O fucks man. All along I was so HAPPY that I'm gonna be on a LONG block leave....

Then suddenly they realised that it's impossible to have a manpower branch NOT working for one week or more. Hence, 50% will go on leave and then another 50% will stay.

Damn. So I will still need to go back next Mon to Wed. HAIZ. And so now my 6 days leave will be scattered into 3 parts. Wtf man, how pathetic can tt be. But nvm, suck thumb, used to it liaoz.

Sumtimes I think my superiors are so good ppl. They allow some people to go for their BLOCK LEAVE before they 100% confirm charge them 7 days SOL. Some ppl juz deserved it. And fuck, u think u in market bargaining izzit? "I rather take 7 extras than 7 SOL"

WTF lar!! Doing HQ COS is SO RELAX! EVERYTHING IS DUTY CLERK DO 1. Kaoz, u serve 7 days EXTRAs, if I'm the one I think also NO KICK lar. U think I never do weekend COS meh>? Juz morning 8am sleep until 930pm then go staff parade then come back return back to bunk n sleep until next day 8am. Like that how to make u feel the pinch?

And everyone also know y u rather take 7 extras then 7 days SOL. Of course lar, DEGREE GRADUATE leh. Ppl so SMART and HIGH estab lorz. U think like me or majority of the ppl meh? Either one farking pathetic A-level cert or Diploma? How can we compare to a DEGREE student like u? SO what? Degree student can't afford to get charged? O fucks lar, go to hell man. I've been waiting this day for so long already. And perhaps by the time u get charged I also won't be around to CELEBRATE, but nvm, at least I'll know. Yes, u derserved it.

So long nv blog liaoz.

So I'll be on block leave from 9th Aug to 19th Aug; 11 days of break. So this month will pass quite fast... Luckily no duties in this period of time. Haiz, maybe such break is good, can make me stay away from camp temporarily. Just 6 more months to ORD. But seems like still a long way to go leh... Haiz... So sick of having to see some people in daytime, then NIGHT time also have to see, then wake up early in the morning also see. Wtf man. But wellz, getting used to it liaoz. Luckily I have my beloved PSP to keep me company.

Tomorrow will mark the last lesson of my Japanese course; Lesson 30. After like 10 weeks of lessons every Monday, I think I also don't really absorb much during lesson. It's like doing all the shit makes me so tired liao then after tt night time go for 3 hours of lesson. Kaoz, cannot lar. My brain cannot take it. I think I study in weekend better.. So I shall discontinue lesson31 to 40...

The next public holiday after National Day is Hari Raya. WAH PIANGZ. Still so LONG to go.....

Haiz. My life is so boring. Nth to blog abt. Sianz 1/2...

So today the WHOLE battalion went to East Coast Park for the Div Run except for most of us in Bn HQ. Haiz, an utter waste of time.

So in the morning while having breakfast, my close friend said that he has heard some BAD news regarding my matters, and initially he didn't want to tell me as he knew I will explode. But being so stubborn, I forced him to say n I was utterly SHOCKED at how some people can come out with TWISTED stories and spread to many ppl, putting me in bad light, telling how I "FORCED" them to do SMTH even though it was my S1 who wanted me to relay the message to them. Indeed, I was very disappointed that these fuckers are really beyond hope.

I started become very nasty n rude in my emails to them.

For example today, I wrote smth along these lines:

"XX,

Go and do the thing can get back to YYY. You should know that u r supposed to follow up on this."

I purposely "CC" these to certain ppl that are not of any concern to this matter. Of course, there were some unhappiness n "shockeness" regarding my tone. But like I said, I did all these on purpose. I don't know why I have become so rude, in the previous post, I was talking abt how I respect the old "sect comd". So today I had a one-to-one talk with this old "sect-comd", as he wants to find out exactly what n where went wrong in the branch. And somehow halfway through the conversation, I didn't know what got into my mind, becuz the more I talked abt it, the more pissed I get.

So I said :

"You know that u r gonna ORD in Sep, n tt's really soon, U r now starting to clear leave n off liaoz, but I just want to get this clear. Right from the start, I hope that u will not get involve in all these shit and get into unnecessary trouble. I just hope that u can ORD in peace.

However, if I find out one day that u r in cahoots with those **fuckers** and if u ever stay in MY way, I can tell u straight that I will make sure I will get rid of u n I will definitely show no mercy to u as well."

Likewise, he was shocked that these words come from my mouth. However, I just tell him I want to get things clear. Even though he has heard alot of UNTRUE and bad things abt me from those fuckers, he chose not to believe and wish to hear what I have to say. I know I was super attitude when I say since I'm not guilty-consicious and so I can't be bothered with what others have to say abt me, and likewise I feel that I don't see the need to account to anybody. If u believe what they say is true, then go ahead. I shall be the BAD guy n they r the angels.

Thank God, that on Tuesday night when my S1 told me to relay certain tasks to these fuckers, there was a witness from the other branch that heard EVER SINGLE word that came out of my S1 mouth. Of course, he was so SHOCKED when he heard that from the story that many ppl was told abt, abt ME being the EVIL person arrowing these fuckers to do work. And I was happy that at least there are ppl who's willing to step out to clarify things for me if there's a need be. But being me, I told him that I am glad someone know that I'm innocent, but I told him I don wish to get him involved in all these politics shit. I will settle my own problem.

For what these 2 fuckers do to me now and back then, I will make sure the 2 of them pay a heavy price for this. I will make sure that the 2 of them get all the direct hits from me as of now. Yes, I do feel miserable n bitter abt it. It's like clutching ur fits tight n not wanting to let go. It's a tiring process. But at the end of it, I swear that I will make sure these 2 fuckers taste the feeling of desperation. Even if I get into deep shit, I swear that I will pull these 2 fuckers down with me.

Finally I'm left with 7 freaking months. Haiz, but time still passed demn slow. And yaz, finally I have COMPLETED lesson25 of Minna No Nihongo... Haiz, another 25 lessons before being ready for JLPT3 exam.....

And after MUCH MUCH consideration, I think I shld be registering for the JLPT3 exam end of this year. And when I looked at the summary notes that u r required to know for the JLPT3 syllabus, which my friend lent me to photocopy....

I was like........ WTF!! 1472 words that you must memorise and KNOW....... @#$%^&*

That really really turns me off. But whatever, I have like exactly 5 months to study for it. Haiz, although HIGH HIGH chance I will flunk the Listening Compre n Grammar and I donno what have u, but nvm, I shall just try for it. Passing mark is 60% and that is to get minimum 240 out of 400 marks.... Sianz 1/2.

HaizZz...

I'm such as an idiot at times. I mean most of the time.

Ignore my post below. I've bought this freaking expensive Nokia N76. Finally don have to wait till the end of the year.

And for once I felt abit "touched" by my branch. So on Tuesday it was just like any other day. Everyone was just busy doing their own work. Suddenly one guy turned off light (which I didn't know) and I was kinda pissed n shouted "Fuck man, black out liaoz", and before I know what's happening, my Chief was walking out from MY strong room (okay, it's called strong room but basically it's just a small room that has a thick metallic door to keep all the restriced/confidential/secret documents and that blardy room is basically my room), with a cake with lited candles on it. Initially I was looking around me cuz I thought it was someone's birthday but juz tt I didn't know. Then everyone in my branch just started gathering around me including my bosses and started singing a happy birthday song. Hahaz, I was just so darn touched cuz I did received a few sms-wishings from them on Sunday and I didn't really expect anything much from them either.

And of course, my Birthday wish is just so simple. Hopefully I won't get into any trouble/deep shit during my remaining days till I ORD>.

Okay. Just hope that from now till Chirstmas, I can live everyday peacefully.

Nokia N76

My Dream Phone - N76 (Click to enlarge)

Wait till the end of the year and maybe I'll buy it.

SMLJ

Simi Lanjiao?

Seriously, u all want to plan DUTY. FINE! I don care, but can't u all just learn from other units and at least plan in advance so that we all know exactly when we r doing duty?

Today is one of the RARE days I get to go out to despatch, and wtf, I received a call from my branch that this Sunday got guard duty then what put me reserve? I don even know what the FUCK is happening then suddenly just one call like that really spoils my day lar. I also can't be bothered to ask any further. I just said "okay" and hung up. I lazy to find out the details whether some fuckers volunteer my name or watz. But obviously I was just pissed to the max lar, if like that u think multi-tasking izzit? This weekend do duty clerk, then next weekend do guard duty or whatever. Wtf. Like that go burn all my weekends lar, mother fuckers.

BAD "OMEN"

Sometimes I DON'T KNOW is it just me or is it just my unit. Some want to go for operation, some want to downgrade, some say want to see counselling liaoz and even 3SG also say he want go see psychiatrist liaoz.

Sometimes I just wonder why ppl can survive through SISPEC or even OCS but they will all just die here.

So is it me or just everyone here?

When "MR TAN" left, everyone was like so HAPPY and it's like end of Occupation kind of feeling. And everyone was just hoping for a BETTER life thereafter.

And like just barely one month this "MR TAN" left come this Mother Fucker. (Nope, this mother fucker obviously not taking over "MR TAN's" position. He just got some more IKAN BILLIS on his arms there. Whatever.

Why must he like CONTROL us like WORST than recruits in BMT? Knn man!? Want to cut 4-2? HELLO!? U okay mahz? Even company line rifleman also never cut 4-2 then u now want all the CLERKs or STOREMANs or whatever to cut 4-2? U crazy arz? Even my S1 and Chief Clerk or Dys1 wants us cut like that, u wan us to cut like that>? U think u big fuck arz?

And obviously he doesn't seem to understand that HQ is a totally different game from Company Line. Frankly speaking, everyone knows that. U have to abide by the HQ style, and don't u like control us like some fuck recruits. And stop threatening us like "If anyone of you dare to defy me, it's equivalent to you knocking youself onto the wall. The wall will stay but you will fall."

GO TO HELL LAR!

And stop saying from NOW onwards everything have to report to you. What MC, med appt, off, leave, REPORT SICK etc etc also must report to you. You think S1, S2, S3, S4, QM, RP, Medical centre is platoon 1,2,3,4,5,6,7 izzit? Wtf!? Everything also want BLACK AND WHITE!? Wah kaoz, then for what fuck we report to Chief Clerk or Dys1 or S1? U think they there for fun izzit>? Afterall, they are higher rank. And don't be cockhead leh. Don't say until what want to "CROSS-TRAIN" us to learn to do duty-clerk, COS and guard duties all at one go? U think u diversifying business izzit? U want clerks go do guard duty then those ah bengs with lots of tatto to be duty clerk? Are you stupid or insane?

And this week the outfield I think he's like asking for a beating lar. Let's just name this fucker "XXX". A conversation between this "XXX" and a 3SG.

XXX: I want you to dig the trench now.

3SG: Sorry XXX, but I am C9L2, I got slipped disc and cannot dig trench. And also the previous "somebody" has said that we all C9L2 will be excused digging trench or route march etc.

XXX: Okay, nvm, then u just dig with your HANDS.

3SG: Huhz...? (Give that stunned look)

XXX: If not you want I give u permission to sit down and DIG since u got slipped disc.

3SG: But.... (wanted to argue back)

XXX: HELLO!? LET ME ASK YOU. DURING WAR TIME WHEN YOUR ENEMY SHOOT YOU, YOU THINK THE BULLET IS GOING STOP RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU AND SAY SINCE YOU ARE PES C9L2, THEN IF WILL FLY SIDEWAY AND HIT YOUR FRIEND WHO IS PES A OR B!!!!!!!??????

3SG: ........................................

Wah laoz. Where got ppl like that one!? Knn man. Then somemore u want ppl to set up CP Toner within 10 minutes, and when u ask ppl set up u go and sleep? GO TO HELL lar. When during first parade u never bother to take part but when CO is there u faster ask the whole Bn HQ stand in attention then go greet him. WAH KAOZ. U SURE KNOW HOW TO CARRY BALLS HOR!?

And your email is disgusting. U shld know that every branch has different working environment and we never bother to mix with other ppl. Stop saying things like "I want the WHOLE HQ to bond like brothers" or wat must have high morale and then sommore say want to plan whole HQ outing together. PLS LAR. You think this is company line izzit>? All the platoons come together for bonding!? Fuck lar.

Sometimes we just don't know he's fucking stupid or insane lar. My S1 told us that both he and the OC(S4) feel that maybe he's still "YOUNG" and got that "PASSION" but will soon give up when he realised that the system in HQ is different from that of Coy Line. He should know that a different approach is required. Haiz. Fucker lar. AND WE ARE LIKE GUINEA PIGS FOR HIM TO EXPERIMENT WITH TILL HE EITHER GIVES UP OR MAYBE HE WILL USE A HARSHER APPROACH IF WE DON'T COMPLY!?

Whatever. This mother fucker simply has incurred anger from all S1 to S4 branch, whether u r Men, or Spec or Warrent Officer or Officer.

You go to hell man.

Random Pics

I missed Japan. Haiz, I just hate S********.

Fuckers

Mother Fuckers, GO TO HELL MAN!!!



So pissed off with certain people. How selfish can they get? Just a few minutes before book out then suddenly say TOMORROW ON A SATURDAY need someone to do duty clerk.



WTF LAR!? Knn, ppl just abt to book out then say this kind of lanjiao thing. Nvm, as the person on duty on Saturday need to go outfield on Sunday morning and so cnt do. Fine. I don't really blame that guy. This kind of last minute thing need to find replacement is unavoidable. So CSM said have to find someone from S1 Branch to cover. FINE! (Note: He say ANYONE)



The MOST pissifying thing is that I don't understand why some people must say "Hmm... Then let's list down who are the people doing DUTY CLERKS then from there see who can do lorz" And at the end of the day there's only 3 people (including ME) available, then what the 3 of us must draw lots or wat BULLSHIT then either one of us must do.



COM'ON LAR!!! Let's look at it this way. Half the branch ppl do duty clerk, half the branch ppl do COS. And fucking hell, I don't understand why duty clerk on average must do ONE WEEKEND + ONE WEEKDAY a month, then COS only like do ONE WEEKDAY a month. This is so farking hell unfair lar. Ever since last year, the no. of ppl doing duty clerks and the no. of ppl doing COS is SO UNBALANCED lar. There are forever much LESSER ppl doing duty clerks compared to COS. And I don't understand why THOSE ppl doing COS cannot do duty clerk lar. It's not as if THEY last time NEVER do duty clerk before. And PLS LORZ<>

And second type of ppl (Actually it's just the SAME OLD people) are just so KNN lar. When they CANNOT finish their own work, they will talk to u NICELY and ask u HELP them. FINE!!!! I mean even though I got my OWN work, but I don't mind putting aside my stuff n help u all.

And this week my S1 wanted me to do some annual donno what thing which he gave me ONE WHOLE MONTH to do, as obviously this is smth that u cannot complete like what within a few days? And obviously when I look at it I know I will take like another 10 yrs to complete? Okay, fine, then my S1 sent an email say please get "XXX" and "XXXX" to help me with this cuz this thingyi will take quite some time. FINE!? I'm NOT the one asking u all to help me.

Well, I know everyone has their own work to do. Whatever. And pls, at least I got the courtesy to ASK whether you are busy with alot of work these few weeks or so, cuz I need them to help me do this thingyi. SERIOUSLY, deep down inside, I know exactly who is TRULY busy doing work and who is ACTUALLY everyday WASTING time clicking mouse and trying to ACT BUSY. Well, it's so farking obvious. I know everyone's job scope, for goodness. Then when I pop that question, SOMEONE can actually think for SO LONG then replied me "Hmm... Ya, actually I got this XXXX and that YYYY to do, quite busy".

You know what? FUCK OFF LAR! U think I will DIE w/o your help meh? Pls lar, I'm just conveying a message from S1 that you HAVE to help me. But at the end of the day, I will die die still be able to complete this thingyi WITHOUT anyone's help. If u don't want to help, just say outright lar.

And note: DON'T EVER ASK ME TO DO ANY SHIT FOR YOU AGAIN EVER OKAY!? FUCK! Perhaps from NOW onwards I MUST draw lines and ANYTHING NOT related to DOCUMENTATION I should just FUCK CARE lar. Knn.

GO TO HELL LAR!!!!!

Haiz. I just feel so feverish and SICK today. And yet I have DUTY tomorrow. Fuck. And worst is when I look at who are the other duty personnels doing duty with me on the same day, it's just so @#$%^&@#$%^& lar. All the i-dots man.

Feel so TEMPTED to change duty with my friend to do my duty tml so I do on some other sunday duty. But haiz, 4get abt it, don feel like making so much trouble. In 4 SIR, it's just so blardy hard to change duty especially since it's so last minute liaoz. I doubt anyone will also want to change. Whatever lar, I shall just SLEEP the whole day tml and don care if the DO or BOS is gonna fuck me for that. Anyway, it's not that they never fuck me upside down b4. Haiz, SUAY to do duty on 3rd June 2007. Kns.

Arrowing....

Yesterday I watched "Just follow Law" VCD by Fann Wong and Gurmit Singh in my branch computer together with my branch ppl, and I think it's really a funny yet realistic show abt how the government sector works lar. Being quite evil, we will "match-made" every character in the movie to "somebody" in my unit, based on their working style and stuff. Example, the "PO fessionalism" (from po lam pa a.k.a book lickers) we can almost instantly linked to "somebody" arz.

Initially when I started using issac card, I have always wondered why my superiors will constantly remind me to "CC" to whoever and whoever although the email has NOTHING to do with these group of people involved. I will think why can't I just send email to the relevant ppl under "To" and not need to CC to those irrelevant ppl. Now I know why.

"CC" is perceived as "Cover Cahceng" (cover backside) and BCC stands for "Better cover cahceng" (Better cover backside). If u don't CC to ppl, those ppl UP THERE will think that u r not working and will penalise u on that. Hence, now I learnt a VALUABLE lesson of "CC" emails to MANY MANY ppl that are seriously not relevant to the emails at all, and the sole purpose is just to tell the WHOLE world that YOU ARE ACTUALLY DOING WORK. Gosh.

And another thing about emails is the "ARROWING" part. If u ever watch that show, then the part where lots of arrows just keep flying around whenever someone sends an email. For example, whenever there's a PROBLEM, the so-called "directors" of each BRANCH (**hint**hint**) will start sending email and pushing blame to the head of other BRANCHES (sounds familiar again) and then finally all these emails (ARROWS) will eventually end up in the BOSS's computer.... (Ahem, reminds me of the TERROR days in the past) and then finally the BOSS will "merge" all the small arrows into one BIG arrow and then FIRE off into a small fry in the company (that sounds like us) and eventually the employee just DIED due to the BIG arrow.

Oyaz, and there was one IMPORTANT LESSON that they teach, which is never to skip the chain of command, and if u ever break that rule, u will just die horribly lar. This is just so FARKING true lar. Always report to ur immediate superior, if cannot then report to ur next immediate superior and so forth, and I swear it's just suicidal if u skip that command as I've seen LIVE examples of how some ppl "died" w/o them knowing how they die. Haiz, I think maybe one GOOD thing about the Army is that it gives me how the "REAL WORLD" is like when I work outside next time in a few years down the road. Then some of the "scheming tactics" will come into play and have to learn how to play along the LOOPEHOLES of the RULES AND REGULATIONS.

I also donno why I'm talking abt this, but that show is like just so fantastic lar. Hahaz, really worth watching, And seriously, I doubt this only happens in the govt sector. I guess private sector also like that lar.

36 weeks or so, and I'm still counting down.

And I'm finally able to find a school that I can enrol into. Starting on 4th June, once a week on every Monday night. Alas, I feel that I'm not gonna waste any more time on @#$%^&* NS. And it is a 10 weeks course till I decide whether I want to continue anotz. Actually now I also broke lar, spent so much money on PSP liaoz, piangz.

And starting next week is ALERT RED which will end at around National Day that period. OMFG lar. Although this time I'm not taking part since I have taken part already the previous round (and it was an utter WASTE of time), it is still so sianz that have to do so much preparations. HaiZzzZz..... Okay lar, I have SLACKED too much ever since I come back from Taiwan, although Audit and preparations for Highnoon were like fuck, I think it's only fair that we can "rest" abit first before the start of another major event: Alert Red. Haiz, SIanzZzzz lar.

With my beloved PSP and Japanese class now, hopefully time can pass "abit" faster.

Finally I can type a proper entry after so many ERRORS trying to enter blogspot a couple of times back.

I know this is quite dumb. But I actually bought a ............................ *TA-DA* PSP on Wednesday.

Reason? Because Army is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SIANZ that u r so desperate to find "smth" to do and especially during Weekend duties whereby u swear u will be bored to tears if u didn't bring anything.

Whatever it is, I've bought it and is meant to last me for the remaining 263 days.

And next, yesterday I nearly FREAKED out while sitting my friend's car who just got his license and gosh, now I understand y Singapore got so many car accidents. And for the first time I drink I think spelled as "Tequila" or watever u call that, is like so @#$%^&*@#$%^& lar. Kns, is like sh*t man. But good thing of having drivers around is that they will end up giving u their drink coupons becuase they shouldn't be DRINKING while driving. Erm... But then again, haiz, sometimes it's just so demn blardy scary when "young" ppl drive.

And for my Japanese Language class, due to my laziness and mainly my horrendous language ability, I've decided to downgrade to take JLPT4 instead of JLPT3 end of this yr, with me starting my JLPT3 class in Jan 2008 bahz. And seriously, I also don have much motivation to study much lar. Kns, with my PSP now, I also won't have much time lar. But then I think so far I only covered maybe 70% of my JLPT4 syllabus, so in the end now still must study abit more. At least I have like SIX MONTHS to take my own sweet time to study.

Haiz. I getting really really really SIANZ of Army liaoz. Just hope the remaining 9 months can pass like "amazingly" FAST and faster ORD...................... zZzZzZzzz

Booking of Tests...

So today I went to book 2 tests!

First is my upcoming Bunka Intermediate 2 placement test this coming Wednesday. Wellz, 30 minutes written test and 15 min Oral test. Wtf, I've a feeling I'm gonna flunk it. Whatever lar hor, today n tml juz mug n mug then Wednesday juz vomit everything out. Bleahz.

And next is I went down to CDC to book my Basic Theory Test on 9th July(Monday). Haiz, still a long way to go. I think by the time I can take my driving practical test is already Mid 2008 lar. Haiz, sianz. But nvm lar, before uni starts can get my driving license can liaoz.

Haiz, now I juz feel short of cash lar. Piangz... so many courses to attend...

So now I juz wish that I won't be speaking alien language to the examiner on Wed.... And hopefully no glaring grammatical mistakes as well....

Continue with "Ni-hon-go"

So ever since I came back on Tuesday, I've been immersing myself in TEXTBOOKS. O yes, elementary Japanese textbooks. Sometimes I feel that I'm just so retarded when comes to language, and I always assume that all I need to do is to "memorise" everything and that's it. Bleahz, how wrong can that be!? I can't even get SIMPLE basic grammar facts right, like that how to proceed onto higher levels?

And staying at home to study will only end up me using the comp most of the time. -_-''' Hence, perhaps it's time I start going Airport or Library and blend into the crowd of students mugging intensively for theirs exams.

And whatever is the case, now my aim is by Mid-June I will finish up to lesson25 of "Minna No Nihongo" book and then I will start enrolling for lesson liaoz. If not I think I sure donno what the hell I'm learning. So for this upcoming 6 to 7 weeks, it'll be INTENSIVE mugging until I can master till lesson25 before I can "proudly" apply for evaluation test of Bunka Intermediate 2 course. Muwhahahaz. Hope by then I won't screw things up.

Life Sucks

I've been coughing non-stop ever since I come back Singapore. Vomitted a few times. But I just can't be bothered to see a doctor. Haiz.

I just feel so weak and sick lar. Haiz. But I believe that is not the main problem. I just feel lousy deep in within. Life's such a struggle living a lifestyle which u just hate so much. Frankly speaking, I do admit I'm a loner in my unit. There just isn't someone in my unit whom I can confide my problems in. And the thought of having to interact and see some people EVERYDAY just makes me feel sick. Life is just so miserable when u realised u have to keep everything to urself and not let it out loud. Deep inside, I just feel lonely and miserable and farked up lar.

Life sucks. I wish I can just sleep forever and never wake up.

Thank you S1 Branch

Back in S'pore after 29 days in Taiwan. And I'm left with 295 days till I ORD. Haiz.

Seriously, I just can't stand working with some people lar. Okay, I don't care whether anyone in my S1 Branch is gonna read my blog. U know what? Fuck it. I just want to let this out in my blog and don give a shit if u people ever read it.

Yes, on the very last day S1 called for an unusual Branch meeting and want us to settle our disputes. I know I sure do act cold and problematic to u people. Pls don't assume that just beacuse I say "Sir, my problem has nothing to do witht the branch. The problems lie in me" will mean that YOU people are innocent? **PUKE**!! I just don't wish to make things miserable for both parties. And yes, when u people want to talk bad abt ppl, pls don assume that other ppl r asleep already. When u wan to talk bad abt ppl in the toilet, pls check that the person is not in the cubicle. Sometimes perhaps I just want to thank you people on letting me know how u ppl think of me. Thanks arz.

You all really think I enjoy working with u all meh? PLS LAR. I'm only trying to make my remaining 10 months in 4SIR less misrable lar. Minus one month of clearing leave and off, left 9 months. If this is not ARMY I swear I sure blow my top off onto u ppl lar. Yes, Army really test my patience and limits to the maximum. You people, whom I used to call "f-r-i-e-n-d-s" are just a bunch of LOSERs in my eyes now. Yes, I look down and despise all of you. The sight of you people just irks me and make my blood boil. I will just treat you people as INVISIBLE men for the next 9 months or so. Seriously, I don't know how on earth next time I'm gonna tolerate staying in the office the WHOLE day working with you people.

Don't worry. I would just pretend nth has happened and continue to "work" with you ppl. Take it as a good training for me when I go n work in the corporate world in the near future. Thank you S1 branch for such an opportunity to stretch my limits to the max.

All right, today marks my 18th day in Taiwan. I still have 11 days more before I go back Singapore. Now i'm at my camp's cookhouse using some shitty computer that allow me to use Internet for 15min at NT10 (S$0.50). Piangz, I think I spent too much money already. Where on earth got people like spend about to S$100 just on "Ninja van" food 1!?

Wah kaoz, I think I've been eating way TOO MUCH that I'm suspecting I've gained like 5kg compared to before I left for Taiwan. The food from the Ninja van are demn nice lar. Large, crispy "Zha Ji Pa", "Tian Bu La", "Jian Bing" and alot more. No wonder some ppl say we don't lose weight when we come to Taiwan.

And finally I've done all that I need to do for the R&R. Hotel allocation, Bus allocation, meal table seating allocation and plane seating allocation. Phew, finally me and my friend finished them all. Now just tahan 7 more days before off we got to KaoShiung for our R&R!!!

But then again, I think temperature can be freezing out there at night, with the temp dropping as low as 12 deg cel, according to the officers. That's like HELLO!?... It's demn blardy cold when the wind blows lar. Okay lar, although the temp cannot be compared to that in Japan winter, but it's still quite inbearable especially when u only wear your no.4 uniform. Bleahz. At least it's better than the hot weather in SIngapore.

And surprisingly, I don't feel home-sick as what I've expected initially before I came. Indeed, time flies over here as you are kept busy doing all the sai-kang. Although feelings of sianzness may come especially during weekends when u will be thinking "what the fark I'm doing here". I think I will miss the training in Taiwan. At least it's 100000000000000000 times better than back in Singapore. Going back Singapore just makes me feel "SIANZ" lar. How I wish for an overseas posting to Taiwan. But fark, I'm already a second yr soldier and I think the chance is demn low arz. Nvm, perhaps I will try to appeal for a min. 6 months posting to Taiwan if possible. But haiz, thinking how FARK my unit is at retaining people from posting out is just so @#$TY#$%^ lar. What to do... Suck thumb and tahan for another 10 more months bahz.

Japanese Citizenship and PR

Okay, I got these info from: http://en.wikibooks.org/wiki/Japanese_Immigration_Law

Permanent residency
Permanent residency (永住権 eijuken) is the strongest form of landing permission, granting the bearer the right to live and work in Japan indefinitely. It must be applied for and obtained within Japan, generally after five to ten years of continuous residency there.

One major advantage of permanent residency is that financial institutions often deny loans to foreigners who are not permanent residents.

And now comes to "Naturalization". In case some of u donno the meaning of Naturalization, pls see : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Naturalization

In law, naturalization refers to an act whereby a person acquires a citizenship different from that person's citizenship at birth. Naturalization is most commonly associated with economic migrants or refugees who have immigrated to a country and resided there as aliens, and who have voluntarily and actively chosen to become citizens of that country after meeting specific requirements.

Aiyaz, in short means change citizenship lorz.

Naturalization

The criteria for naturalization are provided in Articles 4 through 10 of the Nationality Law:
1) Continuous residence in Japan for five years or more
2) At least 20 years old and otherwise legally competent
3) History of good behavior generally, and no past history of seditious behavior
4) Sufficient capital or skills, either personally or within family, to support oneself
5) Stateless or willing to renounce foreign citizenship

The Minister of Justice must approve all applications for naturalization. Review of an application generally takes about one year.

In the past, the "good behavior" requirement has been used to deny or severely delay many naturalization applications, particularly from Chinese and Koreans.

I'm getting abit HIGH liaoz.

Then I went on to search a few more websites and found this:

If you are a person from a country outside Japan, you have to reside in Japan for five years consecutively to make yourself entitled for the citizenship of Japan. The five years duration can be reduced if you are married to a citizen of Japan. There are some other requirements also that you will know when you contact them.

WAHAHAZ!

Okay, take it that I stick to my dream of going to Japan at the age of 28, then that means I would only attain my PR or citizenship status if I turn 32 or 33.

Which is UNLESS.....

I go marry a Japanese girl then I may attain it much faster, perhaps by the age of 30 or 31?

Reading such things really keep me demn high lar. I seriously donno what to say. I know I still have about 1 year of NS to go, but with such thoughts running through my brain really give me morale BOOST all the way lar! SOmetimes I just try to "deceive" myself that going thru 2 yrs of shit right now, for a greater future ahead. O my... I think I wanna go MAD liaoz.

What is one month of shit in Taiwan, as compared to doing what I enjoy 10 years down the road? What is one more year of being fucked by lowly-educated idiots, as compared to be able to work in a BIG MNC and interacting with people of... higher social class?

I think I have told some of my friends about my dream.

I want to work in a big MNC. I want to wear business suit, tie, shiny leather shoes and carry briefcase to work everyday. For some of you who got watch those Japanese/korean/taiwanese drama, where those businessman got their own office. I want to be like that!!!

Not that all these are impossible in Singapore. But I've never thought of establishing my career in Singapore.

I want to be able to comprehend Japanese songs without looking at their romanji-translated lyrics. I want to be able to watch Japanese movie without having to look at the Eng/Chi subtitles. I want to be able to speak to Japanese people without speaking half-fucked Japanese, such that they don't understand. I want to read Japanese newspaper without any difficulty. I can easily tune in to Japanese FM and able to comprehend every word they say. When I switch on my TV, I can easily understand what the show is talking about.

Simply, I want to speak and use Japanese in my everyday life.

I hope this desire, this dream, this passion will keep me going... At least till I ORD in 11 months time.

With that, this shall be my last post till I return back from ROC on 17th April. Haiz, I'll miss blogging.

BoBo all the WAY!

I'm such a SUPER BOBO shooter lar. Piangz, don't what to say. I think my eyes really got problems. Initially I got 5/16 for my day shoot.

YAZ! NoT EvEN ONE THIRD OF THE SCORE LORZ. I THINK I MUST GO FOR SOME EYE SURGERY SOON LORZ.

Wah kaoz, even my dys1 say I think I should just forgo my night shot, like quite hard to pass lorz.

I was thinking likewise also.

Then came night shot. I got 10/12. WAHAHAZ, so in total I got 15/28, and so I passed! Okay lar, I think I have day blindness, but not night blindness. (Actually, because I asked my left and right shooters to SHOOT my lane!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Whatever lar, can pass can liaoz. I know I really SUCKED at shooting.

Finally some ASSHOLE already left for Taiwan yesterday, becuase he's in the advance party. Thank God I can have some PEACE in the mind at least till Monday when I see him in Taiwan again.

3 more days left in SIngapore.

Haiz.

Haiz.

8 more days to ROC. Don't know what to say. For some reason, I don't really look forward to it. Going there and everyday have to see some SICKENING faces that turns me off. Still must see the blardy moods of some idiots and get fucked for no apparant reasons.

Fuck it.

Still got 333 more days.

Endure bahz.

Fuck your mother

CHARGE!? YOU WANT TO CHARGE ME FOR.....AW*L!?

COM'ON LAR!!! I'M NOT LIKE SOME FARKING DUMBASS THERE WHO'LL JUST KEEP MUM WHEN TREATED UNFAIRLY AND TO BE SLAUGHTER BY YOU PEOPLE!?

GO TO HELL MAN!!

It took us like 3 weeks to SEARCH and PASTE like close to 2000 photos (each person 4 photos) and NOW you want us to RE-DO EVERYTHING within 3 days!?

FUCK YOU!!!

I spend so much time and effort in doing this stupid thingyi, making me stay back whereby the rest of the battalion all went back home early. Then during CNY I still make the effort to bring back the photos to sort them out?

FUCK YOU!!!

And today somebody keep mentioning "if you ever say that to me, then I'm gonna give u 2 FARKING TIGHT SLAPS......"

FUCK YOU!!!

I thought I can took off on Monday and so that I can go for my med appt. in peace on Tuesday. But thanks to you ppl that make my life so miserable.

FUCK ALL OF YOU!!!

I'm simply pissed pissed pissed to the max this whole week.

Back tO Normal

As usual, this year's CNY is nth special compared to previous years 1. I think all I do is to sit at one corner of my grandmother's house and keep watching SCV movies the whole day. Other than the usual "Hello! Happy new yr!" with a handshake with my relatives, I basically didn't even talk to anybody. Other than the fact that they started gambling in the late afternoon, and perhaps we gamble only like 2 hrs or so before I left. And shucks, I think my gambling luck is super duper low this yr. Manz, this sucks. Nvm, it's just a form of entertainment and somemore only gamble once a yr. Bleahz.

I guess I'm juz too "engrossed" in the fact I'm still serving NS and that I still got like..... 352 days to ORD!? Fark. I just can't wait to get the fark out of NS lar. Piangz. So fast the end of this LONG holiday liaoz, tml night have to book in. Haiz, SIANZ to the max. Just the thought of having to see BABOON everyday makes me feel sick.

SIanz.

Anyone wans to gamble!?

CNY !?

This week's quite "happening".

Piangz, I went for the outfield WITHOUT knowing what the fark am I going there for, and what am I suppose to do. Only thing is just to set up CP toner. Full-stop.

Oh my... Went there only to be treated as blangadeshi workers to carry heavy stores from one toner to the other. I seriously donno what the hell C9L2 personnels are doing all these nonsense lar. Wah kaoz, it's not easy to keep setting up and closing the CP toner when u keep moving from one location to the other lar. And I didn't know we have to do what pioneer platoon ppl are supposed to do lar. From 6am to 8am trying to dismantle the constatina wire, and roll them up and carry from one point to the toner which is some distance away. Fark man!! Why is C9L2 ppl doing all these SHIT!?

And comes night time. Fark...need to do sentry duty. And I did TWO in one night, from 1am till 2am, and then 5am till 6am. And the remaining time I was just busy scratching my skin after being bitten by God knows how many mosquitoes. Even my HQ Specialists all said they are dying doing all these work, and their ASLC even not as xiong as this arz. This outfield was TOTALLY madness. I think the amount of load that we keep carrying around is equals to strength training X10.

Kaoz. This is farked-up lar.

Then today every1 went back at 1030am, I only left camp at 7pm just to do some stupid highnoon photos and chi names. Wah kaoz, sucks big time man!

This yr's Chinese New Yr is definitely the WORST I'm ever spending. I still must bring back all the photos back home to sort them out. Wtf lar. Ppl celebrate CNY and yet I will be burying myself with these work. Argz...Fark man! What have I done to be in this farked-up unit!?

I'm not even in the mood for wat CNY celebration. My mind is simply flooded with all the highnoon admin work tt needs to be done.

JaPaN, JaPaN, JaPaN!!!!

For the past few days I've been searching high and low for all the possible schools in Japan that offer Japanese Language courses. Perhaps like some websites said, I shld just try to tap on all the possible opportunities in Singapore to learn as much basic Japanese as possible before going abroad to study. Mainly it's because it saves ALOT of money lar. It can cost like 8 times MORE expensive to study the SAME course in Japan than in Singapore. And not forgetting the accomodation and lodging u need to pay urself. O man...tt's like gonna cost a bomb. And so every now and then, I will use my calculator and start tabulating the costs of various needs, until my parents and sis are so curious wat on earth am I calculating.

However, I realised that studying a foreign language in Singapore may not be as "efficient" as compared to studying in the native country. I mean com'on lar, if let's say I study Japanese in Singapore. I only get to practise the language for tt pathetic 2 to 3 hours PER WEEK, and the rest of the time I'll be back to speaking Chinese and SInglish n watever. Like some website put it, it will greatly improve ur learning ability if u study in the native country, because u will be under "pressure" to use the language in your everyday lifestyle, and able to practise it anywhere and anytime u travel. You get to write, listen, speak and read in the native language very often, and I believe this is how one can get to learn a language better. Okay lar, I admit my language learning ability sucks, from the horrendous english n chinese I've been speaking for the past 10++ years, and that makes me worry even more abt my ability to learn Japanese if I study it in SIngapore. So is a choice of whether u wan to save on the time or money. Save time and u go Japan to study intensive course, if not u save money and then stay in Singapore to study.

Hence, after MUCH thinking and consideration, I think I've made up my mind. Perhaps I shld just try to get a minimum JLPT1 or JLPT2 in SIngapore before I even think of going abroad to study. Erm... In case u r wondering wat's JLPT1, it's equivalent to that of AO-level Japanese and JLPT2 is about O-level Japanese, and is one of the pre-requsite to study tertiary education in Japan. However, I know that's gonna take me at least 2 to 3 yrs studying in Singapore before I can reach that level.

Okay, let's look at things this way. Upon graduation from uni at the age of 24, I should just quickly find an accounting Job in one of the Big4 firms and work for min. 2.5 yrs to 3 yrs in order to get the experience to become a certified accountant in Singapore. And at the same time I should make use of this period of time to enrol in part time Japanese courses that shld be able to get me a min. JLPT1 cert. Upon reaching the age of 27, I should have been able to save up enough money and learn enough BASIC Japanese for me to go abroad to continue to study advance Business Japanese in Japan, and at the same time look for a decent Job and settle down in Japan. If I'm lucky enough, I may even get the opportunity to be sent overseas to work, since MNCs usually require lots of travelling. Man... That will be too good to be true if I can ever land myself an overseas posting to go Japan to work.

Piangz. I made my LIFE PLAN sounds so plain-sailing and stuff. I talk until like so fairy-tale story like that. Wah kaoz, WEIYANG!!! WAKE UP LARZ!!! U MUST WORK HARD TO FUIFILL YOUR GOAL!! DON'T JUST SAY AND SAY AND THEN 'NATO'. (NATO = NO ACTION, TALK ONLY) U BLARDY HELL GET REALISTIC AND PRACTICAL IF U WAN ALL THESE TO COME TRUE. DON'T JUST SIT BACK AND BE A 'NUA-STER' AND ROT YOUR LIFE DOING NOTHING!!!!

Okay, the above paragraph serves as a REMINDER for me on wat I've promised myself I will work hard for. Hope that one day down the road, should I ever get swayed and start giving up, may I refer back to this entry to prick my conscience on what I've ever dream and said before on this date.

FARKED UP "MR BOON"

Okay, let's just face it. This is gonna be a bitching session which really pisses me off and all my branch ppl off.

I think last week was one of the most xiong week for preparation for audit. I booked out on Fri night, booked in next day Sat morning then worked until sat night 11pm go sleep, and then worked the WHOLE sunday from morn till night, before I finally finished my documentaion.

And the real examination came on Monday. Before my HR audit started at 9am, this MR BOON gave us an "opening speech". And I swear I nearly puked when I heard his words. Omg, so FAKE lar, u think we all 3 yrs old kid izzit. Wtf. Okay, I could remember some of the words he said, such as:

"I know u people have put in MUCH effort for this coming Audit. However, the real exam has come. I know some of you are not prepared for it yet, but NVM, I am NOT CONCERNED about the outcome. Before the auditors check, maybe u just declare what fault do u have. Do not try to smoke your way out. You know, I DON'T LIKE to CHRAGE people who have their heart for the unit, but left me with no choice but to really CHARGE you. Like I said, HONESTY IS THE BEST POLICY. Don't try to BEND BACKWARDS or whatsoever." Okay, it's just something along those lines.

Then the audit took place from morning till afternoon. Okay lar, I also can't disclose much in case SAF intends to sue me for leaking out secret information. Whatever fark, I also have no interest in the info. Anyway, my branch has done our best for this audit.

Okay, here comes the part whereby all of us feel PISSED by this "MR BOON". At the end of the Audit for the debrief, all us have to come together, with the auditors, and this "MR BOON", whereby the auditors will brief us on all the mistakes and errors that they found in this audit. Then whether the mistakes are big enough to minus points or izzit small enough to juz close one eye lar. Then actually we can debate our way thru if we wan to argue, but apprantly we ain't senior enough to dare to do such thing. Whatever it is. The auditors actually mentioned that MAJORITY of the mistakes are quite minor, so actually can put them under "Areas for Improvement"(AFI), so that means NO NEED to minus marks one lorz.

Then guess what?

In normal circumstances, usually the "BOSS" will help to fight for our own unit. But this MR BOON, is juz the opposite lar. He WANTS the audiors to PUT BACK all the errors under "Areas for Improvement" back into "Observations" (meaning will minus marks if under observation).

Wtf rite!?

If he doesn't want to help my branch. So be it lar. Actually it's not that we "xi han" his sympathy or whatsoever. The ironic part comes into play. When the audiots left the unit, that MR BOON gave my S1 and Chief one GOOD fuck, and for goodness, he actually asked my S1 to go call the auditors the next day to beg for them for leniency and put the errors back to "AFI" so that we won't get deducted that many marks. Fark lorz, what a blardy hypocrite.

Nvm, and that's halfway through the story.

Then on Wednesday, he sent an email to ALL the audiors and chief clerks from other units, and obviously to us also, and that email is so disgusting lar. Obviously the former part of the letter is for auditors, and the latter part for my branch ppl.

"
Dear auditors, would u mind sending me a soft copy of ALL the mistakes there were found out during the audit?
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I realised that our unit's health status is not very healthy, indeed. There's much much more to be improved. I would need to do use medicine to CURE our status, so as to get rid of all the DIESASES and VIRUS.
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I want an explanation of ALL the faults during audit within ONE week. If it is due to systematic errors, then I can understand. However, if it is due to HUMAN errors, then I will not HESITATE to put in BIG STICK...."

Sometimes I wonder if he is dumb or wat lar. Pls lorz, if it is EVER due to systematic errors, then we won't even need to plea to the audiots watz, and obviously like that they also know that it's not our fault, and won't record them down.

BUT HUMAN ERRORS????????

Firstly, U SOUND AS IF YOU NEVER KNOW THAT MY BRANCH ALREADY QUITE FARKED-UP since many yrs back lar. If u look at the record, my unit always get last or 2nd last unit in Singapore 1 lorz. I mean pls lar, if ur sec sch is the LAST in Singapore, then ur sch principal suddenly said wants to aim to thrash RI or RGS, u as a student of tt sch confirm will feel 'pek cek' to have such LAME goal lar. And at least in MOE, they still got GOOD PROGRESS AWARD or smth like that lar. Even though u r not the top, if u made a significant improvement, then at least ppl recognised u for ur hard work. Haiz. Nvm, forget it.

Hello....... YOU NEVER MAKE ANY MISTAKES BEFORE IN YOUR LIFE MEH? Wah kaoz, I also doubt all the other S1 Branch in ALL other units in Singapore get 100% lar. Then it's not as if the "king of the unit" will demand them to explain why didn't they get PERFECT score. If you never get FULL MARKS for ur examination, then your teacher asked u to explain why u made all the errors, u also confirm think that teacher is insane lar.

And u say u wan to put in BIG STICK? O pls lar, u ever since before the audit, u have been threatening us that if we screw up this audit, u will punish us one lar. I think now God has granted u your wish lorz, U can make use of this chance to get rid of us in one go. Then like that no one will ever stand in your way lar. U want to get rid of all the "VIRUS and DISEASES" like us rite? If this is not Army, I think even u pay me $10000 a month, I rather quit then to see your stuck-up face everyday lorz.

Don't u ppl think this "MR BOON" is so farked up?

And u think u r GOD or CHIEF OF ARMY izzit? Pls lorz, who do u think u r to say u wan ppl to leave the army just like that. This year will be my chief's 25th year in the army liaoz. She work in army, I think u still in pri sch lorz. And who do u think u r to want my S1 to go Ops, and become OC instead of PXO? Wah kaoz, WAKE UP UR IDEA LAR. Not everything GOES your way okay!

In case and SAF ppl wanna CHARGE or SUE me for anything....

READ THIS:

I NEVER MENTION A SINGLE BIT OF ARMY INFORMATION HOR! THIS WHOLE ENTRY IS JUST A SIMPLE BITCHING SESSION ABOUT THIS ONE GUY. AND I NEVER MENTION WHO THE HELL HE IS, AND ALSO ANYTHING THAT WILL PUT SAF AT RISK HORZ. SO DON'T SAY WHAT SLANDER OR WHAT FARK ARZ!>

Haiz, can the Audit faster END!? Piangz, still must wait till 29th Jan. So sianz. I'm juz so sick of checking stuff over and over again, only to realise that there ARE still mistakes here n there. Guess I'm juz too careless arz. But whatever, I think at the most get farked by Ah Boon then after that OUT he go from 4SIR!

Using my boss's personal's office comp is so fun arz. The moment he goes home, I will be one of the first few to dash to use his comp w/o any1 watching since the rest are all outside. But then once a while some idiots will obviously come and disturb. And have restriction to many websites like FRIENDSTER (which I donno y), I've only resort to blogs and MSN to keep myself entertained.

Talking about blogging, I realised that nowadays, me and my friends will go to Wendy's(xiaxue) blog and keep reading it. Guess we r just TOO bored arz. But seriosuly, after watching so many LAME episodes of "Girls Out Loud" every Mon night 10pm, host by Wendy and Rosalyn, I guess we r juz starting to get "used" to the style she use in communicating with ppl. Although many ppl may say that she's too "bitchY" or "sLutty" or what have u, I guess she's still okay afterall. (Nope, I'm not being bias) Instead, I guess I quite admire she can be so frank and BITCH abt ppl so openly although there are like tens of thousands of people reading her blog everyday. Lolx.. Okay, enough of her, in case any1 thinks that I'm ATTRACTED to her. Like I said, I juz find her okay with an unique style.

Haiz, so boring lar. Life's so sianz....................

Haiz.

I'm in such a dilemma.

Should I or Should not go to Taiwan?

Some say shld go as it's an experience, but then some juz told me it's a waste of time to go there. But it's so demn long lar. 34 days. And I go there is MAINLY to do "sai kang" lorz, as what my officer has told me. Right now I think I can ask one person to substitue me arz, since my chief clerk wants me to stay back in Singapore to help her. And from what I heard from those who had gone to Brunei last month, that Ah Boon eveyday also keep farking all the battalion HQ ppl. Wtf lar, until alot of ppl there so pissed off with him. So if I go there also 100% confirm everyday kana disturb by him 1. Haiz. so sucks lar.

ARGZ!!! I donno lar! Sure decide tml lar!

I was reading an article abt lasik surgery in Singapore a few days ago n I juz feel so TEMPTED to go for tt operation lar. Apparantly it costs typically between $3K to $4K bahz, for both eyes (I also donno y they wan to charge based on PER eye, which is dumb in my opinion). Okay lar, the price is reasonable I feel, at least it FREES u from wearing contact lens/glasses perm for the rest of ur life unless u get short-sighted again.

So I started searching the net for all the available clinics tt offer Lasik Surgery. HmM.. most r around the same price lar, so I juz hope tt I will be able to go for tt before I start uni in 2008. Maybe after I ORD but before sch starts. Although my parents have agreed to sponser me, but I think I shld also start saving some $$$ lar. Maybe I pay 1K to 2K and ask my parents to pay the remaining. But looking at my PATHETIC NS pay now, I think I can 4get abt saving tt much lar. Maybe shld faster go find a job when I ORD n save up. But haiz...it's still a LONG way to go till 2008. Sighz.

Wtf, for wat shit issue me 1 stupid pager. Kns. Just don't ever beep during weekend.

I was standing there next to the MRT door when I saw her enter and stand next to me.

Yes, I've not mistaken.

For that split second, my heart started beating real fast. I keep thinking what am I gonna to do.

After awhile, I feel that it's best that I just pretend nth has happened.

Having passed a few stops, while standing next to me, she turned around to look at me.

She turned back to the front, and suddenly turned again to look at a second time.

I guess she has seen me.

At that moment I feel warm as if I've just gotten sun-burn.

And like me, we pretend we didn't encounter at all.

That feeling sucks.

After 2 weeks working in 4SIR S1 Br, I would say that I'm really happy and satisfied with my current working environment. Everything is going smoothly. I can work with my superiors in my branch, and also the other servicemen in my branch. I don't know if it's cuz that damned *Ah Boon* is not around at the moment which makes life more peaceful. But whatever it is, I think I don't mind staying at S1 Br as a docu clerk till the day I ORD.

Although many politics still exist in this unit, especially in battalion HQ which involved that *Ah Boon* in causing the 4 different branches to fall out and leading the battalion towards self-destruction, I just hope that he get's transferred out ASAP next year. In fact, everyone in my branch seems quite united against this *Ah Boon*, which I think is the main factor that casued us to feel closer to each other. At this critical time whereby there's gonna be Audit check in Jan 2007, and the livelihood of my chief being at stake, all of us will try our best to do well for the assessment and not giving *Ah Boon* any chance to fault us.

I'm prepared to be treated as a 3rd or 4th class citizen in this camp. Like my chief said, our beloved *Ah Boon* hates clerks to the core and always push all the blame to the clerks when anything goes wrong. And I heard that this *Ah Boon* nearly wanted to charge my upper study in my branch, just because of a few MINOR mistakes like nv update the details in proficiency booklets properly. Ain't he insane? It's akin to a teacher saying that she wants to cane a student juz becuz a student nv does his homework. And I can't believe *Ah Boon* actually said to the R&D clerk that he wans to increase the CHARGE rate in my camp. It's like "HELLOOOOOOO!!", do u just so enjoy charging people or sending ppl to DB? Ain't he a SICKO? I believe so.

My chief warns me that I have to be mentally prepared if I stay in S1 Br, because *Ah Boon* enjoys coming to S1 Br almost everyday and start farking all the clerk, before he goes back to his office. And he doesn't seem to realise that we r "respecting" him because of his rank on his shoulder, and not because of who he really is.

I must learn to treasure life in 4SIR w/o *Ah Boon* around. Literally, all of us just feels so happy w/o HIM around.

Haiz. I'm still waiting for my death note to drop down from heaven, so that *Ah Boon* can have the greatest honour in me writing his name first in it.

Imagine u r watching TV halfway and suddenly someone from your camp calls to tell u that you've just gotten 3 EXTRAS. And thanks to some idiot who don't seem to understand simple English and can't even count properly.

THANKS to this person.

Well done.

Sometimes I really can't trust ppl with low intelligence level. Not that I'm saying mine is high or wat.

From today onwards I swear I shld juz give a "bo-chap" attitude. If any1 wanna complain abt my work attitude, so be it. I also don't give a farking damn.

Sometimes it's simply not worth ur effort contributing tt much. When all the trouble comes, u r still the one who get it. And all the credits go to those HIGHER up there. What a farked up system.

Totally enjoyed myself during the outing with my HQ platoon. The so-called "platoon cohesion day", whereby we are supposed to go some place and play. I got the chance to sit in my OC's car to Yishun SAFRA in the morning while the rest took public transport. Lolx... We played CS, bowling, and arcade for like 4 hours or so. And lunch at a western restaurant was a treat from my OC, same goes for the bowling. I think perhaps the most fun day of my life in 4SIR. If only we can more of such outings.... Okay, back to the lousy side. I just wan to curse these ppl.

This morning one F**KER officer only know how to kpkb till my armskote spec cried. What a blardy farker. Only know how to pin-point ALL the fault and start digging back old wounds. Knn... If he's not an officer I swear I sure whack him up and down. Farker, only know how to threaten us with LOTS of extras. CB, I cursed that u get lots of EXTRAS till ORD still cnt clear. What a pretence who know how to boot-lick in front of higher ranking officers. Kns.

And on Wednesday it was a MILITARY POLICE spot-check. Knn... I shan't say more, but some of my friends would know abt it. I would only blame it on my blardy BAD luck that has sticked to me ever since I entered the cursed land of 4SIR. Ever since this incident I juz feel so AWKWARD to even look at my CSM and OC. Haiz, I must have greatly disappointed them. Whatever it is, I juz take it as an lesson learnt and gladly accept my punishment (if there's any), although I know my angelic OC will sure try his best to cover my ass. Sometimes I juz feel so guilty that my OC treats me so so sooooooooooooo WELL and yet I give him lots of problems, be it armskote or the MP incident. I think I'm juz one big bastard trouble-maker. Haiz.

And some CCB armourers who only know how to complain how DIRTY weapons are. Nabei, I tolerate this particular armourer for a long time, so are the armskoteman of Alpha, Charlie and Support coy. Don't force us one day the 4 of u give u one good whacking then u can learn how to stop barking like a farking mad dog. If u wan complain anything juz go find my OC lar. Stop farking threaten me wat complain to my OC or CSM. U think I SCARED izzit!? U only work Mon to Fri, 8am to 5pm, then still wan to REQUEST ppl to stay back in a SUNDAY MORNING to clean arms!? Are u NUTS!? Why not u try BURNING ur weekends consecutively and see how that FEELS!?

And I think the 2 person mentioned above, both the officer and armourer seem to not understand the meaning of TEMPORARY armskoteman.

HELLO!!!!!!????????

I NEVER EVEN ATTEND ANY ARMSKOTE COURSE AND MY ARMSKOTE SPECS ARE EVER SO BUSY TO TEACH ME ANYTHING....

PLEASE DON'T ASSUME I KNOW EVERYTHING OKAY!?

IF I KNOW EVERYTHING THEN MIGHT AS WELL ASK SAF TO ABOLISH THE ARMSKOTE COURSE!?

*Phew........* Feel so shuang after cursing these ppl. I juz hope that the both of them can get KNOCKED down by car and DIE!!!!

I think next time when I'm on OFF or watz I shld juz switch off my HP so that NO ONE will call n bother me. This morning I received 5 missed calls from my unit and when I call back, no1 actually confessed in calling my HP. Fine.

And juz a few mins ago, some i-dot called me again.

Armourer: Hi, can u open the armskote room now? I'm coming over.
Me: Huh? Who r u?
Armourer: Armourer.
Me: Sorry arz, I'm on OFF now, go call my armskote spec if u wan. BYE!!!

And subsequently hung up my phone.

Last night I was blog-surfing again, and I happened to chance upon some of the blogs of juniors who were ex-haisians and of course those even more junior that r still in haising. And from 12am till abt 3am, while reading some of the random blogs of these ppl, I started recollecting my sec sch days. The fun that I had with my sec sch friends, from sec1 all the way to sec4.

Then I started thinking of some of the "nicknames" that we gave teachers like "kang-kong" and "black hitler". How some ppl like to imitate my Emaths/Amaths teacher's high-pitch voice. About my "lightningS and thunderS". I missed the days when we will stay back after sch to do all the decos for the noticeboard at the back of the class. And I think up to now I still dislike the phy lessons and teacher. And I know during then I was basically CRAZED over my beloved BoA until some of my friends are tired of me saying BoA every now and then. I will never 4get the event when SQ or darrell or was it Denzil who kicked the empty bottle down from the 4th level right down to the 1st level outside HOD and was caught by tt "mo-peng" Colin Ting and Maths HOD. And to think that they seem to be LAUGHING even more when they were being scolded. I think tt's loose nuts arz. Then talking abt scolding, I will not 4get tt "tooT" NG TIAK KEE who's like so kpkb, name tag majiam everyday need to check like tt.

And guessed wat? I suddenly remember I actually have the 2003 graduation CD!! So I started spending roughly 10min searching my whole room for tt CD b4 I finally found it. Phew, luckily I didn't lose it. And while I was watching the 32min video, all the sweet old memories juz keep coming back lar. I seriously miss my sec sch days! Although it's been like 3 years only, but then it seems like a long time has passed. Those happy moments seem so distant in my mind, as I try to recall everything I could of my sec sch days.

But before I realised, I'm kinda zapped back into reality and to admit the fact that I'm now serving the farking army and I simply HATE and DREAD going BACK to tt cursed camp. I'm so sick and tired of army life.

JC life was disaster.
Army life was EVEN MORE disaster.
What's next? To be frank, I don't really look forward to Uni life either, unlike some of my friends who r in army now who actually look forward to this next phase of life after ORD for them.

Me?

Partly maybe cuz I've heard from friends in Accoutancy/Business course in NTU abt how disaster the modules they r taking can be. And the fact that I'm the stupidest compared to them make me feel that I'm NOT gonna make it and confirm do much worst as compared to them. I'm juz a stupid ass I feel.

Most importantly I juz hope to slack, slack and nua and slack and nua.... Until I *shuang*, but when will I get to do tt? After ORD? Haiz, tt's like 15 months to go. I juz wish to go overseas now for some break or watz, but then the STUPID army leave system is so corked up until I donno how it works.

But one thing for sure. I'm so looking forward to the end of 2006 and start of 2007.

Currently on my OFF for today and tml which my darn unit owes me. So my OC has officially told me that he has put my name up for POSTING OUT of this camp... YES!! U didn't c wrongly, I hope I'm getting OUT of this camp SOON!

And I donno wat the FARK those S2 branch ppl r. They seem to enjoy asking LOTS of questions majiam they r like interrogating sum1. Fark, if they r not officers I swear I sure ask them to STFU. And it seems currently my name is in the process of being taken OUT of the Brunei trip. Phew, thankfully I don have to go to Brunei and feed the mozzies my blood.

ARGZ!! I SERIOUSLY CAN'T WAIT TO GET POSTED OUT OF THAT CAMP AND GO SOMEHWERE ELSE!!!!

Sometimes I really wonder why am I wasting my off days juz like that? Lazing at home n rotting, and b4 I realise, it's BACK to camp. Gosh. How sucks can this vicious cycle be? And I juz remember today's my 7th month anniversary is ARMY. Wtf, I still have 15 months to go. Haiz, that's like 66% of the way to go!

Haiz, sianz sianz sianz!!!!

Holding on to that LAST glimpse of hope..... I shall endure!

Come!! Whack me with all the farking armskote stuff! So what if it's only 3 to 4 hours of sleep a day!? As long don't faint can already! Hurry up and give all the "sai kang" to do!! The enthu "sai kang" warrior!!

BUT if I'm NOT gonna get the fark out of tt stupid camp....................................................

I think I can go fark spider liaoz.

SighZ

IT'S BoA's 20th BIRTHDAY!!!

ARZZZZZZ!!!!!

I FEEL SO HIGH NOW!!

Ok...I'm mad.

Fark. Am I jinx or watz? Why when smth good has happened, some fark suay thing juz has to take place next? Fark fark fark!!

Sianz. End of the 5 days break liaoz. Gonna get confined this coming sunday for some stupid 'live' firing. Haiz.
On Saturday went ngee ann city kinokuniya book store to find some books on elementary Japanese. I'm such a kuku. Only manage to find it after like 30min like tt, and best thing is it's actually right at the entrance from where I enter. Fantastic arz. Bought 2 books which cost me$30. Okay arz, i think it's reasonable arz, compared to going for jap courses which can cost around $200.
Then yesterday I spent another $60 on a PC game: Heroes of Might and Magic V. Wah kaoz, I spend nearly 10 hours playing it yesterday lorz. From 3pm to7pm and then 8pm to 2am. Play until shiok. In total I think I spend $150 or so during this long weekend arz. Feel so SHUANG. I donno why, I don feel heartpain at all, but instead think it's necessary to "pamper" myself once awhile.
In the past when I'm still schooling, I might think twice when I buy smth, but then donno y ever since come into army I juz spend w/o thinking 1. Somemore I'm juz getting a PATHETIC $450 a month. Haiz. But whatever arz, now I'm juz so looking forward to the next public holiday, which is CHRISTMAS!?That's like 2 months from now. Sianz sianz sianz! And those ppl in my camp will keep saying "ORD ORD ORD ORD>....." Wtf lorz, ORD then ORD lar. Like tt keep saying can make ppl feel so jealous 1 arz. Haiz, nvm, but I think 1 yr from now I will also be in the "ORD" mood lar. But it's still a long way to go. Haiz, clear 2006 1st then talk.

So fun!!

So I am currently in NBS comp lab using MSN... And b4 that I went to crash my friend's course, AB105 lecture from 230pm to 430pm. My gosh, the lecture is SO boring lar! I yawned like donno how many zillion times. But understadable, as the module is wat organisation behaviour, which I feel in my opinion is quite a stupid n dumb module. Anyway, then pretending to help my friend carry her statistics textbook n walking around as if I'm a student there. Hahaz.. and b4 the lecture I went to the library to explore around..the lee wee nam library... but then I find it quite small arz as compared to what I initially expected.

So after the lecture went to visit my friend's friend's hostel, to see how "big" the hostel room is. Also quite disappointes that NTU hostels are quite small as compared to NUS ones. Hmm.. Somemore NTU only allow double bedrooms for year1s.. piangz... so sucks lorz.

From what I know business/acct students will need to do LOTs of projects. My gosh, that's so sucks arz. I prefer working alone. Haiz, but thinking again, next time go out work also need to work with other ppl. So that's y we need to learn "Organization behaviour" which teaches u how abt HR skills.

Now waiting for my friend to discuss finish her project then can go back liaoz. Lolx.. To certain extent living in hostel is like living in army camps. U see alot of ppl carry their "barang barang" as it's FRIDAY and every1's going home. Hmm... I would say it's an interesting experience today at NBS!

So here I am, on my off for tml, and 2 days of weekend, and deepavali off on Monday, then hari raya holiday on Tuesday. Arz... It's been LONG since I enjoy such a long break.

After tolerating some of the nonsense for a period of time, I talked to my OC abt it, and surprisingly, he's so understanding! Phew... Seriously, sometimes it's becuz of commanders like my OC, for example, that makes life in NS memorable, And pls, I don mean it in a sarcastic way. He's one commander that really knows how to earn not only my respect, but also every single other ppl's respect. If not for the CORKED-UP system in 4SIR, I think personally I won't mind slogging my life for someone like my OC. And I think I will give my 101% if required, as at least I know he appreciates wat I've done. On the other hand, some commanders r such BIG time losers. Kaoz, sometimes I wonder if their degenerative brain is malfunctioning or watz. which can't seem to understanding y so many ppl loathe them.

Seriously, I feel that be it in NS or outside NS, if someone (commander/leader) wanna fark someone, maybe the person shld really think thru in the 1st place whether it's their LOUSY guidance that cause the followers to do or react the wrong way? For example, how can a teacher have the cheek to scold a student if the teacher doesn't even know how to perform his duties well?

But on a lighter note, I'm surprised that quite a few commanders in my company will be going to NBS (Nanyang Business School) next year to take Business or Accountancy. Ok, my so-called future "seniors-to-be". Nice bunch of ppl to mix around with. And of course one PC in my coy who graduated from NTU business, who's ever so nice and say if I next time in uni need any help I may juz find him.

Deep down from the bottom of my heart, such commanders are SO SO HARD to get by. Sometimes I wonder if it's a blessing in disguise to be posted then to Bravo coy of 4SIR. Yes, my coy is okay, but the unit's policies n stuff simply turn me off. Haiz. But thinking thru, I feel that I really need a change of environment. Now I can ony leave my fate to the hands of those twinny-pea brain HQ ppl liaoz.

Being an armskote man.. SUCKS to the core! Fucking piece of shit.... Any idea what does being armskote man means>?

1) Waking up the the EARLIEST and sleeping the LATEST because u have to get ready all the stuff when they wan draw items and start arranging back the items when they return.

2) Getting farked for no apparant reason such as DIRTY sign in/out books cause of the OILY-stainted hands of the soldiers when they sign on the books.

3) And farking hell, some idiots, which include commanders who ALWAYS seem to 4get to sign out, and I've to spend time and energy gathering them back to sign.

4) You will be farking irritated when u r the ONLY one in the armskote room when they draw items, and those SHITHEAD assitants wanna slack and don wan to help u to give the weapon. Fucks, so ALMOST every second, ppl will be shouting at u to hurry up and get them the items they wan, and at the same time ensuring these IDIOTs don't sign at the wrong row, which they seem to ENJOY doing it most of the time.

5) And this one is for SURE!! U will get HEART ATTACK and HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE easily. Imagine when some IDIOTS forget to return items like bayonet or magazines, u will be spending an hour or so COUNTING over and over again, but the figures don't telly. Then when u ask the whole company again, these idiots will be like "O... paisehz.. i 4get to return!" Wtf.... I have a very STRONG feeling that very soon, I'm either gonna get EXTRAs or SOLs or worse still, go to DB!!!

And I donno wat's the farking problem with those pea-brain idiots higher up there doing. Do they actually understand wat is "proper management of manpower"? How could they have like wat 4 ADMIN clerks, 3 STOREMANs and 1 BLARDY armskoteman? Seriously, there shldn't be too many admin clerks, cuz seriously I think at the most 2 is MORE THAN ENOUGH lar!

But I'm not going to voice all that out. I shld just first wait until 27th Oct to know my NEW pes status, then from there I will speak to my OC, S1 and the chief clerk to POST me OUT!!!! So I think now I shld be gathering 101 reasons so why they have to post me out. If everything fails, then maybe I've got to ask "external agencies" for help.

I seriously donno wat the FARK is the problem with the highper authority ppl UP there doing. Fark. I seriously can't stand my unit. Can u imagine when the CO OPENLY DECLARES that he DESPISED ppl with medical problems and will treat them as 2nd class soldiers? Farking piece of shit. And he seems to ENJOY spreading the propaganda to the WHOLE unit, all the way down to the lowest lifeform of men. How would u feel if ppl sometimes give u that "look", as u r juz some farking piece of shit that's worse than those blangadesh workers out there.

I don't know if they r waiting for CHRISTMAS or r they juz feigning ignorance by 4getting to post me out. I DIE DIE will try to get the fark out of tt fark place.

Sometimes I really wonder if I'm cursed or wat. Always getting all the suay shits.