarded in handling motorcars and the driving instructor will vomit out much blood.. But whatever it is, just hope tt I can smoke my way thru during my test next yr...

And now... I think this singer is one big chio-bu! Especially when Mengyang and SHaowei also agree....

How many times must I repeat myself?

I"M NOT HAVING SORE EYE>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think I repeated at least 100 times to so many ppl that this is NOT sore eye BUT is juz a blood clot. And obviously it's NOT gonna spread to anyone like some conjuctivites/sore eye outbreak. Haiz, n it really gets on my nerve when ppl can actually "ENCOURAGE" me to go see the MO for my sore eye when obviously it's not. Maybe next time I shld juz get a tape recorder n keep playing "I DO NOT HAVE SORE EYE!!!"

-_-'''

And fucks, I became some Figure 11 target board again. Sumtimes I wonder do I have that "Pls! I wan VOLUNTEER for next weekend duty tt kind" Haiz, but on consideration it's like 4++ months more, I shall endure it all. As my friends say, the MORE duty u do, the CLOSER it is towards ORD....

140 more days till ORD<>

And my 3 days MC come to an end which mean I gotta book in later. Haiz, sianz. And next week I'm gonna have my Final Theory test. Gosh, I think I may fail cuz I seriously don't understand the operating of clutch and stuff. Whatever, I shld juz MEMORISE everything this coming weekend n then next week Monday juz vomit out everything + anyhow "ti-kam" the answers.

And of all time, my mp3 player is DOWN. @#$%^&*. Haiz, I donno if it's really spoil or I juz did smth stupid to it that cause it be mal-functioning. I believe it's the latter, as u know, I'm quite an idiot when comes to handling electronics devices... I donno how I'm gonna survive the LONG journey back home next time when I return home from camp. -_-''' I think maybe I shld juz get sum low-memory(perhaps 2GB or 1GB) + cheap MP3 player to "stand-in"...

As many ppl know, almost like 90% of the ppl are gonna ORD in Nov/Dec, and tt's like SO FAST. Haiz, okay, actually I do feel jealous tt they ORD so fast, but then they enlist earlier mahz, so must understand. For those ORD-ing next yr like me, HAIZ, wait till yr 2007 ends before we can even "smell" ORD.... "20 weeks O 20 weeks........"

And regarding my eyesight now, it has been improving in my opinion with each passing day. (Other than that BIG blood clot on my left eye tt is getting me disgusted when I look at the mirror) But like what the doc and any lasik websites say, my vision MAY still continue to fluctuate all the way till as long as 6 MONTHS. But likewise, sum ppl can have stable eysight like as soon as within 2 weeks to 1 month after the Operation. Haiz, actually I do get quite pek-cek sumtimes when I use the comp for long hours. Sumtimes can see clearly, and then graudally it becomes abit blurry and then after awhile it gets clear again. But nevertheless, at least I don't have to squaint my eyes and can see as clearly even though I try keep my body as far back as possible. Hopefully things go well till I see my Doc on 1st Oct for my review...

Post-LASIK

So 24 hrs after the operation, just now I went back for my first review to check my eye power and also see whether got infection anotz.

Ta-da!

According to my Doc, he say now my eyesight is 25 deg each, which means I have recovered almost 95% of my eyesight juz within 24 hr! That's quite amazing as I didn't really expect recovery to be tt fast. However, as the Doc say, most probably I will take another 1 week or at most 2 weeks to regain my perfect eyesight arz.

And so my next review will be in 2 weeks time, in which the Doc will check my eyesight again. Hopefully by then the Doc can juz tell me my vision is perfect! As of now, it's juz taking good care of my eyes to prevent any infection as my eyes are still in the process of healing....

Actually right now, almost my lifestyle has been back to normal. I can use the computer, watch the TV, read books etc etc pretty well, not much of a problem (afterall, it's only 25 deg now) But then still must take good care mahz. Like I've been wearing my sun-glasses while using the comp as the comp light abit "glaring", maybe cuz my eyes juz after Opseration still sensitive to light...

So of cuz, there are some things which I must get used to... Such as like waking up in the morning searching BLINDLY for my spectacles (which became an involuntary action since like 10 yrs ago) only to realised I don't need spectacles anymore! And of cuz, things like to see the alarm clock clear n sharp from my bed which has never been the case since like one decade ago... Okay lar, there's just so much inconvenience in being myopia that I'm lazy to list them down. But basically, I'm juz happy and satisfied with my current situation. From almost half a blind man being turned into someone with perfect eyesight (wait 1-2 more weeks) after one simple operation. I just feel "less-like-a-handicap" now...

And also, 3 days of MC to rest my eyes and so I'll go back camp only on Thursday. I'm so gonna enjoy this long break......

LASIK

So for some who know, ya, I'm going for my lasik surgery or I mean I went for it juz now. Everything happened so fast yesterday and today.

Yesterday, I basically underwent a battery of eye tests which include shining white light, green light, red light, and I donno what other kinds of kind. And likewise, my eyes were given solution that can make my eyes numb and and then soulution that can dilate the pupils and some that can reverse the process of dilation. In short make my eyes look so blur only.

I spoke to the doctor in the end, and he had no issue doing a surgery for me as my eyes basically met ALL the requirements for the surgery.

So today morning was the "Grand Finale" as I made myself down to the Clinic. I was slightly nervous when I was made to wear the operation suit. And I was quite nervous when my turn came and I was being led into the operation room. However, I think everything ended so fast than what I thought it's gonna take. The Doc basically tried to keep me distracted and keep encouraging to not make my imagination run wild.

Actually I also donno really know what happened. I mean ya, u ppl can easily go to any LASIK website to read the operating procedure, and mine is basically the same. I simply HATE the part when he use this suction ring to put on my eye before cutting off my cornea partially. And straight after that, he added some donno wat solution which basically cause me to BLACK-OUT for like 10 seconds before I could physically see him "lift" off my cornea. And suddenly the whole room turns dark and I only saw one red blinking light. Nah, that's not the laser, but juz smth to keep u focus on. Then I was made to keep my eyes to CONCENTRATE looking at that red blink light and I could hear some "screeching" metal sound n I could SMELL burning.. Wah kaoz, but like I said, all these are common so there's nth to be scared of what u smell/hear. And before I knew it, the Doc basically flip my cornea back and took out tt suction ring (ouch!)

And he repeats the same old thing for my left eye and basically the whole operation took me abt 15 minutes as I looked at my watch. That's real fast.

So soon after I had both eye shields up covering my eyes and I was discharged immediately from there, which I reach there at 93oam and left there at 1100am, which was way earlier than what I had expected.... Tomorrow Sunday morning still must go back for a 24 hr-after-op-review, which the Doc will check my eye power and to see if there's any complications on it.

So as I was typing out this entry, I was without my glasses nor contact lens. And I could see relatively well even though I try to sit as backwards as possible.

Phew, I think I already recovered abt 80% or more of my eyesight liaoz.

Open Office course was SO boring. And my instructor(teacher) for this 2 days course, he was TEACHING these courses as a way to SERVE his re-service.

OMG LAR!!!!!!

This is so farking unfair. Kaoz, then I wish I can replace re-service with juz any thingyi. But sadly, I'm skilled in nothing. I donno Music, I donno IT/Computing, I donno Martial Arts, I donno this, I donno that. I everything also donno. Haiz. But nvm, whatever~.

So excited as I see the countdown towards ORD draws nearer and nearer. From 300++ days become the current 150+ days.

Recently I spent $30 on a FINAL FANTASY 12 GUIDEBOOK (Okay, I know ppl must be thinking how lousy can I get for playing game still need guidebook) But the fact is, this FF is really demn freaking hard to play lar! Okay lar, other than FF8 which I used guidebook as well, I didn't use guidebook for FF7, FF9, FF10 and FFX-2.... So yaz, currently I'm starting on this new game FF12 in my PS2. But as I look at the guidebook (so super thick) and then the fact I only get to play on weekend... I guess I can only complete this game perhaps in Nov or Dec? But nvm lar, not that I rushing to complete this game....

Going for some redundant OPEN OFFICE workshop tml and on Fri although it's quite retarded that course. (and it's not that I will be using OPEN OFFICE ever in my whole life after I ORD)

I donno why I juz feel so so happy ever since last week Monday till now. That feeling is so shiok, as if my depleting energy has been fully replenished. After all, so what if I'm given the right to stay-out? Most probably I will rather choose to stay in camp than to go home everyday. I think everybody says that I am MAD to rather stay-in, although can go home... But.. Whatever lar, afterall, staying in camp is not really a BAD idea arz.....

Life's GoOooooooooD~!! (I hope can last till my Japan trip in end of the yr)

Fucks man. Whenever I'm on LEAVE or OFF, I swear I can't really relax in peace. Definitely I know sum bad things will happen. And as I said, I received a SMS from my friend that I must do COS duty this coming SUnday although I donno who the hell is supposed to do. O fucks lar. If not ppl must KEEP calling or SMS-ing u to ask abt things.

SMLJ man.

And yes, finally I went down to JCS to register and pay for my JLPT exam. But I registered for JLPT4. Lucky I didn't register for level3 the other time. The reason is becuz I was trying out some of the "tys" for the JLPT3... WAH KAOZ lar, I majiam 90% donno how to do. This is so bad lar. -_-''' But then when I tried out JLPT4 it was still okay lorz, so yalar, for what make myself so stressed up!>? I should just take my own sweet time in studying for JLPT4 exam.. Although the syallbus only requires u to know 80 kanji and abt 800 words....

Okay arz, I should be able to pass JLPT4 lar... Wahahaz, but is becuz it is literally 50% the content of JLPT3 exam... But if fail arz, I really shld just stop learning Japanese n start learning alien language/.

オレンジレンジ; O-re-n-ji Re-n-ji

花びらのように散りゆく中で
夢みたいに　君に出逢えたキセキ
愛し合って　ケンカして
色んな壁　二人で乗り越えて
生まれ変わっても　あなたのそばで　花になろう

いつまでもあるのだろうか　オレの真上にある太陽は
いつまでも守りきれるだろうか　泣き　笑い　怒る君の表情を
いずれ全てなくなるのならば　二人の出逢いにもっと感謝しよう
あの日　あの時　あの場所のキセキは
また　新しい軌跡を生むだろう

愛することで強くなること　信じることで乗り切れること
君が残したモノは今も胸に　ほら輝き失わずに
幸せに思う　巡り会えたこと　オレの笑顔取り戻せたこと
「ありがとう」あふれる気持ち抱き　進む道程

花びらのように散りゆく中で
夢みたいに　君に出逢えたキセキ
愛し合って　ケンカして
色んな壁　二人で乗り越えて
生まれ変わっても　あなたに逢いたい

花びらのように散ってゆく事
この世界で全て受け入れてゆこう
君が僕に残したモノ
“今”という現実の宝物
だから僕は精一杯生きて　花になろう△

花はなんで枯れるのだろう
鳥はなんで飛べるのだろう
風はなんで吹くのだろう
月はなんで　明かり照らすの

何故ボクはココにいるんだろう
何故キミはココにいるんだろう
何故キミに出逢えたんだろう
キミに出逢えた事　それは運命

雨上がり　虹架かり　青あらしに生まれし光
ここにゆるぎない大切な物
気づいてる“愛する”ということ
まだ歩けるだろう?見えてるんだもう
“想い”時を越え　永遠に響け君の喜び　
君の痛み　君の全てよ
さぁ　咲き誇れ　もっと　もっと　もっと

私はこの歌を好む! オレンジレンジ の歌.... オレンジレンジは 沖縄からある... 少数の日前に 私の友人は私に言った...

JLPT3 !!!

A wasted trip down to JCS last Friday. (The main place in Singapore to register for JLPT) I went all the way to Bugis, and it happened that place is juz opposite NAFA and National library, so okay lar, not that far from MRT station but still.....

And wah kaoz, then juz to take the REGISTRATION form also need to pay S$1. Haiz. Nvm, n worse is I'm supposed to bring 2 photos of mine and attach to the registration form. @#$%^&* So I juz bought the registration form and brought back home n waited till yesterday to take my pic. Haiz, and I think this coming Fri I shall go down to JCS AGAIN to hand in the form plus pay S$25 for the exam...

O Yaz, haiz, I donno y, but perhaps cuz my friends who's taking JLPT3 has been psychoing me to take JLPT3, toking abt how useless n easy JLPT4 is...blah blah... Lolx.. Although I know I not up to the standard, but okay lar, as from now I still got abt 3 months and so to fully drill on my JLPT3 stuff... And hence... meaning I think I shld juz TRY my luck for JLPT3 this yr (if fail at the most next yr try again lorz.)

But then seriously, to prepare for this JLPT3 exam, I think I really sacrifice alot. I went to Kinokuniya to buy those "past years JLPT3 papers" aka "TYS" as commonly known in Singapore education context. And I also went to buy those grammar/comprehension book and also the kanji/vocab book for JLPT3. And yaz, all these books total up cost me a BOMB. Okay, money sacrifice aside, I think I literally spend my WHOLE block leave + weekends juz mugging n memorising those verbs/adjectives blah blah... Haiz, hope to be able to memo most of these commonly used words b4 the exam takes place on 2nd Dec 2007.

Haiz, I think I can only score in paper1, which apparantly I think is the easiest, cuz is Vocab paper and all u need to do is MEMORISED all the verbs/kanji and vomit them out. Paper2 is gone case; LISTENING COMPREHENSION. Gosh, as if I'll understand their bullet-speed talking. And paper 3, which constitutes 50% of the WHOLE exam (that's ALOT lar!) is the Grammar paper. All the grammar particles n stuff. Haiz, I think my grammar CMI lar. I always confused with the "ni", "ga", "o", "de" etc etc. I can never seem to understand grammar, be it Japanese or English or Chinese. But still... Must try to score.. Haiz..

I juz really really hope I can pass this coming JLPT3 exam! I don want to like put in SO MUCH time and effort and practise etc and when next yr 2008 March they send the result to my house there'a a big 'FAIL" in the result slip! Haiz, then I will be so disappointed....

Japan!!!

So juz now my parents went to book our holiday tour at CHan Brother's tour fair liaoz.

7 Days of Tohoku and Hokkaido.

19th Dec 2007 to 25th Dec 2007 (CHRISTMAS!!!!)

But first day from Singapore fly to Tokyo then straight away domestic flight to Hokkaido. Argz.. I don understand y SIngapore doesn't seem to have direct flights to Hokkaido...

Luckily there's NO more mid-night flights, unlike those that I used to take whenever we r goin Japan. Phew, can have a good rest b4 we set off for Airport.... I just PRAY that I will be able to see snow again... I mean snow falling from the sky, NOT those already HARDENED and dirty snow that u found on the road... -_-'''

Bleahz! I'm so excited for this Japan trip! Hahaz... 4 more months, hopefully I can keep thinking of this trip to keep my morale high to last me till 19th Dec. Lolx...

O fucks man. All along I was so HAPPY that I'm gonna be on a LONG block leave....

Then suddenly they realised that it's impossible to have a manpower branch NOT working for one week or more. Hence, 50% will go on leave and then another 50% will stay.

Damn. So I will still need to go back next Mon to Wed. HAIZ. And so now my 6 days leave will be scattered into 3 parts. Wtf man, how pathetic can tt be. But nvm, suck thumb, used to it liaoz.

Sumtimes I think my superiors are so good ppl. They allow some people to go for their BLOCK LEAVE before they 100% confirm charge them 7 days SOL. Some ppl juz deserved it. And fuck, u think u in market bargaining izzit? "I rather take 7 extras than 7 SOL"

WTF lar!! Doing HQ COS is SO RELAX! EVERYTHING IS DUTY CLERK DO 1. Kaoz, u serve 7 days EXTRAs, if I'm the one I think also NO KICK lar. U think I never do weekend COS meh>? Juz morning 8am sleep until 930pm then go staff parade then come back return back to bunk n sleep until next day 8am. Like that how to make u feel the pinch?

And everyone also know y u rather take 7 extras then 7 days SOL. Of course lar, DEGREE GRADUATE leh. Ppl so SMART and HIGH estab lorz. U think like me or majority of the ppl meh? Either one farking pathetic A-level cert or Diploma? How can we compare to a DEGREE student like u? SO what? Degree student can't afford to get charged? O fucks lar, go to hell man. I've been waiting this day for so long already. And perhaps by the time u get charged I also won't be around to CELEBRATE, but nvm, at least I'll know. Yes, u derserved it.

So long nv blog liaoz.

So I'll be on block leave from 9th Aug to 19th Aug; 11 days of break. So this month will pass quite fast... Luckily no duties in this period of time. Haiz, maybe such break is good, can make me stay away from camp temporarily. Just 6 more months to ORD. But seems like still a long way to go leh... Haiz... So sick of having to see some people in daytime, then NIGHT time also have to see, then wake up early in the morning also see. Wtf man. But wellz, getting used to it liaoz. Luckily I have my beloved PSP to keep me company.

Tomorrow will mark the last lesson of my Japanese course; Lesson 30. After like 10 weeks of lessons every Monday, I think I also don't really absorb much during lesson. It's like doing all the shit makes me so tired liao then after tt night time go for 3 hours of lesson. Kaoz, cannot lar. My brain cannot take it. I think I study in weekend better.. So I shall discontinue lesson31 to 40...

The next public holiday after National Day is Hari Raya. WAH PIANGZ. Still so LONG to go.....

Haiz. My life is so boring. Nth to blog abt. Sianz 1/2...

So today the WHOLE battalion went to East Coast Park for the Div Run except for most of us in Bn HQ. Haiz, an utter waste of time.

So in the morning while having breakfast, my close friend said that he has heard some BAD news regarding my matters, and initially he didn't want to tell me as he knew I will explode. But being so stubborn, I forced him to say n I was utterly SHOCKED at how some people can come out with TWISTED stories and spread to many ppl, putting me in bad light, telling how I "FORCED" them to do SMTH even though it was my S1 who wanted me to relay the message to them. Indeed, I was very disappointed that these fuckers are really beyond hope.

I started become very nasty n rude in my emails to them.

For example today, I wrote smth along these lines:

"XX,

Go and do the thing can get back to YYY. You should know that u r supposed to follow up on this."

I purposely "CC" these to certain ppl that are not of any concern to this matter. Of course, there were some unhappiness n "shockeness" regarding my tone. But like I said, I did all these on purpose. I don't know why I have become so rude, in the previous post, I was talking abt how I respect the old "sect comd". So today I had a one-to-one talk with this old "sect-comd", as he wants to find out exactly what n where went wrong in the branch. And somehow halfway through the conversation, I didn't know what got into my mind, becuz the more I talked abt it, the more pissed I get.

So I said :

"You know that u r gonna ORD in Sep, n tt's really soon, U r now starting to clear leave n off liaoz, but I just want to get this clear. Right from the start, I hope that u will not get involve in all these shit and get into unnecessary trouble. I just hope that u can ORD in peace.

However, if I find out one day that u r in cahoots with those **fuckers** and if u ever stay in MY way, I can tell u straight that I will make sure I will get rid of u n I will definitely show no mercy to u as well."

Likewise, he was shocked that these words come from my mouth. However, I just tell him I want to get things clear. Even though he has heard alot of UNTRUE and bad things abt me from those fuckers, he chose not to believe and wish to hear what I have to say. I know I was super attitude when I say since I'm not guilty-consicious and so I can't be bothered with what others have to say abt me, and likewise I feel that I don't see the need to account to anybody. If u believe what they say is true, then go ahead. I shall be the BAD guy n they r the angels.

Thank God, that on Tuesday night when my S1 told me to relay certain tasks to these fuckers, there was a witness from the other branch that heard EVER SINGLE word that came out of my S1 mouth. Of course, he was so SHOCKED when he heard that from the story that many ppl was told abt, abt ME being the EVIL person arrowing these fuckers to do work. And I was happy that at least there are ppl who's willing to step out to clarify things for me if there's a need be. But being me, I told him that I am glad someone know that I'm innocent, but I told him I don wish to get him involved in all these politics shit. I will settle my own problem.

For what these 2 fuckers do to me now and back then, I will make sure the 2 of them pay a heavy price for this. I will make sure that the 2 of them get all the direct hits from me as of now. Yes, I do feel miserable n bitter abt it. It's like clutching ur fits tight n not wanting to let go. It's a tiring process. But at the end of it, I swear that I will make sure these 2 fuckers taste the feeling of desperation. Even if I get into deep shit, I swear that I will pull these 2 fuckers down with me.

Finally I'm left with 7 freaking months. Haiz, but time still passed demn slow. And yaz, finally I have COMPLETED lesson25 of Minna No Nihongo... Haiz, another 25 lessons before being ready for JLPT3 exam.....

And after MUCH MUCH consideration, I think I shld be registering for the JLPT3 exam end of this year. And when I looked at the summary notes that u r required to know for the JLPT3 syllabus, which my friend lent me to photocopy....

I was like........ WTF!! 1472 words that you must memorise and KNOW....... @#$%^&*

That really really turns me off. But whatever, I have like exactly 5 months to study for it. Haiz, although HIGH HIGH chance I will flunk the Listening Compre n Grammar and I donno what have u, but nvm, I shall just try for it. Passing mark is 60% and that is to get minimum 240 out of 400 marks.... Sianz 1/2.

HaizZz...

I'm such as an idiot at times. I mean most of the time.

Ignore my post below. I've bought this freaking expensive Nokia N76. Finally don have to wait till the end of the year.

And for once I felt abit "touched" by my branch. So on Tuesday it was just like any other day. Everyone was just busy doing their own work. Suddenly one guy turned off light (which I didn't know) and I was kinda pissed n shouted "Fuck man, black out liaoz", and before I know what's happening, my Chief was walking out from MY strong room (okay, it's called strong room but basically it's just a small room that has a thick metallic door to keep all the restriced/confidential/secret documents and that blardy room is basically my room), with a cake with lited candles on it. Initially I was looking around me cuz I thought it was someone's birthday but juz tt I didn't know. Then everyone in my branch just started gathering around me including my bosses and started singing a happy birthday song. Hahaz, I was just so darn touched cuz I did received a few sms-wishings from them on Sunday and I didn't really expect anything much from them either.

And of course, my Birthday wish is just so simple. Hopefully I won't get into any trouble/deep shit during my remaining days till I ORD>.

Okay. Just hope that from now till Chirstmas, I can live everyday peacefully.

Nokia N76

My Dream Phone - N76 (Click to enlarge)

Wait till the end of the year and maybe I'll buy it.

SMLJ

Simi Lanjiao?

Seriously, u all want to plan DUTY. FINE! I don care, but can't u all just learn from other units and at least plan in advance so that we all know exactly when we r doing duty?

Today is one of the RARE days I get to go out to despatch, and wtf, I received a call from my branch that this Sunday got guard duty then what put me reserve? I don even know what the FUCK is happening then suddenly just one call like that really spoils my day lar. I also can't be bothered to ask any further. I just said "okay" and hung up. I lazy to find out the details whether some fuckers volunteer my name or watz. But obviously I was just pissed to the max lar, if like that u think multi-tasking izzit? This weekend do duty clerk, then next weekend do guard duty or whatever. Wtf. Like that go burn all my weekends lar, mother fuckers.

BAD "OMEN"

Sometimes I DON'T KNOW is it just me or is it just my unit. Some want to go for operation, some want to downgrade, some say want to see counselling liaoz and even 3SG also say he want go see psychiatrist liaoz.

Sometimes I just wonder why ppl can survive through SISPEC or even OCS but they will all just die here.

So is it me or just everyone here?

When "MR TAN" left, everyone was like so HAPPY and it's like end of Occupation kind of feeling. And everyone was just hoping for a BETTER life thereafter.

And like just barely one month this "MR TAN" left come this Mother Fucker. (Nope, this mother fucker obviously not taking over "MR TAN's" position. He just got some more IKAN BILLIS on his arms there. Whatever.

Why must he like CONTROL us like WORST than recruits in BMT? Knn man!? Want to cut 4-2? HELLO!? U okay mahz? Even company line rifleman also never cut 4-2 then u now want all the CLERKs or STOREMANs or whatever to cut 4-2? U crazy arz? Even my S1 and Chief Clerk or Dys1 wants us cut like that, u wan us to cut like that>? U think u big fuck arz?

And obviously he doesn't seem to understand that HQ is a totally different game from Company Line. Frankly speaking, everyone knows that. U have to abide by the HQ style, and don't u like control us like some fuck recruits. And stop threatening us like "If anyone of you dare to defy me, it's equivalent to you knocking youself onto the wall. The wall will stay but you will fall."

GO TO HELL LAR!

And stop saying from NOW onwards everything have to report to you. What MC, med appt, off, leave, REPORT SICK etc etc also must report to you. You think S1, S2, S3, S4, QM, RP, Medical centre is platoon 1,2,3,4,5,6,7 izzit? Wtf!? Everything also want BLACK AND WHITE!? Wah kaoz, then for what fuck we report to Chief Clerk or Dys1 or S1? U think they there for fun izzit>? Afterall, they are higher rank. And don't be cockhead leh. Don't say until what want to "CROSS-TRAIN" us to learn to do duty-clerk, COS and guard duties all at one go? U think u diversifying business izzit? U want clerks go do guard duty then those ah bengs with lots of tatto to be duty clerk? Are you stupid or insane?

And this week the outfield I think he's like asking for a beating lar. Let's just name this fucker "XXX". A conversation between this "XXX" and a 3SG.

XXX: I want you to dig the trench now.

3SG: Sorry XXX, but I am C9L2, I got slipped disc and cannot dig trench. And also the previous "somebody" has said that we all C9L2 will be excused digging trench or route march etc.

XXX: Okay, nvm, then u just dig with your HANDS.

3SG: Huhz...? (Give that stunned look)

XXX: If not you want I give u permission to sit down and DIG since u got slipped disc.

3SG: But.... (wanted to argue back)

XXX: HELLO!? LET ME ASK YOU. DURING WAR TIME WHEN YOUR ENEMY SHOOT YOU, YOU THINK THE BULLET IS GOING STOP RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU AND SAY SINCE YOU ARE PES C9L2, THEN IF WILL FLY SIDEWAY AND HIT YOUR FRIEND WHO IS PES A OR B!!!!!!!??????

3SG: ........................................

Wah laoz. Where got ppl like that one!? Knn man. Then somemore u want ppl to set up CP Toner within 10 minutes, and when u ask ppl set up u go and sleep? GO TO HELL lar. When during first parade u never bother to take part but when CO is there u faster ask the whole Bn HQ stand in attention then go greet him. WAH KAOZ. U SURE KNOW HOW TO CARRY BALLS HOR!?

And your email is disgusting. U shld know that every branch has different working environment and we never bother to mix with other ppl. Stop saying things like "I want the WHOLE HQ to bond like brothers" or wat must have high morale and then sommore say want to plan whole HQ outing together. PLS LAR. You think this is company line izzit>? All the platoons come together for bonding!? Fuck lar.

Sometimes we just don't know he's fucking stupid or insane lar. My S1 told us that both he and the OC(S4) feel that maybe he's still "YOUNG" and got that "PASSION" but will soon give up when he realised that the system in HQ is different from that of Coy Line. He should know that a different approach is required. Haiz. Fucker lar. AND WE ARE LIKE GUINEA PIGS FOR HIM TO EXPERIMENT WITH TILL HE EITHER GIVES UP OR MAYBE HE WILL USE A HARSHER APPROACH IF WE DON'T COMPLY!?

Whatever. This mother fucker simply has incurred anger from all S1 to S4 branch, whether u r Men, or Spec or Warrent Officer or Officer.

You go to hell man.

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I missed Japan. Haiz, I just hate S********.

Fuckers

Mother Fuckers, GO TO HELL MAN!!!



So pissed off with certain people. How selfish can they get? Just a few minutes before book out then suddenly say TOMORROW ON A SATURDAY need someone to do duty clerk.



WTF LAR!? Knn, ppl just abt to book out then say this kind of lanjiao thing. Nvm, as the person on duty on Saturday need to go outfield on Sunday morning and so cnt do. Fine. I don't really blame that guy. This kind of last minute thing need to find replacement is unavoidable. So CSM said have to find someone from S1 Branch to cover. FINE! (Note: He say ANYONE)



The MOST pissifying thing is that I don't understand why some people must say "Hmm... Then let's list down who are the people doing DUTY CLERKS then from there see who can do lorz" And at the end of the day there's only 3 people (including ME) available, then what the 3 of us must draw lots or wat BULLSHIT then either one of us must do.



COM'ON LAR!!! Let's look at it this way. Half the branch ppl do duty clerk, half the branch ppl do COS. And fucking hell, I don't understand why duty clerk on average must do ONE WEEKEND + ONE WEEKDAY a month, then COS only like do ONE WEEKDAY a month. This is so farking hell unfair lar. Ever since last year, the no. of ppl doing duty clerks and the no. of ppl doing COS is SO UNBALANCED lar. There are forever much LESSER ppl doing duty clerks compared to COS. And I don't understand why THOSE ppl doing COS cannot do duty clerk lar. It's not as if THEY last time NEVER do duty clerk before. And PLS LORZ<>

And second type of ppl (Actually it's just the SAME OLD people) are just so KNN lar. When they CANNOT finish their own work, they will talk to u NICELY and ask u HELP them. FINE!!!! I mean even though I got my OWN work, but I don't mind putting aside my stuff n help u all.

And this week my S1 wanted me to do some annual donno what thing which he gave me ONE WHOLE MONTH to do, as obviously this is smth that u cannot complete like what within a few days? And obviously when I look at it I know I will take like another 10 yrs to complete? Okay, fine, then my S1 sent an email say please get "XXX" and "XXXX" to help me with this cuz this thingyi will take quite some time. FINE!? I'm NOT the one asking u all to help me.

Well, I know everyone has their own work to do. Whatever. And pls, at least I got the courtesy to ASK whether you are busy with alot of work these few weeks or so, cuz I need them to help me do this thingyi. SERIOUSLY, deep down inside, I know exactly who is TRULY busy doing work and who is ACTUALLY everyday WASTING time clicking mouse and trying to ACT BUSY. Well, it's so farking obvious. I know everyone's job scope, for goodness. Then when I pop that question, SOMEONE can actually think for SO LONG then replied me "Hmm... Ya, actually I got this XXXX and that YYYY to do, quite busy".

You know what? FUCK OFF LAR! U think I will DIE w/o your help meh? Pls lar, I'm just conveying a message from S1 that you HAVE to help me. But at the end of the day, I will die die still be able to complete this thingyi WITHOUT anyone's help. If u don't want to help, just say outright lar.

And note: DON'T EVER ASK ME TO DO ANY SHIT FOR YOU AGAIN EVER OKAY!? FUCK! Perhaps from NOW onwards I MUST draw lines and ANYTHING NOT related to DOCUMENTATION I should just FUCK CARE lar. Knn.

GO TO HELL LAR!!!!!

Haiz. I just feel so feverish and SICK today. And yet I have DUTY tomorrow. Fuck. And worst is when I look at who are the other duty personnels doing duty with me on the same day, it's just so @#$%^&@#$%^& lar. All the i-dots man.

Feel so TEMPTED to change duty with my friend to do my duty tml so I do on some other sunday duty. But haiz, 4get abt it, don feel like making so much trouble. In 4 SIR, it's just so blardy hard to change duty especially since it's so last minute liaoz. I doubt anyone will also want to change. Whatever lar, I shall just SLEEP the whole day tml and don care if the DO or BOS is gonna fuck me for that. Anyway, it's not that they never fuck me upside down b4. Haiz, SUAY to do duty on 3rd June 2007. Kns.

Arrowing....

Yesterday I watched "Just follow Law" VCD by Fann Wong and Gurmit Singh in my branch computer together with my branch ppl, and I think it's really a funny yet realistic show abt how the government sector works lar. Being quite evil, we will "match-made" every character in the movie to "somebody" in my unit, based on their working style and stuff. Example, the "PO fessionalism" (from po lam pa a.k.a book lickers) we can almost instantly linked to "somebody" arz.

Initially when I started using issac card, I have always wondered why my superiors will constantly remind me to "CC" to whoever and whoever although the email has NOTHING to do with these group of people involved. I will think why can't I just send email to the relevant ppl under "To" and not need to CC to those irrelevant ppl. Now I know why.

"CC" is perceived as "Cover Cahceng" (cover backside) and BCC stands for "Better cover cahceng" (Better cover backside). If u don't CC to ppl, those ppl UP THERE will think that u r not working and will penalise u on that. Hence, now I learnt a VALUABLE lesson of "CC" emails to MANY MANY ppl that are seriously not relevant to the emails at all, and the sole purpose is just to tell the WHOLE world that YOU ARE ACTUALLY DOING WORK. Gosh.

And another thing about emails is the "ARROWING" part. If u ever watch that show, then the part where lots of arrows just keep flying around whenever someone sends an email. For example, whenever there's a PROBLEM, the so-called "directors" of each BRANCH (**hint**hint**) will start sending email and pushing blame to the head of other BRANCHES (sounds familiar again) and then finally all these emails (ARROWS) will eventually end up in the BOSS's computer.... (Ahem, reminds me of the TERROR days in the past) and then finally the BOSS will "merge" all the small arrows into one BIG arrow and then FIRE off into a small fry in the company (that sounds like us) and eventually the employee just DIED due to the BIG arrow.

Oyaz, and there was one IMPORTANT LESSON that they teach, which is never to skip the chain of command, and if u ever break that rule, u will just die horribly lar. This is just so FARKING true lar. Always report to ur immediate superior, if cannot then report to ur next immediate superior and so forth, and I swear it's just suicidal if u skip that command as I've seen LIVE examples of how some ppl "died" w/o them knowing how they die. Haiz, I think maybe one GOOD thing about the Army is that it gives me how the "REAL WORLD" is like when I work outside next time in a few years down the road. Then some of the "scheming tactics" will come into play and have to learn how to play along the LOOPEHOLES of the RULES AND REGULATIONS.

I also donno why I'm talking abt this, but that show is like just so fantastic lar. Hahaz, really worth watching, And seriously, I doubt this only happens in the govt sector. I guess private sector also like that lar.

36 weeks or so, and I'm still counting down.

And I'm finally able to find a school that I can enrol into. Starting on 4th June, once a week on every Monday night. Alas, I feel that I'm not gonna waste any more time on @#$%^&* NS. And it is a 10 weeks course till I decide whether I want to continue anotz. Actually now I also broke lar, spent so much money on PSP liaoz, piangz.

And starting next week is ALERT RED which will end at around National Day that period. OMFG lar. Although this time I'm not taking part since I have taken part already the previous round (and it was an utter WASTE of time), it is still so sianz that have to do so much preparations. HaiZzzZz..... Okay lar, I have SLACKED too much ever since I come back from Taiwan, although Audit and preparations for Highnoon were like fuck, I think it's only fair that we can "rest" abit first before the start of another major event: Alert Red. Haiz, SIanzZzzz lar.

With my beloved PSP and Japanese class now, hopefully time can pass "abit" faster.

Finally I can type a proper entry after so many ERRORS trying to enter blogspot a couple of times back.

I know this is quite dumb. But I actually bought a ............................ *TA-DA* PSP on Wednesday.

Reason? Because Army is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SIANZ that u r so desperate to find "smth" to do and especially during Weekend duties whereby u swear u will be bored to tears if u didn't bring anything.

Whatever it is, I've bought it and is meant to last me for the remaining 263 days.

And next, yesterday I nearly FREAKED out while sitting my friend's car who just got his license and gosh, now I understand y Singapore got so many car accidents. And for the first time I drink I think spelled as "Tequila" or watever u call that, is like so @#$%^&*@#$%^& lar. Kns, is like sh*t man. But good thing of having drivers around is that they will end up giving u their drink coupons becuase they shouldn't be DRINKING while driving. Erm... But then again, haiz, sometimes it's just so demn blardy scary when "young" ppl drive.

And for my Japanese Language class, due to my laziness and mainly my horrendous language ability, I've decided to downgrade to take JLPT4 instead of JLPT3 end of this yr, with me starting my JLPT3 class in Jan 2008 bahz. And seriously, I also don have much motivation to study much lar. Kns, with my PSP now, I also won't have much time lar. But then I think so far I only covered maybe 70% of my JLPT4 syllabus, so in the end now still must study abit more. At least I have like SIX MONTHS to take my own sweet time to study.

Haiz. I getting really really really SIANZ of Army liaoz. Just hope the remaining 9 months can pass like "amazingly" FAST and faster ORD...................... zZzZzZzzz

Booking of Tests...

So today I went to book 2 tests!

First is my upcoming Bunka Intermediate 2 placement test this coming Wednesday. Wellz, 30 minutes written test and 15 min Oral test. Wtf, I've a feeling I'm gonna flunk it. Whatever lar hor, today n tml juz mug n mug then Wednesday juz vomit everything out. Bleahz.

And next is I went down to CDC to book my Basic Theory Test on 9th July(Monday). Haiz, still a long way to go. I think by the time I can take my driving practical test is already Mid 2008 lar. Haiz, sianz. But nvm lar, before uni starts can get my driving license can liaoz.

Haiz, now I juz feel short of cash lar. Piangz... so many courses to attend...

So now I juz wish that I won't be speaking alien language to the examiner on Wed.... And hopefully no glaring grammatical mistakes as well....

Continue with "Ni-hon-go"

So ever since I came back on Tuesday, I've been immersing myself in TEXTBOOKS. O yes, elementary Japanese textbooks. Sometimes I feel that I'm just so retarded when comes to language, and I always assume that all I need to do is to "memorise" everything and that's it. Bleahz, how wrong can that be!? I can't even get SIMPLE basic grammar facts right, like that how to proceed onto higher levels?

And staying at home to study will only end up me using the comp most of the time. -_-''' Hence, perhaps it's time I start going Airport or Library and blend into the crowd of students mugging intensively for theirs exams.

And whatever is the case, now my aim is by Mid-June I will finish up to lesson25 of "Minna No Nihongo" book and then I will start enrolling for lesson liaoz. If not I think I sure donno what the hell I'm learning. So for this upcoming 6 to 7 weeks, it'll be INTENSIVE mugging until I can master till lesson25 before I can "proudly" apply for evaluation test of Bunka Intermediate 2 course. Muwhahahaz. Hope by then I won't screw things up.

Life Sucks

I've been coughing non-stop ever since I come back Singapore. Vomitted a few times. But I just can't be bothered to see a doctor. Haiz.

I just feel so weak and sick lar. Haiz. But I believe that is not the main problem. I just feel lousy deep in within. Life's such a struggle living a lifestyle which u just hate so much. Frankly speaking, I do admit I'm a loner in my unit. There just isn't someone in my unit whom I can confide my problems in. And the thought of having to interact and see some people EVERYDAY just makes me feel sick. Life is just so miserable when u realised u have to keep everything to urself and not let it out loud. Deep inside, I just feel lonely and miserable and farked up lar.

Life sucks. I wish I can just sleep forever and never wake up.

Thank you S1 Branch

Back in S'pore after 29 days in Taiwan. And I'm left with 295 days till I ORD. Haiz.

Seriously, I just can't stand working with some people lar. Okay, I don't care whether anyone in my S1 Branch is gonna read my blog. U know what? Fuck it. I just want to let this out in my blog and don give a shit if u people ever read it.

Yes, on the very last day S1 called for an unusual Branch meeting and want us to settle our disputes. I know I sure do act cold and problematic to u people. Pls don't assume that just beacuse I say "Sir, my problem has nothing to do witht the branch. The problems lie in me" will mean that YOU people are innocent? **PUKE**!! I just don't wish to make things miserable for both parties. And yes, when u people want to talk bad abt ppl, pls don assume that other ppl r asleep already. When u wan to talk bad abt ppl in the toilet, pls check that the person is not in the cubicle. Sometimes perhaps I just want to thank you people on letting me know how u ppl think of me. Thanks arz.

You all really think I enjoy working with u all meh? PLS LAR. I'm only trying to make my remaining 10 months in 4SIR less misrable lar. Minus one month of clearing leave and off, left 9 months. If this is not ARMY I swear I sure blow my top off onto u ppl lar. Yes, Army really test my patience and limits to the maximum. You people, whom I used to call "f-r-i-e-n-d-s" are just a bunch of LOSERs in my eyes now. Yes, I look down and despise all of you. The sight of you people just irks me and make my blood boil. I will just treat you people as INVISIBLE men for the next 9 months or so. Seriously, I don't know how on earth next time I'm gonna tolerate staying in the office the WHOLE day working with you people.

Don't worry. I would just pretend nth has happened and continue to "work" with you ppl. Take it as a good training for me when I go n work in the corporate world in the near future. Thank you S1 branch for such an opportunity to stretch my limits to the max.