So today the WHOLE battalion went to East Coast Park for the Div Run except for most of us in Bn HQ. Haiz, an utter waste of time.

So in the morning while having breakfast, my close friend said that he has heard some BAD news regarding my matters, and initially he didn't want to tell me as he knew I will explode. But being so stubborn, I forced him to say n I was utterly SHOCKED at how some people can come out with TWISTED stories and spread to many ppl, putting me in bad light, telling how I "FORCED" them to do SMTH even though it was my S1 who wanted me to relay the message to them. Indeed, I was very disappointed that these fuckers are really beyond hope.

I started become very nasty n rude in my emails to them.

For example today, I wrote smth along these lines:

"XX,

Go and do the thing can get back to YYY. You should know that u r supposed to follow up on this."

I purposely "CC" these to certain ppl that are not of any concern to this matter. Of course, there were some unhappiness n "shockeness" regarding my tone. But like I said, I did all these on purpose. I don't know why I have become so rude, in the previous post, I was talking abt how I respect the old "sect comd". So today I had a one-to-one talk with this old "sect-comd", as he wants to find out exactly what n where went wrong in the branch. And somehow halfway through the conversation, I didn't know what got into my mind, becuz the more I talked abt it, the more pissed I get.

So I said :

"You know that u r gonna ORD in Sep, n tt's really soon, U r now starting to clear leave n off liaoz, but I just want to get this clear. Right from the start, I hope that u will not get involve in all these shit and get into unnecessary trouble. I just hope that u can ORD in peace.

However, if I find out one day that u r in cahoots with those **fuckers** and if u ever stay in MY way, I can tell u straight that I will make sure I will get rid of u n I will definitely show no mercy to u as well."

Likewise, he was shocked that these words come from my mouth. However, I just tell him I want to get things clear. Even though he has heard alot of UNTRUE and bad things abt me from those fuckers, he chose not to believe and wish to hear what I have to say. I know I was super attitude when I say since I'm not guilty-consicious and so I can't be bothered with what others have to say abt me, and likewise I feel that I don't see the need to account to anybody. If u believe what they say is true, then go ahead. I shall be the BAD guy n they r the angels.

Thank God, that on Tuesday night when my S1 told me to relay certain tasks to these fuckers, there was a witness from the other branch that heard EVER SINGLE word that came out of my S1 mouth. Of course, he was so SHOCKED when he heard that from the story that many ppl was told abt, abt ME being the EVIL person arrowing these fuckers to do work. And I was happy that at least there are ppl who's willing to step out to clarify things for me if there's a need be. But being me, I told him that I am glad someone know that I'm innocent, but I told him I don wish to get him involved in all these politics shit. I will settle my own problem.

For what these 2 fuckers do to me now and back then, I will make sure the 2 of them pay a heavy price for this. I will make sure that the 2 of them get all the direct hits from me as of now. Yes, I do feel miserable n bitter abt it. It's like clutching ur fits tight n not wanting to let go. It's a tiring process. But at the end of it, I swear that I will make sure these 2 fuckers taste the feeling of desperation. Even if I get into deep shit, I swear that I will pull these 2 fuckers down with me.